#imposter vents

[pearly-stargirl]

I don’t like my cousins.

Like most of them don’t even care that I’m here they talk to me cuz the adults tell them too. They never really liked me or hung around me

All my older cousins barely interact with me except one and most of my younger cousins suck shit as well..

Might as well kms.

[pearly-stargirl]

never showing my mom any of my drawings again.

[pearly-stargirl]

adults are so fake.

[pearly-stargirl]

so my mom and dad are fighting because they went to buy my little brother new uniforms but there was so much traffic and the line was so long that it took them an hour. sigh

and I’m the problematic one btw

[pearly-stargirl]

Why am I so fucking paranoid.

[pearly-stargirl]

trigger warning for the sensitive ppl

it’s not that venty but I guess it kinda counts? Idk

my life is so dry. So dry that I sleep for 12 hours a fucking day.

and let me be real for a sec I have nothing to look forward to now except dance class and mayblade art. School? Closed. Friends? All busy in their own lives.

if I wanted to try a new hobby my parents would shot it down like ‘you already do dance! Just focus on that!’ NO MOM NO DAD YOUR DAUGHTER IS PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY INCAPABLE OF DOING THAT BECAUSE YOU TAUGHT HER THAT SHES JUST A GIRL AND WOULDNT AMOUNT TO ANYTHING UNLESS IM SUPER TANLENTED FUCK U?!

sigh. Anyway. If I wanted to wake up early and be productive like draw something or take care of myself for a change I can’t! Because I have to help my mom make food in which she always ends up yelling at me for taking too much space or some shit. And I don’t want that so I go back to sleep even though I naturally wake up at 7am or 8 am.

life sucks rn.