#incredibly angry

[willelmikes]

dude ofc the second ao3 goes back up our internet goes out

[houseglucksburgmonpezat]

And there it is—regression.

This country fucking sucks. What the hell are we doing???

[intheticklecloset]

The next time someone posts an untagged MHA spoiler on my dash, I'm unfollowing. I'm done playing this game.

[hurtsystem]

Don’t talk to me

Don’t look at me

Fucking leave me alone, I don’t want you here

[werewolves-of-decay]

having really bad violent ideation

[crazycrackersworld]

Well the angel God lend me left today. So let's see who I managed to sleep tonight. And if I have a hard time sleeping the next couple days, I did get four nights a good sleep in a row so I guess it's like putting money in the bank? Not sure if that's how it works.

Thought I'd like to thank God for the Lord or whatever's up there or at least sending the angel in the first place. It was nice to be calm and relaxed have a lap to put my head in when I was losing it. I didn't have to talk or let me feelings fall out of my face it was nice.

I did manage to get what I wrote for my aunt's obituary done today I haven't been able to tackle anything for Tim yet though. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be able to get something done for my uncle.

I know that the pain isn't going to go away anytime soon I know that it's going to be something I'm going to have to work through for quite a while so I'm prepared for that. But in going through my thoughts and my feelings the last few days I've come to the realization that I think something inside of me died and that kind of scares me.

I've never been a big one for forgiveness I usually leave that up to God but it kind of feels like any capacity that I had for forgiveness died with Tim and I just have this empty space that's just filled with rage and anger and hate and a nearly insatiable desire for revenge.

Right now I have no idea what that means but I have a feeling it's something that's not going to be good for other people, not necessarily for me. I just have this feeling that my capacity for vengeance has increased tenfold as has my desire for it.

I mean Tim always told me and I'll forgive or move on I think I was almost at a point where I was ready to do that certain things and certain people but I was almost ready not fully ready. And although I know it's something that he would want to see me do he's not here to reinforce that and all I want is pay back for that.

So I have to see where this leads me, but I have a feeling that I'm about to walk down a very dark dark road. And the thing that concerns me the most is I have absolutely positively no fear of anyone or anything that I may encounter on that dark road.

I guess I just wait and see what happens.

[wakemeup-enoughisenough]

sooooo are we gonna talk about how misogynistic the writing of umbrella academy is or are we gonna ignore it bc your mychem boy can do no wrong

[shadowstep-of-bast]

me: *gets heated reading a thing about skyrim*

me: okaaaaay thats enough tumblr for the day