@inibicion asked: “Perhaps I find myself envying you” He spoke carefully, glancing over to him. “ Your faith does not require a promise of salvation, nor does it ask to be rewarded. You offer yourself to Beauty without pausing to wonder whether it will spare you in return. In Penacony, belief is permitted only when it can be guided, shaped, and gently restrained - when it serves harmony rather than threatens it. Faith that cannot be managed is deemed a danger, not a virtue. Yours, however… is dangerously free.” // sunday to argenti
𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐀𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐘'𝐒 𝐖𝐄𝐋𝐋-𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐄𝐑 𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑 seems suddenly smaller, dimmer than he had been when last they crossed paths. Not quite a crisis of faith, given that- as he understands it- he had attempted to supersede one with another, but something close enough. Yet in so doing, he had invited challenge to what he thought he had believed in, and now found himself mired in the question of whether or not his previous faith had been worth it.
Argenti cannot comprehend it, not in the way he speaks it- and yet the sorrow he senses beneath the words compels him to try.
"A faith that is built on anything but earnest belief," the knight begins, fingers curled at his chin, expression gentle, "will always fail those who follow it in the end. Faith is called such because there is no sense of expectation, only... mmm, shall we call it 'hope'?" The thing with feathers, as the old poem goes, as his eyes fall to the faint flutter of wings as the man before him shifts in place. "And while spreading faith is simple, controlling it is not. To do so is to impose upon the freedoms of those who should, by all accounts, be your fellows." His expression, if possible, gentles further, green eyes dark with sympathy. "There are as many ways to believe as there are stars in the sky- if not more, as people vastly outnumber even those brilliant lights of the cosmos..."
People, Argenti well knows, who are as prone to professing the superiority of their own faith over those of others. People for whom 'faith' is merely a suggestion, or perhaps an excuse. People for whom faith is little more than a curse that they cannot hope to escape- not without leaving behind all they have ever known. People whose beliefs change, day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment, as they live and learn and love.
This too, of course, is another sort of Beauty- so long as that faith is an earnest one.
"Would it ease you to know that some might find your faith enviable?" That those who might were those who had either forsaken the path of the Beauty or left it entirely is something, he knows, he need not mention. "To be a Knight of Beauty is an oft-solitary thing. Though we may occasionally forge bonds, they are seldom long-lasting, due to the nature of our Oaths." Oaths that they have no one but themselves to help them uphold. "Restraint is, after all, not always a terrible thing, for such may give rise to the type of zealotry that can become... dangerous."
Too late does he realize the implications of his words, shaking his head as if to dismiss the possible accusation swiftly.
Then, he pauses, reconsiders- to lie would be an ugly thing, no matter how it may hurt his companion. If he's to be honest with himself as well, he's certain that the man has had enough falsehoods and half-truths to last him quite some time, by now.
Thus does Argenti's hand fall from his own face, reaching out to brush pale strands from golden eyes with a regretful sound.
"...the intentions of those with an uncontrolled sense of righteous belie, no matter how good, may cause fear or disdain in their execution." He need not elaborate, he's certain, and so he does not, hand falling to his side. "And this holds true for my own faith as well. For any faith, really. Thus," he concludes, fingers lacing together, and eyes looking past Sunday's shoulder, lest he allow himself to be distracted by the man's earnest, regretful gaze, "there is nothing to envy. And I would not wish to inspire such in you, when it is clear your own faith was quite strong indeed. Rather... would it not be better to consider what one might take from the way another practices their faith, in order to strengthen one's own?"