at diso...just currently contemplating life. kind of. that sounds dramatic and intense but it’s not at all.
right now...life has been good. life has been good because i am thankful. and that’s really it. i’m thankful for my job. i’m thankful for my students even though they literally make me go livid inside some days. i’m thankful for my pairing that they are still here for me even though i feel like a failure most days. i’m thankful for my small group, their bubbliness. they have challenged me and shared with me what i needed to hear in my life. i’m thankful for sisters in Christ. in moments like these, i ask, God, i’m trying to serve you, in my weakness, in my dumbness, i try to serve you.
but all You do is that You keep serving me. You keep going. And it’s not stopping. I don’t deserve this. I don’t even deserve anything that I have, yet you have given it to me.
thank You that I can be thankful because of You.