thinking about how lightbulb feels like she has to be the best version of herself or her friends will drop her. this really links to ii12, where two very close people come to a better understanding of her, and vice versa. ("you dont stumble into solutions, you RECOGNISE them. " and "i got you.") and im sort of thinking how maybe from her pov, she had to work for it. like when she found a way to trick salt and pepper into getting into a fight so they could fix time and scaring them with Green Baxter, and when she went to go see paintbrush in ii12 and had that chat with them. maybe she sees this as "i had to do something to get their approval and their decision to reevaluate their view of me was an act of mercy actually and if i dont keep preforming to that standard then i am inadequate". when in reality she is loved who she IS, not for what she does to please them. they didnt make up because lightbulb did something to pander to them, its because they saw deeper into who she really is. this is just a thought i had idk
