This date, Last year, It was different.
Dear my missing old Ammar, to be freaking honest, I feel comfortable with you and I feel like Ive known you since, forever. I fall in love with you with every single scent that you left for me. There was something about you and I knew that there was this undeniable attraction that felt for you. From there till here, it has been wonderful journey and you know what made it wonderful? YOU! with every passing second, I discovered new things and new shades that continued to make me drool and lose myself.
Love A, I still remember the first time we met. Im not sure if its a date or not but then you said its a date heee 🙈 I ingat lg i nda suruh you sampai imago dulu sbb i ndamau you nampak i dulu sbb i malu 🙈 I was so nervous okay ish 😝 I tunggu you dkt watsons, and you know what sayang, actually kan i saw you coming tapi i betapuk di belakang 😂 acah-acah cari barang hahahaha padahal malu eee 😜 then we met, face to face ahhh i cant believe it hehehe of course first convo "Hi" 😂💛 then we go jalan, and the first thing in my mind was "Cendol"!!!!! Kita share satu ja sbb takut nda habis and siapa ba juga dtg2 imago terus p cari dessert!! 😂😂 Only us 😝💛 mau share 1 sudu tapi hm ndamau nnt awkward 🙃 And then we go jalan2 but since I crave for sushi but then dkt imago tiada sushi so we go surs! &&&& you bought me famous amos!! its a present is it? Hehe to be honest sayang, that was my first time eating famous amos sbb i nda brp suka bau dia but my loved ones gave me so I'll take it, hehe thank you 💛💛💛 Love, your very sight gave me goosebumps. As you came closer and stood right in front of my eyes, everything seemed so majestic. It felt as if the most beautiful dream of my life came true. The man of my dreams was right in front of me. Not a day goes by when your love does not prove me right. I cant describe the way you have touched my soul and stolen my heart. That was the very first time we met, A 😿 Thank you for being such a wonderful soul that you are. Thank you for those three magical words 😞❤
But it was different now. Everything has changed. We are not the same anymore. Our conversations and giggles, Our hopes and dreams, and the promises that we made. How could you left so fast and so easily old Ammar? What happened? What made you let go of me? No matter how hard I try to keep you, you’ll never come back to me. No matter hard I try, you can’t. You just can’t. Its empty and its cold, and I dont know how long its been because you were my time, and you just are not around anymore. I miss you so much.
From day 1 till today, you are still the one for me. I felt like I had known you forever, telling you my secrets and what I didnt want ever. You listened to me. I bet you thought I’d never end. Who would have thought we would become more than just friends. Over a period of time I got to know the real you. A guy so caring and gentle with A heart so true. I told you I’d never leave because of the feelings I have inside. I know you like no one I have ever known, and sometimes I wonder what I’d do if you are gone? So I’ve decided time answers it all. but always remember what I have said, meeting you has changed my life, and I really love you so. The feelings I feel for you I am never letting go. Remember me always and I will to. I always think of me and you. I hope its still you and me, in the end. Baby tau, this is the best for us. Ndapalah, kalau dgn cara ni dpt buat kita dua happy and hubungan kita diberkati, Im okay with it. As long as we are still together. Muah, i love you, still does to this days ♡
To the missing old Ammar, I miss you. I hope you come back to me one day if Allah wills, Allahumma Aminn ♡♡
