#im home

[terriblechickenhousebuilder]

[calkale]

wait cause i live here actually

[lennonharrisons]

hottest straight married couple

[rowanisawriter]

im back east i made it home and i am never NEVR letting a corporation tell me what to do EVER AGAIN

[whys-nosense]

ISAAAAAAAAAAA💕💕💕

[uunderyourspelll]

you're straight up blushing roz

[alluringniss]

AND TODAY I DECIDED TO JUST MEDITATE AND I GOT MY DR MEMORY?!!

no music, no noise, no nothing. just me and silence.

maybe about 3 minutes into not moving and just straight up stare into the darkness behind my eyelid. my eyes were getting hella floaty. like i felt light and thought i was gonna start floating anytime soon and i kid you not i felt a presence. you know those feeling you’d have if someone were to be behind you YOU KINDA JUST FEEL THEM. SOMEONE WAS BEHIND ME ENERGETICALLY. i could feel it radiating from behind. and omg i was smiling half mediating hehehe. like who is that behind me. DEAN WAS THAT YOU.

while I kept meditating I keep getting these “imagination”, these scenarios that came into my head so damn easily. and it’s way clearer than usual. it was definitely my memory for sure. it was slow at first but it was with ease. like you just know. sam and dean look way realer (as if they’re right there with you). i got one where i was at the road house like some sort of bar. sam was just standing there clearly. he was wearing this white long button up sleeve with little patterns on it. he had his s1 hair :,). he was looking over the counter. those bar chairs were round. and it seem to me that the bar was dark and IT FELT VERY 2000s coded. ITS A MEMORY ISTG. I had more but it seem to me that’s the only one that stayed. i don’t know what to feel but peace and small happiness for now :,)

all i really did was say fuck this im gonna let go. relax relax and trust. i stop caring halfway. i mean i still had thoughts but i was more open then usual. <3

[lesbrarian]

if y'all don't hear from me it's because im HERE