#infernalcaws

[infernalfeathers]

Speaking as part of an much older CDD system with a few members who have spiritual Kin beliefs, as a part whose been around long enough to watch the "kinning for fun" crowd successfully dismantle the Fictionkin community, I take issue with some of these new community terms. When the kin for fun kids demanded access into our community they didn't just join they literally took over, backed by ableism that dismissed our core beliefs as delusions; calling us freaks, mentally unhinged, disrespected the Neo pagan belief kin started as because to them it’s niche and small enough to disrespect. That's why I stand against "Otherpaw," "Fictionpaw," and any cutesy hobbyist version of what was once a deeply held spiritual and psychological identity.

There's nothing wrong with hobbies. Roleplaying as animals or exploring non-human experiences through costumes are absolutely fine activities. But when these hobbyists force themselves into our communities and adopt or create terms that too closely mirror our spiritual and psychological communities names, the outcome is always the same: the original demographic and definitions are lost and we get pushed out.

I’ve watched it happen with fictionkin. KFF kids successful warped the definition of kin, watered it down so badly that people think it just means "feeling connected to a character" they don’t even know that our community was started as a spiritual and psychological one. Being able to relate to character is exactly what good fiction does! That's a very normal fandom experience, not a kin identity. When the "kin for fun" crowd arrived, they declared our spiritual origins delusional, spewing ableism at anyone who disagreed. Psychological kin got the same treatment; we were all told to seek help and had been run off this very platform so now currently speaking we are minority to the KFF crowds.

As for therian and otherkin spaces? I keep my distance these days. The overlap with other communities I want nothing to do with is too much. Larping as animals and exploring non-humanity in costume is already founded as several communities larping, roleplaying, the furry fandom.

I'm all for self-exploration and identity work. But please respect that fictionkin, otherkin, therians and copelinks have genuine spiritual and psychological origins. We're often extremely vulnerable, stigmatized people with genuine real spiritual beliefs and valid coping mechanisms due to abuse of being ritualistically dehumanized . Respect our spiritual beliefs like you would any religion. Respect our psychological identities like you would mainstream diagnoses.Listen when we say our communities are being diluted and erased with ableist rhetoric. We are all not out here trying to be aggressively radical or gatekeeping. We are not all out here with intentions to squash your communities because we find them insulting for straw man reasons. If you’re younger you likely have absolutely no idea the amount of harassment, hate, witch hunts and generally normalized hatred we suffered toward our community from the hobbyist crowds who were backed up by other non kins and humans.

I'm not asking anyone to stop existing nor am I hating on hobbyists and kids having fun. I'm asking for new terms that are unmistakably separate from our communities. Taking words from spiritual or disorder-based groups and repackaging them as hobbies? It's incredibly insulting when many of the hobbyists are so incredibly ableist.

Coin your own terms so they are clearly distinguishable and cannot be mistaken for ours. Please, leave ours alone.

[infernalfeathers]

Let’s stop making small penis and micro penis jokes. It’s intersexism and in bad taste. It’s a form of sexual harassment to resort to commentary, ridicule or speculation of someone’s genitalia just because you dislike them or they happen to be an asshole.

Micro penis is a medically recognized intersex condition not some type of biological failure of manhood.

[infernalfeathers]

It’s sort of funny how TGNCphobic some of the trans community is (by funny I mean you look stupid as hell) especially trans people 28+ who consumed a lot of anime.

Like what the fuck do you mean this is weird or clocky?? Jessie and James from Pokemon are some of the most iconic GNC characters to exist. Not only that they’re shipped together and no one seems to give a shit about their gender non conformity, gender or sexuality the way they do other characters.

What about Haruhi from Ouran Host club? What about Blue gender? Ed from Cowboy Bebop?! Ritsu Sohma Fruits basket? Toboe and Blue from wolfs rain???? Kurama from YYH?? what about THE WHOLE FUCKING DOT HACK SERIES????

[infernalfeathers]

Turning it over in my head I’ve come to the conclusion the queer community is not ready or progressive enough to address its rampant TGNCphobia. It struggles to separate man from masculinity, male (gender) from the binary and unfortunately within non binary spaces there are pockets of gatekeeping exclusivity on what genders one is allowed to have or use when talking about exorsexism.

