im not shy about my crohn's disease but i AM shy about how much it affects me and i think thats doing me no good at all, so im just going to say it. this disease is scary!! having a chronic illness has been one of the single most traumatizing things in my life, and im often overcome with grief and fear and so much sadness because of it
and i just wanted to let anyone else out there who has a chronic illness know that its OKAY TO BE SCARED. its so terrifying not knowing how your body will fare on any given day. its so overwhelming and exhausting not knowing if youre getting better or worse. its a lot to deal with
i was diagnosed with this disease almost two decades ago now and im still scared and sad about it. sometimes it takes a lifetime to come to terms with this sort of thing. sometimes you never come to terms with it and you have to figure out how to cope as well as you can
sometimes all i can do is lay in bed and cry about it, and if thats all you can do, well, thats okay too
