#ill behavior

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[adorationx]

Tom Riley in Ill Behavior 1/3

[austineterno]

[adorationx]

Tom Riley in Ill Behavior 3/3

[johnnygreyart]

So I’m gonna get real for a minute

I have anxiety. Also its nasty twin, OCD. These are not cute little ‘quirky’ things like you see in movies; they affect my life in real ways. There are things that trigger my anxiety. Most of these things have to do with being alone in the house. Taking a shower. Going into the basement to do laundry/clean the cat box.

My anxiety is a nasty beast that whispers things like, “What happens if you fall down the stairs? What happens if you pass out in the shower? NO ONE WILL SAVE YOU. NO ONE WILL KNOW.”

Over the last few weeks, I’ve been working on these things, mostly because I bought a house and now have no choice. Because, let’s be real, I can’t let my cats have a dirty box, and I need to clean my clothes and my stinky self.

It’s a minor victory that I can’t really share with anyone when I spent a night alone in the house, then cleaned the cat box, did the laundry, and showered, ALL BY MYSELF, without going into a panic attack. Without taking a Xanax, either. Because normal, everyday things? Those are the things that you take for granted when you’re not afflicted with mental illness.

TL;DR: Suck it, anxiety.

[hiphopwastelands]

Ill Behavior - Savage Nigga

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[noms-de-guerre]

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[beautifulinnyc]

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