#ina mo

[blobm0nster]

Acting all high and mighty.

[zenclesk-blog]

I guess you're right. I don't know who you think you are.

My father finds something displeasing. Something we both do. He shouts. At me. Possibly considering the possibility that it may have been you. But no. He shouts at me. But it wasn’t me. I know it for a fact. So I’m stuck dumbfounded.

I look to you and you’re listening. You’re on your phone. You’re not listening but I know for a fact that you can hear him. With that voice how could you not? Something about me. Something about always the same. I don’t look like I want to stop, do do I? How many time does he has to tell me until I finally give and shove it into my brain? How many times until he finally gives and gives up? Maybe when he’s finally sick like he always said he would be. Maybe when he’s dead.

I cringe. I don’t want to listen to this. I look at you and I cringe. You don’t get to listen to this.

But if he’d known it was you, we wouldn’t even get a single peep.

Huh.

Sometimes I wish I were you. Sometimes I am you. Sometimes I wish I’ll never end up like you.

I know who you think you are. Sometimes you are what you think you are. Sometimes I’m sure you’ll never be what you think you are.

How could you say that you came back to guide me? You never did. You never talked to me about what really mattered. All you did was shout. Leer upon me while I made my walk. Slap me with your splintered ruler whenever you found something you didn’t like. And who were you to do this? I don’t know you. Or maybe I know you too well already. How could I know you as what you think you are? You lie about yourself. I find out more of you from other people. From myself. You don’t want to introduce yourself to me. Not your flaws. You want me to worship you as a deity. Like you’re perfect. But in doing so, you only allow me to realize that you’re not. Far from it. You will not accept my flaws because you can’t accept yours.

And that’s why you hate me.

Because I am your flaws.

And I can live with that. I am not a flaw. What you think is wrong is more than acceptable to me. Of course. That’s what I am. I can embrace what to you is poison. I can do with pride what you’ve come to regret.

And that’s why you hate me.

Because you want me to be what you wanted at this age. You want to make me what you will have been had you made the ‘right’ decisions and I am going entirely the wrong way.

No.

I’m going the right way. I’m going in the best direction that will take me where I want to be. Far away from you. Far away from what you’ve become. And you know what? I’ll make sure I enjoy it. I’ll make sure this makes me happy just like you’ve failed to do. I’ll make sure that the answer will be yes when in the future you sneer at me and ask with sarcastic poison oozing, “You still think I’m wrong?”

I hope I make you happy. I hope you live long. Long enough for me to shove between your the smiling lips and into your throat the life I’ve given you that’s so good you will once again regret the decision you made. The decision to put me down and restrain me.

I wish I could love you less. But I can’t. You wouldn’t believe this, of course. Not any more than you’ll believe that I don’t need you. Cause that’s why you think I’m still here. Because I need you. Bit no. I do not. I’m here because I do love you.

No matter how hard you get I love you.

And I am hoping against every available hope that I don’t stop because I’m pretty sure I may be able to.

So don’t push me.

[thelexidy]

Kajoke

Niel: hoy! Nanjan yung ina mo

Marciu: HAHHAHA

Niel: mark, kabait pala ng ina mo

Hoy, yung ina mo nasa labas

Yung inamo daw!

😂😂😂

[angninja]

tumblr ko, bestfriend ko.

Lahat ng sinusulat ko dito akin. Kaya ayokong may gumagaya sakin. Kasi bestfriend ko ang tumblr, binibigay ko lahat tapos gagayahin mo lang?

[samfieee]

Nakakainis yung dating blogger na nagpapa-promote sa'yo nung hindi pa siya famous pero ngayong famous na hindi man lang marunong tumanaw ng utang na loob. Haha! Ang bitter ko lang. Kainis kasi talaga. Dahil mayro'n ka lang looks, kaya ka sumikat. Pasalamat ka Christmas ngayon. Fugde you hard.

[matabangutak]

Bakit daw siya Baby? Kasi daw siya ang BABYhag sa puso ko.