Mar 29, 2022
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Because I love him
Oh Mim, can you please write something about Ikuma noticing Kaneki is putting his work first before his own boyfriend so Ikuma spends his time trying to cheer Hide up. They fall in love and drama starts when a very lonely Hide frequently sleeps with Ikuma behind Kaneki's back.
I had this written for a while but completely forgot about it. 😅❤️
Very bittersweet.
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Ikuma watches Kaneki shrug off Hide again. “The work is important.” Kaneki would say. “Maybe some other time”. It’s clear to Ikuma that Kaneki hardly pays Hide any attention. He rarely offers any affection. Anyone can see that the blond is lonely. He tries to hide it behind a smile, but the smile never reaches his eyes.
Ikuma tries to comfort Hide the best that he can. Talks, some hugs, and even some late night fun. The ghoul has always loved Hide, and the fact that Kaneki doesn’t appreciate him at all enrages Ikuma.
After everything Hide has given up for Kaneki- his time, his heart, his body, and sometimes nearly his life- Kaneki should be waiting on Hide on his hands and feet.
After every night, Hide looks so guilty. He knows he’s betrayed Kaneki by laying with Ikuma. The spark of life in Hide’s brown eyes has become so dull and faint. That blinding smile never reaches his eyes anymore. Ikuma can see Hide’s empathy skyrocket as he berates himself for being “selfish”. Always putting Kaneki before himself. By each passing day, the blond’s mental state becomes warped. He knows that staying with Kaneki will further destroy him, but that loyalty of his will never let him leave. That guilt.
Hide is so sweet and sensitive to Kaneki’s feelings despite Kaneki blowing off his. The half ghoul isn’t wrong in being serious about his work, but he has other responsibilities too. The human is unhappy. Kaneki’s boyfriend is unhappy, and he refuses to take notice.
Ikuma hears their arguments from time to time. The ghoul has never heard Hide’s voice sound so vicious before. Their words are harsh and could slice away at the toughest person. Sometimes the arguments end with slammed doors. Others just become quiet. Like someone pressed mute. Those are the scariest.
Hide enjoys his nights with Ikuma. He’s so starved for love and pleasure. He soaks it up like a sponge. To watch Hide become so needy and relaxed is enough for Ikuma. To see Hide’s mind off his loneliness if only for an hour or two made the ghoul happy. The blond wants to be held, and that’s what Ikuma does. He wants to be kissed and cherished, and that’s what the ghoul provides. Ikuma knows that Hide sees Kaneki every time. The blond makes sure he’s blindfolded during every session. It hurts Ikuma that Hide is still so wrapped up in a man that will never make him a priority, but that ends when Hide decides not to wear the blindfold. It’s over when Hide cries out for Ikuma instead of Kaneki. When Hide is looking at Ikuma and no one else.
Slowly, that light came back into Hide’s eyes, and so did that smile.
Kaneki finds out. They always do. He’s outraged. They always are. Hide cries and shrinks under the half ghoul’s glare and words. That is the last straw for Ikuma. Ikuma steps in front of Hide and pushes Kaneki back in a challenge. Kaneki is more than willing to fight the trash whom stole Hide away from him, but Hide gets in between them to break it up.
“I may be in the wrong by not severing the ties before going to Ikuma, but you’re just as wrong for neglecting me and our relationship, so get off your high horse,” Hide snaps, finally speaking out. “You didn’t care before, so you have no right to care now.”
“I’ve always cared,” Kaneki growls.
“Really? Then when was the last time you asked me how I was? What I was up to?” Hide questions. He doesn’t pull away when Ikuma holds his hand and interlocks their fingers together. Kaneki snarls. “No. You don’t get to do that. Ikuma has been more loving and caring to me than you’ve been this past year.”
“I’ve been busy. You know that!” Kaneki takes a step forward. Hide holds out a hand to stop him.
“No. It’s over. No more excuses. No more guilt. We’re done,” Hide dismisses and leads Ikuma away before Kaneki could start another battle.
The moment Hide walks out of the room with Ikuma by his side is the first time in forever that Hide feels truly free.
@brandnewwings I heard you wanted to know the ways of the IkuHide
I have climbed mountains, called upon all the Gods, in order to deliver these holy scrolls to you.
anyways, here's for you and anyone else who was wondering how the IkuHide meeting took place.
I think I stan IkuHide now. It’s time. Kanehide has been losing its appeal lately and I firmly believe Ikuma will treat Hide right.
oh u guys didnt know? hide is actually happily married to ikuma and theyre adopting a kid soon! ikuma just didnt make it into the chapter smh :/
Sooo, how about Ikuhide??? I feel like Ikuma would be Hide’s type
Hell yeah, man. I’ve been on the ikuhide train for literal years ever since I found out about Ikuma lmao
I drew a bunch of art of them a little while ago here and @gifti3 and I mapped out an entire storyline for an AU involved with them (’:
You can find some of our hcs here and here AND a fic @tim-drabble-vault wrote based on them here :’D
Music for Your Troubled Soul (Ikuma/Hide)
@tim-drabble-vault I finally did a thing!
”What’s wrong with you, Hide? You look like a cat that just lose their kitten,”.
Hide lifted up his head to look at the owner of the voice. Hidden behind the scarf, Hide smiled softly at the sight of Ikuma. Like always, he always carried around his guitar wherever he goes.
”It’s nothing, Ikuma. I’m just… taking a breath around here,” Hide sighed “The snow is nice today, don’t you think?”
