#imsorryimlate

[ashiswhatsleftbehind]

HAPPY GAY FOURTH

[thebibi]

your post about “loving someone despite their ruination” is very interesting, and i feel like it does have a proper hold in several of the characters/relationships in the novel. however, i couldn’t help but think of van helsing’s wife, and how he seemingly doesn’t love her despite her “ruination”, what with considering her dead and calling her a “no-wife”. any thoughts? i go a bit back and forth on thinking it casts van helsing in a positive or negative light; perhaps his ability to let go is what makes him well suited to potentially you-know-what 🤔

I always had a negative impression of Van Helsing's treatment of his wife...when I first read Dracula I actually misinterpreted the text and assumed they separated and that's how she was "dead to him but alive in the Church's eyes". This statement still feels very negative, even if we take into consideration his broken English. Simply, their marriage doesn't pass the "love that overcomes ruination" part.

Tying it back to the novel, Van Helsing's relationship with his wife is also an example of outdated societal practices vs the modern relationship the Harkers have. They had a marriage that was expected of them and once their son died it all fell apart. But with Jonathan and Mina they are very well matched for each other. Mina marries Jonathan after he's seemingly gone mad, in fact. Van Helsing's praise of Mina and telling Jonathan to be grateful feels more like he's projecting.

I'm not sure what you mean by "you-know-what" so I'm going to put the rest under a cut.

Do you mean Van Helsing's staking of the vampire women? Its a mystery to me as well. The closest theory I can think of is that symbolically he's taken on her role in the story, as a confidante of Mina and as the leader of Lucy's suitors. Lucy asks him to give her peace and he's taken on that task even further by killing the other vampire women as well -- to give them peace as well.

I don't know if you meant something else. Definitely the memory of Van Helsing's wife contributed to how quick he is to want to mercy kill Lucy!

[typhemoonrise]

Valentines Day Exchange

It’s a little late (sorry!) but here’s my piece for the valentines day exchange! I hope you like it!

Honey? I Want Kids.

http://archiveofourown.org/works/13699041

“I don’t know whether to be offended or happy, so I’m gonna go with both and say you’re a sea urchin, but I love you anyway.”

“You must have called for a reason you know, you usually just text if you wanna talk.”

“Ah, yes,” Tooru startled a little realizing that their banter had made him forget the previous reason for the call,” Actually, I have a concern.”

“I’m listening,” Akaashi sounded worried through his apathetic mask, the sudden drop into the octave of their language revealing this.

[synodicsean]

u ever made one of them alignment sheets for jack's egos??

I haven’t! I might soon, though, if someone wants it!

[kingofcomedy]

i literally misread your url as "apelester" and i was so appalled omg 😂

ajgkdxbsej that’s so funny omg!!

[thebibi]

“i feel like van helsing would pick the locks and escape early only to be labelled insane bc he didnt keep a diary” and then jack ~heroically~ has him transferred to his own asylum to take proper care of him 🫶🏼 (😈) (sorry)

NOT sorry, at all!

I'm just imagining Jack running off to Budapest and showing up almost with a heavy sigh and an eye roll because he knows Van Helsing gets up to strange travels and is prone to getting in trouble. But when he finally sees Van Helsing in his bed ridden state he is sobered and vows to help him recover no matter what!

And Van Helsing feels a bit embarrassed because, he wishes he could keep this dashing, charming Indiana Jones type persona around Jack but instead he's so utterly traumatised and broken. He's a sick old man now, and he hates that. At the same time he knows he can't expect Jack to believe him on what really happened in that castle. He can hardly believe it himself. The only thing he wrote was a makeshift will to Jack incase he dies before escaping the castle.

When they come back to Purfleet, Jack makes it an imperative that Van Helsing stay with him until he feels better. Instead of a normal bedroom for other patients he gives him one of the larger suites, his own study, whatever he wants. He even gives him an attendant in case anything should happen. And the professor recovers quite well under the circumstances. Jack will drop everything (even the patient he was currently with) to check on Van Helsing.

But things take a turn for the worse when he keeps insisting the supernatural was involved. And then he insists his tormentor is the same foreign nobleman who has moved into Carfax next door. Jack cannot believe it and is determined to figure out the "real" cause even at his old mentor's expense. Perhaps Van Helsing starts to feel this is the second time he's being held prisoner. And Jack refutes this, because he WANTS to help him recover. He loves him dearly. But he cannot let Van Helsing go if that means throwing himself into danger again. And maybe underneath it all is Jack being in denial over his own loneliness and wanting a companion, but that is surely not affecting him, not at all!

Anyway RIP to Lucy because there's no way Jack could trust sending Van Helsing to see her. They would get to have some steamy conversations about madness though.

[thebibi]

fake dating to avoid jonathan’s kukri knife?? 👀 god, your mind…. pls tell me more

LMAO This idea is so dumb. This is from a draft I never published back in October:

Ok but it would be pretty funny if Jack and Van Helsing's private meetings weren't really that subtle at all and every day Jonathan has to pretend he doesn't see them give knowing glances to each other before going somewhere private or "going to check out this cafe", like he isn't one step away from losing it over Mina.

Arthur and Quincy try to calm him down and tell him they've seen Van Helsing drag Jack to a random room before when Lucy was ill and they had that private signal to each other during their meeting on the 5th, its fine it's just their thing. There's also this underlying tension, that if she turns, Jonathan will enact his promise to follow her in vampire matrimony. Which is why he needs to know what the hell the Doctors are doing all the time!

Jonathan is fed up and straight up ASKS Jack, to which he tried to explain awkwardly that they just need to be alone together sometimes, and he tries to protect the professor's image, and its such a wet noodle of an answer, its quite honest actually, and Jonathan is stressed and sleep deprived, so he has a big sigh of relief and goes, "OH. You're dating. Well why didn't you say so from the beginning!"

And yeah, that's the galaxy brain moment. Fake dating to avoid your friend's murderous husband. LMAO

[thebibi]

okay but your post about how jack’s diary entries would be if he was the one travelling with VH right now….. you mentioned that jack would say it’s too cold to write, and as someone with chronically ice cold hands, i always have to pause when writing by hand to rub my hands together to warm them…. and it just got me thinking, what if jack was complaining about his cold hands and then VH held his hands to warm them up? rubbed them between his own to get the circulation going? maybe even breathing hot air on them? 👀

THIS WOULD BE PEAK ROMANCE ARE YOU KIDDING ME

Van Helsing would be so encouraging to Jack in between rubbing their hands together, telling him only he can record everything in such a poetic and eloquent way...that he's so brave for accompanying an old man like him into a hellhole....and Jack wouldn't even realize his entries get longer and his hand writing is getting better and better.