#ilrtp

[thatsmistertoyou]

Im driven always by the desire to create something that people love and come back to again and again and that resonates and makes them feel something real and THAT is why I write. First and foremost.

So I hope it doesn’t come off as massive narcissism to say I want to write another long form game changer bc the newbies don’t know about ILRTP and she doesn’t always get brought up in the tweet threads that Twitter insists I want to see

[thatsmistertoyou]

if lost, return to phil made me CRY and i never cry at fics, it was beautifully written and the story line was perfect, i honestly felt dan's hurt right in the heart, honestly it was great and i honestly didn't even realize it was 6 years OLD

Ahhh thank you so much! I’m so happy you enjoyed it. It’s nice to know it still holds up after all this time 💗

[thatsmistertoyou]

ILRTP spotted in my all timers Spotify playlist 🫵

(literally listened to this bitch on repeat when writing so much that its NUMBER 4 on the playlist)

[thatsmistertoyou]

dnp talking about Romeo and Juliet is a MASSIVE W for me personally ⭐️

[thatsmistertoyou]

Chelle! Just want to say I've been reading and rereading ILRTP since I was 15 and I'm 26 now. I got super sick over Christmas and pulled it up to read for maybe the 8th time or something like that. Thank you for writing it! I still adore it so very much. i hope u get it published one day under diff names. (i think you said that was the plan?)

🥺 I’m so glad to hear you came back to it again and I hope you’re feeling better! It genuinely warms my heart to hear that people love it enough to come back over and over. ⭐️

I don’t really remember if I ever considered that seriously to tell you the truth, but I don’t think that’s possible. For one, the plot is heavily based on 13 going on 30, so I don’t think it counts as original enough lol. And I think its fanfic origins can’t really be erased. It needs the story of Dan and Phil behind it to hit properly. Otherwise, why do we really care about these two guys not working out in the future?

I’m not necessarily opposed to this as a practice (get the bag, I really don’t care) but I couldn’t do it myself. I stand by my work as fanfiction and I don’t think it should have to be anything else to be taken seriously as art. (Not that that’s what you’re suggesting, obviously.)

I did seriously consider making physical copies available. (I’m pretty sure this was before like Amazon had a print on demand type of thing available for self published authors, so it might actually be a possibility now.) For one, I want one. I think physical copies of fanfiction are a hilarious and incredible thing to own. But idk, every time I read it back I catch another typo, so I’m not sure if I can commit to that.

[thatsmistertoyou]

did someone with reach rec ILRTP bc she’s getting her flowers this week

[thatsmistertoyou]

fic writer asks

Name on Ao3: thatsmistertoyou

Fandom(s): phandom, supernatural

Number of fics: 37

1. Fic you spent the most time on: realistically,  If Lost, Return to Phil. wrote that beast over several months and worked on it for innumerable hours. But, Kinsey Two is probably a close second, if we’re counting stand-alones.

2. Fic you spent the least time on: maybe SOS? It was for phandomlittlepop so the idea was to write less than 1k and I still went over after massive edits. I remember writing the whole thing in one or two sittings and just banging it out because the pressure was so low. Can’t recommend that experience enough. 

3. Longest fic: with 53k,  If Lost, Return to Phil again. I’m guessing she’s going to be the answer to a lot of these. 

4. Shortest fic: at 372 words, I actually forgot about this little one - Ten Things

5. Most hits: with 85k hits (!!!)  If Lost, Return to Phil

6. Most kudos: If Lost, Return to Phil again (3336 kudos wow)

7. Most comment threads:  If Lost, Return to Phil again again - almost 400 comments! (thank you for commenting if you ever have. I get emails for comments and kudos and I appreciate every single one.)

8. Fave fic you wrote: In the interest of keeping things interesting, I’ll pick one that hasn’t been mentioned yet - When the Sun Came Up. It’s a good angsty time and my fave part of the series. 

9. Fic you want to rewrite/expand on: I’d like to revisit Right Where We Are at some point. I have a couple of old drafts/ideas that I might turn into something. Please let me know if you want to see the series come back/what you’d like to see <3

10. Share a bit of your WIP or share a story idea that you’re planning:

from Mend, a WIP:

Dan flops onto the bed, hair still damp, and curls into Phil’s open arms. Phil holds him like it’s his job, rubbing soothing lines against his back and tucking them securely under the covers. 

Dan really doesn’t have the verbal capacity to express how thankful he is for Phil in this moment, or most other moments where Phil is exactly what he needs. They didn’t get here naturally, though - it took a lot of painstakingly detailed communication and a large learning curve for Phil to learn what Dan needs in each one of his ten thousand depressed moods. 

And the best part is Phil never made Dan feel like a burden for it. That’s how Dan learned to accept his comfort without guilt. All of depression’s nasty baggage - guilt, shame, feeling like you’re not worth the effort - truly unconditional love, he’s learnt, is the antidote.

So he lets Phil hold him, lets him not fully understand, lets him not know what else to do, because it’s the best they can do. He clings to Phil like he clings to the hope that tomorrow will be better. 

He tries to take it one day at a time.

I was tagged by CC @creativityprince​! thanks for tagging me and enabling my procrastination <3

If you write, I tag you to answer these (instead of writing, like I’m doing rn). 

[thatsmistertoyou]

GOOD GOD I LOVE YOUR WRITING /someone who just finished if lost return to phil

Thank you!! I’m glad you liked it :)