#illuminatcd

[eydetik]

for @illuminatcd​ & david !

“do you ever think about what our life would’ve been like if we just stayed in one place?”

[goldshadowsarchive]

@illuminatcd “Where has all the eggnog gone?” from ms goldberg ofc use ur best (or worst) judgement for which muse is facing her tbh merry crisis / accepting

that doesn't feel like a question she should be asking - given her track record. he's not judging but he's also doesn't want to actively encourage her. after a quick glance around the table, a shrug eventually rolls off his shoulders. " i dunno. i guess someone was faster than you. " he tells her before pointing towards one of the metal drink dispensers. " there's mulled wine in that one, i think. "

[dicodwell]

“ tell me straight.  who would win in a fight between me and a flock of pigeons.  no weapons.  jus’ these bad boys. ”  he holds up two weak fists and throws a punch at the air.  “ also i get to stay in the wheelchair. ”  @illuminatcd​

[prcttylittlethings]

@illuminatcd​ said | “ you’re going to tear yourself apart. “ from karli!

Charlotte knew she was right; she was always right. But she’d made a mistake - a big one - and she didn’t know how to turn back from it. How to make it better, without her entire world imploding around her. 

“You make it sound so easy,” she sighed, her voice hoarse from the tears she’d been spilling. “Talk to him, like he’s not going to hear the words ‘I cheated’ and immediately leave. Like he’s going to listen to what I have to say. It doesn’t matter that he hasn’t been around, that he’s been pulling away - I did the one thing that’s sure to end this engagement. I lost my soulmate - how can I not tear myself apart over it?” 

[huntedvideo]

alexis rose  ,  broken things aren’t always ruined.

                  not always, but he is. finley is convinced that he was far past saving, that nothing could make him whole again. his broken pieces have been glued back together so many times that any moment he could simply fall apart. ‘ you don’t have t’try and make me feel better, ’ in fact, he’d rather she didn’t. it’s a lost cause. he knows that all too well. ‘ we both know i’ll be fine. i always am, right? ’     @illuminatcd.

[ttrgrl]

ever  since  the  scenery  outside  her  window  had  started  to  move,   haley  felt  like  she’d  been  holding  her  breath,   her  face  turning  a  deeper  and  deeper  shade  of  blue  as  the  bus  took  on  the  highway,   like  she  might  pass  out  right  there  at  any  given  second   —   ‘cause  the  longer  she  sat  there  paralyzed,   the  further  away  she  got  from  tree  hill,   from  nathan,   and  the  more  final  her  rash  decision  became.    IF  YOU  WANT  TO  GO,   YOU  SHOULD  GO,   BUT  IF  YOU  DO,   WE’RE  DONE.   how  could  she  have  got  one  single  foot  out  the  door  with  that  statement  echoing  her  head  on  loop?   how  could  she  have  been  so  damn  stubborn  and  immature  and  selfish  as  to  put  her  stupid  pride  and  dream  before  her  marriage?   the  single  most  sacred  and  precious  thing  she’s  got?   tears  burn  through  her  eyes  and  she  sniffs  quietly  while  looking  out  the  window,   a  reminder  that  it  was  too  late  for  all  of  that  now.   what’s  done  is  done,   and  as  much  as  she  might  regret  it,   the  fact  life  as  she  knew  it  back  at  home  was  over  didn’t  mean  her  entire  life  had  to  be.   she’d  made  a  choice,   to  venture  into  a  scary  new  beginning,   and  now  all  she  could  do  was  stick  by  it  and  hope  it  wasn’t  all  for  nothing.

glassy  chocolate  hues  turn  back  to  look  at  chris,   who  she  hadn’t  said  a  word  to  ever  since  he  told  her  michelle  wanted  her  on  the  tour,   and  so  she  finally  mustered  up  the  strength  and  courage  to  get  up  and  walk  over  to  his  spot  at  the  back  of  the  bus,   with  hands  in  her  coat’s  pockets,   ❛    hey,  uhm  —   ❜    haley  frowns,   figuring  out  what  it  is  she  feels  the  need  to  say  and  how  to  say  it  as  she  goes,   palms  clasping  together  as  she  takes  a  seat  in  front  of  him,   ❛   listen,   i  know  things  have  been  a  little  hot  and  cold  between  us  lately,   with  new  york  and  the  e-mails  and  tric  and  everything,   but  i  don’t  want  you  to  take  this  the  wrong  way.   me  being  here,   it’s  not   —   i’m  not  running  off  with  you  (  @illuminatcd​  ),   i’m  running  off  alongside  you,   to  find  out  if  i’m  really  good  enough  and  worthy  of  standing  up  on  a  stage  before  hundreds  of  people  and  playing  my  songs  like  the  rest  of  you  or  not.   i’m  choosing  to  grab  opportunity  at  a  really  high  cost  i’m  not  sure  i  won’t  come  to  regret,   but  you  have  to  know  this  isn’t  about  us  or  the  possibility  of  an  us.   even  if  i’m  not  in  tree  hill,   i’m  still  married,   and  i’m  still  very  much  in  love  with  nathan,   so   —   just  wanted  to  make  that  clear  right  off  the  bat,  before  things  get  any  messier.  ❜ 

[ricochetingtears]

randomized starter harvey & rachel, @illuminatcd​

❛ we can't invite her. mother hates her. ❜  harvey’s eyebrows are raised in disbelief. every time he gets together with rachel, he wishes he wasn’t related to the woman. and he’s currently thinking why did he follow donna’s advice to reunite with family.

[siennabook]

🍷 @illuminatcd / rachel !

you  ever  meet  a  mess  of  a  human  being?  someone  who  is  so  deep  into  their  mess  that  they  can't  see  reality  anymore?  rachel's  been,  uh,  messy  ever  since  sienna  met  her  in  a  women's  studies  class  long  ago,  but  everlasting's  made  her  worse.  like  that  one  meme,  the  "i  could  fix  him"  "i  could  make  him  worse"  one?  yeah,  that  one,  except  everything  seems  to  make  rachel  worse  these  days.  sienna's  reconsidered  friendship  several  times  within  the  past  few  years,  but  she's  distant  enough  from  all  of  that  reality  television  mess  that  the  occasional  dinner  with  rachel  isn't  a  burden.  then  again,  rachel  is  hurting  a  lot  of  other  people,  and  that's  the  part  sienna  takes  issue  with,  but  everyone's  gotta  do  dirty  things  in  this  business,  right?  that's  why  sienna's  chosen  to  pursue  theatre  instead.  still  messy,  but  less  so  than  television.  

          ❛  you...  create  problems  and  point  cameras  at  them.  ❜  sienna  takes  a  sip  of  wine.  pointing  cameras  at  problems  is  how  you  get  views  on  reality  shows,  she  knows  that,  but  this  is  excessive.  ❛  i  think  if  you  left  them  alone,  problems  would  arise  organically.  ❜  not  that  that's  much  better.  ❛  you  know  there  are  plenty  of  other  industries  for  you  to  work  in?  i  could  help  you  transfer  into  theatre.  we  need  more  woman  directors.  ❜