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Virgil, Janus, ‘Silence’

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The details of Virgil’s environment gradually pieced together as he awoke. There was the television, volume too low for Virgil to know what it was broadcasting. There was the swipe of a book page that brought with it the faint smell of an old library. And there was the slow rise and fall of the chest that Virgil was currently snuggled against. The slim, suit-clad chest.

Virgil fought to keep his eyes closed as the realization dawned on him that he was in Janus’ lap.

Of course, Virgil had cuddled Janus during babysitting sessions before. Though it had never carried over into Virgil’s non-regressed headspace. He was definitely a grown-up now.

Yet he didn’t move. He didn’t want to move. He remained still and feigned deep, steady breathing as best he could as he basked in the warmth of their contact.

Then the body beneath him suddenly shifted and Virgil tensed and gasped at the movement.

Both of them froze.

It was obvious that Janus must have realized Virgil was awake. Virgil’s heart pounded in his chest. Janus would ask if he was awake and Virgil would have no chance of hiding the truth. Even his silence in the face of such a simple question would trigger Janus’ alarm.

Instead, Janus asked: ‘Are you still little?’

His voice was so gentle that Virgil felt comforted enough to shake his head.

After a moment of deafening silence, Janus’ arms tentatively wrapped around him.

Virgil sighed, relaxing further into the secure embrace.

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7!! I love dogs and Logan being jealous of a dog sounds both funny and sad for Lo!! (P.S hi bee i hope you are doing well and here is a reminder you are amazing!!) -👑

7. you’ve heard of roman being jealous of vee and patton being jealous of logan, now get ready for: logan being jealous of a dog

oh i was SO hoping someone would ask for this one, thank you both!!

in the future (idk how long in the future but at least a year after LABD but maybe longer) when the caregivers are more confident in being able to look after their littles they decide it's finally time to adopt a dog!!

i won't go too much into the dog headcanons bc that's gonna be a fic one day 🥺🥺 but they get a cute dog who has three legs!

and one evening during maybe the first few weeks of having them when the novelty hasn't quite worn off, they are all chilling in the living room (the boys are big) and logan ro and vee are on the couch and the dog is on patton's lap in the armchair - which is extra cute because its not a small lap dog it's pretty big

and the doggy does something cute like does a little kicky in their sleep or is being playful with patton and pat gets overwhelmed by cute and gushes 'aww i love you so much! you're such a handsome girl yes you are, yes you are! i love you so so much!!' and tucks a doggy blanket around them!

and on the couch logan frowns very very slightly, turns his head to patton, shakes it and looks back to the TV, then looks back and says 'do you love me?' in a very out of place casual deadpan tone

and patton looks up to him with a shocked smile and logan quickly blushes and realises what he just did but before he can take it back virgil and roman both burst out laughing

'of course i love you logan' patton giggles and carefully slides the dog out of his lap to get up and approach the couch

'thats not necessary, thank you-' logan tries to say

but the boys are still chuckling and patton grabs a normal blanket and jokingly tucks it around logan 'oh youre such a handsome man, yes you are! yes you are!'

'no, that is enough,' logan insists as patton breaks down into laughter as well. logan is pouting. but the blanket is warm so he holds it around himself anyway. 'well, thank you very much everyone. i regret everything.'

patton just chuckles and kisses logans cheek and whispers so the boys can't hear (theyre still laughing anyway) 'i love you so much loganberry' and logan smiles and kisses pattons lips 'i love you too' and holds his arm out for patton to join him under the blanket

logan does get past teasing pretty easily, he has a very thick skin, but you can bet virgil and roman don't ever let logan live that night down. whenever anyone tells the dog they love them either virgil or (more often) roman will go 'but do you love ME??'

Vee, rubbing the dog's belly: ugh youre so cute, i love you

Ro, pretending to be Logan: but what about me?? where are my tummy rubs?? where are my kissies?? what a cruel cruel world!