Ikuma sat down next to Hide, putting his guitar on top his lap “Yeah, it’s nice today,”.
The two of them went quiet, letting their conversation ended just like that. However, it was a comfortable silence between them. No words needed to be exchanged because to them, it was already good enough for them to be in each other’s presence.
Ever since Furuta dead, Hide had to handle CCG together with Marude-san and Matsuri-san. At first, he did not want to get involved anymore in this charade. To him, his job was finally done when the big bad guy was dead and Kaneki finally received the peace he deserved. However, he could not walk away when Matsuri-san convinced him that his presence was vital in order to ensure the peace between human and ghouls. Besides, he had history with Kaneki. Him being Kaneki’s (former) best friend made it easier for Kaneki to cooperate with CCG.
It would be a wonderful symbolic, a union between two best friend from two different species.
Realizing that it was important for him to stay, Hide reluctantly agreed. And so, he made sure that he was around with Kaneki whenever it was necessary. If there was any meeting between human and ghouls, Hide always get involved to get a ‘yes’ from the ‘King’. It made things more smoothly with him around seeing that Kaneki only trusted Hide’s judgement among the human.
Hide tried to make sure to be the best friend that he used to be with Kaneki. Cracked few jokes, teased him with some of his ghouls’ companion and telling him how lucky he was to be Touka’s husband. Unlike Kaneki, Hide knows how to keep a lie for the longest time. Why do you think Kaneki did not know that Hide was alive for all this years until he made his entrance?
But, it was getting tiring. This mask that he put on to make sure Kaneki would not go berserk; it was too much to handle. Even so, he could not complain anything about it to anyone else including Marude-san. That old man was like a father that he never had, the last thing he wanted to do was making him worried about his condition. He already had too much on his plate.
With Ikuma, Hide felt… normal. Like, he was just a random young man who roamed around Tokyo with no big purpose in this world. Being with Ikuma reminded him the old times when he was just a regular university student who loves foreign music and interesting stuff. Hide never told Ikuma how his presence was enough to make Hide forget about the burden he had to endure.
Ikuma was innocent, unlike Hide who had seen the hard world beyond its veil.
”You know Hide,” Ikuma finally break the silence “Music can be a remedy for a troubled soul. Some would say it could heal you from the inside. And you, my friend, looks like in need for some healing,”.
Ikuma picked up his guitar and started to sing.
Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leavin' my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me
Hide giggled, but not because he found it was funny. In fact, he was touched to know that Ikuma was singing one of the songs from his favourite boyband long time ago. He could not believe his ears that Ikuma still remembered.
I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me
Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like it's deep within me
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
It seems like we're meant to be
Few people looked at them, appeared to be confused or amused to see a young man with his guitar playing a foreign song underneath a lamppost toward a man in his scarf. Ikuma paid no attention to those strangers. As a matter of fact, he kept on singing to his human friend who gave him the coffee when he almost starved to the death during one of his early days in this big city.
I don't care who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
What you did
As long as you love me (I don't know)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me (yeah)
I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you're comin from
I don't care, as long as you love me, baby
Hide started to join in, singing together with Ikuma even when his voice was no longer like before.
I don't care who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
What you did
As long as you love me (as long as you love me)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
Don't care what you did (yeah)
As long as you love me (as long as you love me)
The two of them danced around the bench, fooling around underneath the fallen snow. As if there was nobody around them witnessing their antics, the two friend with different background kept on singing with all their heart.
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
As long as you love me
Who you are
As long as you love me
What you did (I don't care)
As long as you love me
When they were done, the two of them panted for some breath. They stared to each other’s eyes, and then burst into laughing. Hide had to wipe off his tears after realizing what he had done. If people saw him being like this, no one would have guessed that he used to be a hunted man by one of the powerful organization in this world.
”Now that’s how my first friend in Tokyo should sounded like!” Ikuma beamed “You looked much better laughing than being depressed like an old guy who just lost his wife,”.
”Geez, what a weird analogy to put on me,” Hide punched lightly on Ikuma’s shoulder “But seriously man, thank you. I really needed that,”.
”Don’t sweats on it. We’re friends, remember? Friends always helped each other out,”.
Hide found it odd. Those words, they almost similar with his whenever he tried to assure Kaneki to not worry about him. How the tables have turned…
”I know I can’t do so much for you,” Ikuma scratched at the back of his head “But if you ever need someone to listen, someone to hear your problems… Well, I’m all ears,”.
Hide smiled again before pulling the ghouls into his hug “Thank you, Ikuma,”.
The ghouls hesitated for a while, but then wrapping his arm around the human “No, thank you,” he whispered softly for himself.
***
Kaneki was looking for Hide around for a while, but he did not expect to see Hide within someone’s embrace. Specifically, within another ghoul’s arm that he know nothing of.
On his first instinct, Kaneki wanted to rip off that ghoul away from his best friend. How dare he touch someone so important to his life as easily like that?! Kaneki was Hide’s best friend, he was the only person in this world in this world that deserved his undivided attention.
However, looking at Hide who appeared so content in that hug, making Kaneki think twice of his action. For the longest time, he never saw Hide being so peaceful and serene just like this. Probably that no-name ghoul had done something good to Hide if the human reacted so peacefully like this.
Kaneki placed his hand to his left chest, feeling something uncomfortable inside him. His throat felt bile and his stomach was sick. Something irrational popped out inside the back of his head.
What’s wrong with me? Why do I feel like… angry?