Boundaries & Negative Self Talk: Yesterday felt like crap because for a half session, it was almost as if I forgot everything learned and my mind started to enter panic mode. Not to belittle anyone here but all of the compliments in the world mean nothing when you cannot say a positive thing to yourself. I took a moment to breathe and be a bit more forgiving to myself. I'm reminding myself that I'm a beginner and some things will feel a little foreign. Patience, absorbing in feedback from coach Morit and self forgiveness in my fuck ups is where I will improve. Knowing my ticks, limitations, goals and boundaries are exceptionally helpful to get out of those dark moments. One of the things that I'm adamant about THIS PARTICULAR part of the journey is not accepting advice from anyone outside of my trainer. I managed to piss a few folks off in inbox because they started to "correct" my form and they might be right. But if a person asks you to respect their struggle and growth, especially if they have someone there to guide them through the journey, your suggestion is a violation. I like to bounce back thoughts to people: Why do you NEED to tell someone something? Is it really for them or is it verbal diarrhea for you to feel like you saved someone from themselves? Do you secretly desire to be admired, heard or are you truly a mentor? Even instructors watch their pupils make mistakes before they correct them and had ample training to not only do so but with tact, compassion, encouragement and knowledge of their client. If I refuse to allow my own dark thoughts to take residence in my brain for too long, I'm certainly not going allow unsolicited advice - correct or not - to play hockey on my training. Certain things aren't negotiable; this is one of them. There's nothing passive about it: When a person state that they don't want your feedback, it's not about you; keep your commentary to yourself or go talk to a wall if it bothers you that much. Not respecting it is concern trolling at its finest. Cheers to day two and learning something about myself in this powerlifting process. Long run today. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #powerlifting #imtraining2019 (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0GY4U0nq89/?igshid=1x9epmeyuzn8g