Logan: Little prince, you're officially up for adoption

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Hmm how about another hc;

Nana Janus made the boys some presents but cause of his colour blindness he messes up the colours so instead of red and purple they're brown and blue and gets p embarrassed and tries to hide them thinking he's ruined it but the boys hardly even notice the colours, they're just excited to get a gift from Nana! They love their gifts! (in the future, maybe Logan or Patton subtly extend an offer to help him choose the right colours so he can do the boys' colours)

🥺🥺 imagine janus tried to crochet vee a giraffe toy and was so convinced it was purple with blue spots

when vee looks at it he giggles and hugs it and patton is like aww its a horse! and logan is like no its a brachiosaurus. and janus laughs and talks to vee in baby talk 'your mama and papa are being very silly. It's a giraffe, look at all the spots!' and he points to it

and patton and logan look then patton very tentatively asks 'um... what spots?'

and janus' face kinda drops and he looks at logan. 'Lo, is it purple with blue spots?'

logan is very regretful to say 'no janus, it's just one shade of blue'

and janus clenches his teeth because this is the bunny all over again, he just wanted to get virgil something purple why was it so hard!

but baby vee just squeezes it tighter and says 'biwaf! biwaf!!' and gets bouncy and starts shaking it (no its not a rattle he just likes shaking things)

if you tell a baby its a giraffe then they will know its a giraffe and vee wouldnt care if it wasnt - its a softie and its from his nana!! so he loves it and doesnt let go of it

omg WAIT no its not just a softie its one of those paci pals!! the tiny toys you can attach to ur paci handle so u can stroke it while u suck paci!! omg!!! and vee ALWAYS uses it!! janus is v proud thank u v much

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Random fluffy baby hc- Vee sometimes just stares at his cg for a few moments before smiling all happy. Patton nearly cries at the cuteness every time and it gets Logan especially flustered.

yesyesyesyesyesyesyeayes oh my goshhhh

i totally imagine this, when patton is singing to vee he just watches his papa in awe or when logan is reading to him sometimes he feels virgils head turn on his chest and looks down to see the baby is just blinking sleepily at him

and when the cgs look down at him and smile or coo or something then vee either smiles back or he really really gently reaches up n just places his hand on their cheek and squishes it then giggles softly

and i love the idea that patton gets excited and emotional and goes '!!!! oh my gosh!!! youre such a sweet little baby!!!' but logan does a windowserror.exe and stammers (at least for the first couple times it happenes)

actually this reminds me of a couple headcanons but theyre not entirey related, still though

1) patton singing to vee while he changes his diaper and vee comes out from hiding behind mento because he loves looking at papa when he sings

2) when vee stared at patton for a while then surprisingly accidentally slapped him because he's clumsy and was trying to boop papa's nose

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Mini Makeup hc *Roman applies lipstick by tracing the rim of Vee's paci* (with the lipstick lid on so it doesn't actually go on the paci) before telling Vee to pat his lips and say "mwuah". Vee tries to copy with a Paci in his mouth, giving a soft " 'ma"

no thoughts only 💕💞🥺😫💞💘💓💖🥺💓💞💖😭💞💖🥰😖💕💞💞💘💖💖💕🥺😭💕💓💝💕

Roman: ok baby now go mCHah mCHah mCHah!

vee: 😟

roman: come on u can do it vee :)

vee, tiny whisper: m-m..aah

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Same! Virgil's eyeshadow turns purple at the end and he makes Thomas stim! And Virgil and Roman became a wonderful chaotic duo in this I love it

LITERALLY i managed to contain my screaming UNTIL VIRGE HAD THE HAPPY EYESHADOW and i squealed he is SO PRETTY

and ahhhhhhhh virgil and roman getting along..... virgil sacrificing his pessimistic outlook to make roman happy......... roman calling him BRAVE

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At what point do the caregivers decide to regress virgil? (like in the most recent fic Virgil says Patton only gets him a bottle if he's regressed or Patton needs him to be regressed) is it like the peekaboo fic where Virgil was stressing himself out and Patton was like "alright it's baby time"?

yeah its a lot like in 'peekaboo!' where virgil is panicking and patton sees that logan's down to earth talk isnt actually enough to calm him down, so he puts on the baby cartoon to push the regression - the first time patton pushed virgils regression is going to be a oneshot one day (surprise surprise lol) and was because virgil was in a very worrying state after an intense nightmare. after that event they have a discussion and vee essentially gives his pre-consent for patton (and eventually logan) to push his regression when they think it will help

alsoooo i just wanna take advantage of this ask to say that a few bits in pillow are actually a bit of a cheeky unreliable narrator move 👀 so when you have a fic from vee's pov when he regresses you can't always trust what he assumes.. maybe not particularly for this line but for other stuff

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I know the dark sides kinda accidentally bullied Virgil for regressing but did they know/realise that he has autism? Did they know how to help his sensory issues or did he just have to try and cope himself?

