I’m tired of this
You know what? I’m tired. I’m tired to see, to hear, to feel, that people hurt each other for anything... I’m tired to see how the human being kills other human beings just ‘cause he can... or wants... And this killing is not only using knives or guns, not only using physical weapons. When we discriminate each other, when we degrade the other by being different or by his way of thinking, when we insult that boy that likes other boys or that girl for liking other girls, when we insult that teen mom that we don’t know that was raped by a 30-years old adult, when we laugh at this guy/girl by being poor and we don’t know (or we “forget”) that his/her dad/mom died and his/her dad/mom must work the double/triple/quadruple for money that allows him/her make some food each fuckin’ day...
I’m tired of this world, I’m tired of this life... I’m tired of doing nothing, just see, just hear, just feel... I’m tired of see the world as a Black-or-White reality, I'm sick of hearing about sides, enemies and separations. I just... I just wish this reality was a bad dream, wake up and look a world at peace, where all of us understand each other with respect...
I wish I can help make a world like this, but I feel so powerless... I wish to resolve my own war, in my own inner world, where each night a voice in my brain says that I will suffer a horrible death while I sleep, or my head will explode, or I will burn, or I will fall in a coma after I close my eyes... I wish to silence my inner demons, those that want I insult the other people by being different... I’m 26 and I feel like garbage, like I’m not good enough. I do not even know where my future is going, then how can I hope to help others if I am not able to help myself?
For that reason, I’m tired of this...
