This year, one of the most important lessons of life has been constantly beaten into my mind: Everyone is different; we're not meant to be anything else but ourselves.
As I further my study in philosophy (as a second major which was rather abruptly decided upon), I've found myself getting into some intense subject matter. Analytic philosophy is quite mind-blowing, logic is more difficult than one would think, and everyone is on different levels of understanding. As for me, I find myself somewhere in the upper-middle in comparison to other fellow philosophy majors, respectively. Nevertheless, I have been forced to acknowledge that there are people who are simply mentally stronger than I am. Even in my first major (English), I don't consider myself particularly outstanding. I'm pretty good at it, but I don't think I'm a genius-level student.
This leaves me feeling like I need to catch up with the best of the best. It makes me feel inferior. As a pre-law student, I know that I've got to keep up my game in order to accomplish my career goals. And, truthfully, this often discourages me when I see others performing better than myself.
When I try to form an unbiased, purely honest picture of my ideal life, I always end up picturing myself as more of a domestic, caretaker type of person. I want to support my family; I want to be an encouraging force to my husband; I want to create and maintain our home. If there's anything in life I feel particularly good at, it would be this.
But while I feel that I would make a great and loving homemaker, I know that I do still have other goals. I want a career; I want to use my mind, (which I know to be quite bright); I want to find my niche. The most important thing I need to keep in mind, though, is to be good to myself and trust in my own abilities and talents. Sure, I may not be the greatest thing to happen to the study of philosophy or English or law, but I am myself and I have my own insight to contribute. And I know that I can be one of the greatest things to happen to those I love most.
And for that, I am happy.