Why I'm convinced our drs and our cr are interconnected = you're already in your dr (the hotel theory) :
Let me tell you a crazy thing that happened to me today (bear with me till the end yall I'm not venting, I need the dramatics for a better understanding, and if someone found my misery motivational, a win is a win, also I love storytelling, and I might sound SUPER NUTS IN THIS ONE, but you guys should get used to it) :
Again, if you haven't read the door analogy blog go read it to get this one (coming up with your own realizations is magic, I'll die on that hill) :
What happened:
Idk if it was a channeling of some kind because I don't do it, nor am I knowledgeable about it (tell me if you know), today while i was binge watching one of my new shows (who I mainly watched for the actor who plays my significant other, he's one of my favorite actors of all time), his role in it was a lot different than my s/o, but since my mind hates me, it kept finding little similarities here and there, not good ones, my significant other has always battled with his mental health, this role the actor was playing was all about that, and the sight of him crying and hurting like that ?! Suddenly my whole world stopped and I just couldn't breathe, I stopped watching, took a deep breath and just cried my eyes out, kept crying for a long ass time on my desk by the window, my mind kept roaring at me, bc not a single day goes by without me thinking of him, SHIFT RYM, JUST SHIFT AND HUG HIM, SHIFT AND TELL HIM YOU CANNOT BREAR THE SIGHT OF HIM CRYING, NOT IN PERSON, AND NOT THROUGH A SCREEN.
Just shift....
But again, those ideas weren't all my mind was thinking of, all those doubts came creeping back, those holes i thought i sealed forever, they're ridiculous, and they do not serve me, so what did i do ?
i dismissed them, calmly acknowledged them then i let them go, those voices do not define me, i have shifted, i exist in my realities and i will get there once i fully take it upon myself to do so, I remembered my blog, a few days ago, the two cats, I looked up and who was there by the same balcony?
The damn grey cat, looking straight at me
This time, that white cat was nowhere to be seen, not by his side, and the balcony was fully veiled, she wasn’t with him, and the cat as always was waiting, still sad, and looking straight at me, I smiled and wiped my tears, this has became a beautiful inside joke I'll tell him once i shift, how similar they both look, I genuinely think if my s/o saw that cat, he'd see himself in him, the way I always did, we kept glaring at each other for a long time, until I woke up from my desk, washed my face and just layed on my bed, this has motivated me so much to shift, but do you think it ended here ?
Nope.
I tapped on the youtube icon, as always scrolling down my fyp, a cover of a turkish song popped up, okay, that happens all the time since I ABSOLUTELY LOVE TURKISH MUSIC, but no, something screamed at me, literally screamed at me to listen to that cover of that one song I don't know, I did, beautiful song, it actually gave me so much peace even when I didn't know the meaning of the lyrics, I'm not turkish (I am in my dr), I just kept replaying it, I listened to 10 covers instead of one, that calm?, I was suddenly feeling so much better, as if I never cried my heart out an hour ago, so I searched the lyrics, and guess what :). I started crying again :
and well....
Kara gözlerinden bir damla yaş düşünce
"When a single tear falls from your dark eyes"
Güzel yüzün, yanakların ıslanır
"Your lovely face, your soft cheeks, glisten with sorrow"
Kara gözlerinden bir damla yaş düşünce
"When a single tear falls from your dark eyes"
Hüzün, keder yüreğime yaslanır
"Grief and sorrow lean heavy upon my heart"
Sen ağlama
"Don’t cry…"
Bir damla gözyaşın yeter
"One tear of yours is enough."
Sen üzülme, gülüm
"Don’t be sad, my rose, my love."
Gece gökyüzünden bir damla yaş düşünce
"When a single tear falls from the night sky"
Bahar gelir, tüm çiçekler ıslanır
"Spring arrives, and all the flowers are bathed in dew."
Kara gözlerinden bir damla yaş düşünce
"When a single tear falls from your dark eyes,"
Hüzün, keder yüreğime yaslanır
"Grief and sorrow lean heavy upon my heart."
Sen ağlama
"Don’t cry…"
Bir damla gözyaşın yeter
"One tear of yours is enough."
Sen üzülme, gülüm
"Don’t be sad, my rose, my love."
Gamzende güllerin biter
"When the roses fade away from your dimples,"
Yollarıma, Taş koysalar döneceğim
"Even if they scatter stones across my path, I will return to you."
Gözlerinden
"From your eyes"
Yaşlarını sileceğim
"I will wipe away the tears."
You know how fucking ironic is this ? The song's name is "Don’t cry", when all I've been doing is crying, the grey cat was gone yall, he came to deliver a message and then Boof, he vanished, and now let me tell you.
The realization :
This was not a coincidence
My cr and my drs are interconnected, I keep finding one in the other, everything is a sign, everything means something, that's how it has always been (this isn't the first time this has happened to me, I meet the same people in my cr as well as in my dr, obv they do not look the same, same person different font type of situation, and I ALWAYS RECOGNIZE THEM, I have the same memories here as well as in my drs, for example : my bestfriend here and our memories together are identical to my bestfriend in my dr, they have both opened a pastery, they have both encouraged me to like the same guy in my dr and in my cr, warned me of the same other guy in my cr and in my dr, have exactly the same attitude, heart and soul)
THIS INCIDENT WAS THE LAST STRAW to prove my theory
Let me tell you how I see it : I am already in my dr, because when I hyperfocus on it, it shows itself to me, it manifests itself into the current reality I am in, reminding me that all of my realities are connected, like a huge hotel with endless rooms.
A hotel, and the hotel manager:
My awareness
Since I'm in the same hotel, things will always look familiar, because I've been here for my whole life, I know every corner of this plave, when I hyperfocus on changing my room, but i don't actually *change* my room, what will the hotel manager do? It'll bring my desired room to me.
Maybe change the bed sheets? Maybe repaint the walls? Or even make a view just for me.
Which if you think about it IS a hustle, and is HARDER THEN ACTUALLY JUST CHANGING THE DAMN ROOM.
I've done a harder task than shifting.
But what did i realize from it all?
Your cr and your dr are interconnected, You're the hotel manger
You run the show.
You can change rooms if you'd like, or just repaint the walls and cry in your new sheets.
Let's rewind in shifting terms : my dr manifests itself into my cr because I hyperfocus on it, I connect myself to it, with everything in me, i always feel like i have never left because MY CR IS STARTING TO LOOK LIKE MY DR, if I feel that way, that means I am already there = I just need to be aware of the new room I am in.
Bingo
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