So the other day I realised I was getting into old reckless and impulsive spending habits
I hadn't spent a lot yet but it was escalating in frequency and amount I was writing off "not a lot"
And I have had serious issues with reckless and impulsive spending before. It's a serious issue with me. I cannot be trusted with money because I will spend it because buying things feels good in the moment
When I noticed I was slipping into old habits I deleted the banking app from my phone and decided that I need to check with my husband before each purchase again, no matter how small, because that's the level of oversight I need.
And at first I was beating myself up about this but I messaged a friend and she was like "you are being WAY to hard on yourself" and I really thought about it and realised she was right
Yes it's not good to fall into impulsive spending but I was treating it like I was 21 again and spending money I literally didn't have in the bank to get a piercing on a whim
That's not what happened
What happened was I noticed I was slipping into old habits. I identified how to prevent it from getting worse and implemented the fixes and boundaries that I needed. And I did it before it was an actual problem for us.
That's not a failure that's a win. That's something to take pride in.
And it's ok for me to take pride in that win
