reminder for the bad days:
everything hurts, i know, it’s okay to cry your eyes out tonight, but please keep going, wake up tomorrow, and take your first step towards change and growth.
i know it hurts, i know. you needed to learn this in order to grow. do not beat yourself up because that’s why you were damaging others to heal yourself. heal yourself, by yourself. you’ve lost one too many friends recently and you HAVE to accept it was for your own good, do not be angry, do not dwell in this sadness. they needed to kick you out of their lives to heal BECAUSE of your choices, they only did it knowing you would grow and heal from it as well.
They all cared about you, but you didn’t care enough about yourself to be able to clearly care and see them for what they were asking you. i know you thought you cared so much, you cared in the wrong ways, baby girl. it is life, evolve, do not repeat. let go or you’ll only wake up tomorrow even worse. some friends are not meant to stay long in our lives at all. even if you beg and even if you thought they would never leave months ago. grow up, suck it up, feel, heal, grow. or you’ll end up getting numb and cold and being careless but this time will be and hurt worse, you hurt even more people around you. because if this happens again, you will not only not care about yourself, you’ll not care for others as well, and you’ll have nothing to live for but will be too numb to realize it.
katie, stay positive, you have got this.