Add this all into the giant melting pot of an extremely transphobic and intersexist political landscape — I need to make a change for myself. That change while small that holds no bearing to anyone else is simply the act of using the words Virr (adult humans) / Virravn (adult non humans), Vael ( Works similar to the word male without the biology conflations) and Virrhood (similar to gender “hood” or experience words like manhood) alongside the pre existing words I’ve identified with; man, male and manhood.

I still identify as a man, I still believe manhood and male (gender) can be detached from the binary without having to be “one binary gender and something else” to be validated as a gender not strangled to death in a binary framework. The queer community as a whole isn’t ready for this and until it is I think finding pride, identification and empowerment through man-aligned gendered language unaffiliated with the binary would be a very freeing experience for me.

[infernalfeathers]

Biology was never binary.

Gender was never binary.

Gender expression was never binary.

[infernalfeathers]

If I don’t find a single shiny pokemon on my legends ZA nuzlocke run I’m going to rip my skeleton out the way you debone a cooked fish.

Every single Nuzlocke I’ve put myself through I have one saving grace, one special talent, one good luck attribute that means nothing to the real world but so much to me who considers himself mid, talentless and lacking skill. That is without fail every Nuzlocke I stumble upon one, two or even THREE SHINIES IN A RUN.

So far? NADA. Meanwhile my mate has encountered three already. He took my shiny luck. I’m hoping beyond all hope I run into a shiny absol because shiny mega absol Z actually color coordinates with my trainer OC I’m making for this run and I didn’t realize this until three nights go.

Etienne needs to meet his fated partner pokemon.

[infernalfeathers]

I’d really love it if the “progressive” fandoms spaces stopped trying to push their personal headcanons of gender identity and sexuality onto others.

I’m saying this as I mainly see a lot of cis queer male characters or non binary characters get slapped with trans fem headcanons or butch/femme headcanons. Nothing is wrong with this in practice at all until you get an overwhelming amount of fans saying if you don’t personally consider X character a trans fem, trans woman or butch you’re transmisogynisitc.

Meanwhile if agender people, genderfluid, trans men, trans masc, intersex or literally anyone headcanons a character as something different the previous group has “laid claim to” you’re relentlessly bullied; harassed, mocked, dismissed and belittled.

Let people headcanon whatever they want?! Stop pushing people into accepting headcanons based on surface level social fem/masc stereotypes with a new trans coat of paint slapped onto it. What’s considered “lesbian coded” or “clocky” or “masculine” could change in 20 years from now by societies whims, historically this has happened so many times and it will continue to.

Let people have fun and make self representation for themselves that doesn’t exist. I’m so tired of going into kin or fandom spaces and having someone come up to me and be like “ACSHULLY we’ve all decided this character is a butch lesbian transfem she her and if you don’t adopt this headcanon you’re a transmisogynistic piece of shit.”

One character that comes to mind is Tsubaki from WIND BREAKER. Canonically the author is representing queer gender non conforming men. Fans including myself often headcanon Tsubaki as a trans woman. I’ve also had headcanons about Tsubaki being intersex. genderfluid, non binary and even just a cis dude who likes “womens” clothing.

There is no “right way” to headcanon a character but I will say if a character is canonically trans, intersex or polyam and you try to rip apart that representation by insisting actually no they’re cis, perisex or monogamous? I’m cracking you open and spooning out your bone marrow onto my morning bagel.

Also as a little side note, for fucks sake you all need to be way more normal about black cosplayers and race Headcanons. We have enough white passing representations and we desperately need more black main leads in anime, not just token side characters in a sea of pale ass people making up the “important cast tm.”

[infernalfeathers]

I don’t think it should be considered “drama” or “digging up the past” when people of color are upset by the acts of racism and micro aggressions exhibited by Gooseworx and Glitch Studios. Apply this to any other act of racism or micro aggressions people of color have suffered. Would you respond “It was insert number many years ago, get over it.”

No? So why do the same around TADC/Gooseworx?

I’m not saying this is the most important issue people of color face by any means at all. What I am saying is people of color are allowed to be upset, annoyed and vent about this situation if they choose or desire to, especially as previous fans of Gooseworxs & Glitch Studios.

White people don’t get to dismiss the impacts of racism or how long is “acceptable” for people of color to have negative feelings about Gooseworx and Glitch. Stop driving this topic into the ground as “pervasive lolcow social justice culture full of whiney people wanting to ruin indie creators who aren’t big evil mega corporations.”

No one has properly apologized, indie artists don’t get a free pass from accountability or criticism because they are indie.