EDIT 31 oct 2020: this info is slightly outdated now as i have decided vee does not get diagnosed until he is 14

This is a little bit heavy so scroll past if u want fluffy happy stuff!! mention of internalised ableism

Janus was basically his father so yeah he definitely knew Vee was autistic and accommodated him to the best of his ability at the time - but he wasn't the most educated on the smaller aspects of autistic life, he knew the big things like meltdowns (which he was adequate at getting virgil through) and stimming (he actively encouraged it but did tease virgil about being embarrassed about it which only made v more embarrassed) and vee not liking certain textures or bright lights (not necessarily an issue in their house) but he wasn't that aware of the things that go unnoticed like small sensitivities to food and poor emotional regulation and other things i can't think of atm.

He was guilty of thinking Vee was simply picky and fussy as a child and didn't really click that it was just another part of being autistic and should have been taken more seriously. Also Janus thought it was standard for Virgil to have a proper meltdown every week, but once vee moves to the light sides its more like once every 4 weeks because its a much more accommodating environment

Also he is canonically pretty selfish, I'm not sure he would have actually sat down to research accounts of autism from autistic peoples persoectives, he probably researched just the standard medical info and considered that enough

(quickly mentioning here that janus is not bitter that virgil left. he was at first but when he saw how much better virgil was doing in the other house he was satisfied that virgil was where he belonged, even if it was still upsetting to him that it wasn't with him. it's not until he wants in on the regression family dynamic that he recognises he COULD have helped virgil feel better in the dark sides house, and begins to educate himself on virgils specific needs so that he wont make the same mistakes again as nana janus)

back when vee was a child Janus explained to remus what autism is and Remus was pretty indifferent tbh he didn't really listen and janus didn't explain vee's specific needs in detail. remus was not very considerate or observant, so tended to accidentally trigger virgil's sensory overload by being loud and stuff. occasionally he felt a little bad about it but would just roll his eyes - but he wouldn't do any loud pranks for at least a few hours after. he never made things harder for vee on purpose out of cruelty, he just wasn't necessarily willing to adapt his behaviour for the sake of virgil if it meant he wouldn't personally have as much fun.

as much as janus knew how to get virgil through a meltdown, virgil had to deal with all the smaller details on his own. he had to pick certain foods off his plate and wear ear plugs when the others refused to turn down the volume on their horror movies and he struggled a lot with internalised ableism because no one helped him with these things so he thought it would be burdensome for him to ask for help but he also realised he wasnt coping well on his own and really wanted help, he just wouldnt let himself ask for it

in conclusion, they were aware of his autism and didnt make fun of it in any way because thats mean. Still, they weren't very educated on it or considerate at the time and didn't adapt the environement much to make it easier for virgil to cope, which is one of the things that led up to virgil moving out

I want to point out again that these are realistic experiences that explore a family who did not have the tools to effectively make things easier for Vee at the time, it is not abuse and it is not "unsympathetic", though it was undereducated and inconsiderate - A lot of the reason things were so bad in the house was because the dark sides just dont communicate effectively.

janus and remus are awkward with feelings, their idea of a heart to heart is grumbling a slight reassurance veiled in 8 layers of sarcasm then immediately calling each other names to brighten the atmosphere. theyre the friends who say they thoroughly hate you when you make them laugh and they threaten to decapitate each other as a form flattery. and they dont need to change that about thrmselves, some people are just like that, to janus and remus thats their favourite way of communicating and showing affection and it makes them happy. its just a bad match with virgil who is very sensitive to even the slightest insinuation that someone doesnt like him. janus and remus arent bad people they just are not the right people for virgil to live with

I am basing this specific storyline/concept on my experiences with my family and their gradual acceptance and understanding of me being autistic. Yes it would be nice if every family instantly knew exactly how to make things easier for someone who is autistic but it's just not always that idealistic. It's not black and white, it's not either 100% supportive or 100% abusive. it's not always a linear line, sometimes families make mistakes and accidentally make things worse at some point, but what matters is they recognise and acknowledge them, apologise sincerely, educate themselves and unlearn misconceptions, and work to be better in the future!