amorphous & nebulous

maeve - they/them - 30s

[recklessadventures]

Just a Hamburg lad

[recklessadventures]

Reunited with my rotten soldier ❤️‍🔥

[landsccape]

[chantssecrets]

The waterlily studio at Claude Monet’s home at Giverny. 📸 by Guy Bouchet

[kosmogrl]

[recklessadventures]

I'm too tired and my brain is too full to wax fully poetic on this but - one year ago I was perhaps the most voluntarily vulnerable I've ever been and declared my feelings to a man despite thinking I was a lesbian for years prior. He unfortunately revealed himself to be the least deserving of my bravery and interest but so much of the courage and curiosity I fostered in that time led to me where I am now, more open to the world, trying polyamory, basically in love with a beautiful woman, and all around more grounded in myself. I have never stopped appreciating the pure gumption I took on that day and how I refused to do anything less than show up for myself again and again. It was remarkable.

[canthaveshitingotham-crucified]

i hate it when i cant even write a poem about something because its too obvious. like in the airbnb i was at i guess it used to be a kids room cause you could see the imprint of one little glow in the dark star that had been missed and painted over in landlord white. like that's a poem already what's the point

[canthaveshitingotham-crucified]

you get it. you get the themes. i dont have time to do it justice. just look at it its on the ceiling

[brenna]

[teaboot]

[wheresmyphonemp3]

[fadingponycookiedream]

[andsorrowsend]

[werefeathers]

[lost-in-the-drawers]

i have missed this place

[recklessadventures]

Fresh granola 🫰

[escuerzoresucitado]

Pedestrian traffic lights

[starryswirly]

I can’t believe this doesn’t have Vienna. They have both het and gay ones and they’re in love

[recklessadventures]

Love is everywhere always you simply have to extend a hand

[rosalesbeausderholle]

One thing that worries me about the use of AI is whether or not it can worsen people's dementia and alzheimer's in the future. When my grandmother was first diagnosed, we got her math activity books. Now, my grandmother never had a formal education, but we did our best to keep her sharp, get her to do math and writing activity books, sudokus, playing board games that required some level of strategizing with her. Her family is prone to alzheimer's and dementia (both her siblings had it and deteriorated very very very quickly, which yeah, scares the shit out of me being her granddaughter) but she was the one whose mind lasted the longest, she only passed away two years ago, at 88, ten whole years after her initial diagnosis and sure, she had forgotten things, recipes and where she put her glasses and appointments, but she never forgot any of us, ten whole years in, she still remembered us. Now, this may have been luck, but doctors always said the constant mental work + companionship + medicine helped her a lot. So I'm thinking, these people who are now relying on AI for everything, from email-writing to thinking what's for dinner to casual conversations, I've even seen people rely on it to calculate what time they should leave their house if they need to be at a place at a specific time and their commute lasts X number of minutes. As if that's not... the simplest math operation possible? You shouldn't even need a calculator for that!!! Idk I don't know how long it'll take us to see the effects of this + exposure to brain-rotting short form content that is completely meaningless + people addicted to right-wing conspiracy style media. Idk I'm very worried. Please, read, read complicated books! Take up a book on philosophy and try to decipher it and make your own opinions on it, please buy a maths activity book and relearn how to do math, please get a hobby that involves lots of thinking and concentrating. PLEASE!!!

[notalotgoingonatthisinstant]

As a neurologist, I’ll give you the pretty name for it: cognitive reserve.

The way I explain it to my patients is that our neurons don’t regenerate. They make connections with each other and that’s it. If you don’t use your brain, they make fewer connections and, if one of them dies, you’re gonna miss it, because that was the only one that knew how to do X. Now, if each one of them has many, many connections, you won’t notice the difference when one of them dies. The others pick up the slack.

As of 2024, 45% of dementia risk factors are modifiable. Relevant to this conversation, 5% for less education and 5% for social isolation.

We absolutely are going to see the reflection of this, but it’s gonna take decades and it’ll be too late. So, for the love of your brain, pretend that it’s a muscle and make it work. People complain about “when am I ever gonna use this maths formula in my life?” You’re not. You’re teaching your brain to think logically. Those sinapses will be there for when you need to figure out your week’s schedule. English classes taught me how to interpret data and how to convey it in this text so it’s clear and you understand what I’m saying, not because I needed to justify why the curtain is blue.

Make your brain know how to do different things. Logic games, puzzles, taking care of a garden even if small, planning a church’s event or birthday, learn a new instrument, learn a few words in another language, look at a calendar every day, do some manual labor if possible. Do not, I repeat, do not let your brain get rid of sinapses by letting AI do everything. Your brain uses 20% of your body’s energy — do you really think it’s going to maintain connexions that aren’t in use?

Most cases of Alzheimer’s are sporadic, meaning no family history. Family history of a first-degree relative with Alzheimer’s starting before they were 80yo increases your risk in 2-3x on average.

TLDR: Yes. From the knowledge we have today, AI will increase the number and severity of dementia cases.

[recklessadventures]

listening to this after ep 6 ooooof

[swarnpert]

NO MORE SONGS UNDER 3 MINUTES. GO BACK INTO THE STUDIO

[recklessadventures]

I wish I had ANY interest in climbing right now. It's not quite the same as last summer where I felt it was too far outside my physical abilities to enjoy, I actually haven't been nervous about my knee in a while, I am just sooo disinterested in it. I don't try hard because I don't care so I don't progress so I'm less interested AND SO ON! I miss climbing with people so much. I really need to try to find some people. I should also mix it up by going to a third gym I tried for the first time last month. Ugh!!

[nyantara]

things that would exist if intellectual property wasn't a thing

so much cheap generic medication. reverse engineering compounds would be even more financially profitable.

fewer people dead of vaccine preventable illnesses in the global south bc the greatest barrier to distributing some vaccines like hpv is their ip

plant seeds and grafts that come from the plants instead of licensing them. don't invest so much in preventing cross contamination. more localised experimental breeding.

library of the world: every book and journal article in the world could be digitised and be searchable for every person in the world to read regardless of where they live. cheap reprint runs and local translations everywhere.

an online interface where every citation could actually lead to the text in question

freedom from the hell that is DRM software

everytime someone reverse engineered your shitty proprietary software we would all be freed from it instead of them getting DMCA'd

so much hardware would be opened up & therefore made so much cooler.

so many more songs that riff off and sample and interpolate shit from this decade instead of like 70 years ago and more analysis of music that didn't keep getting nuked off the internet

preserving movies and tv shows and games as long as someone, somewhere has the desire to host them

just go publish your fanfic/art/vid as is instead of all us pretending it isn't fanwork or begging the corporation for mercy / licensing

a world without ip lawyers. im getting chills just imagining it.

[recklessadventures]

Full of feelings but still cute !

[recklessadventures]

a very chill recap of the past 48 hours:

thursday, my teammate accidentally screenshared our whatsapp text shitting on an employee at our client, while on a call with said employee [i was already having such a shit week of work with them]

i slept horribly thursday night because of this, and had already gone to bed late the night prior [bad combo]

i was going to pia's apartment for the first time ever, decided to walk (it's 45 min) and ella, who lives en route, biked by me. she said hi but didn't stop. that was weird enough. my body knows it's been just about a year to the day since it all went down. later in the evening, she texted to say sorry she didn't stop, and that made it feel all the weirder, thinking about responding to her and if i wanted to see her [still don't know but did respond].

pia then proceeds to tell me the new woman she's been seeing incidentally went on a date with one of my friends, ann, last week. jfc.

pia and i needed to talk about this woman anyway bc i had questions/we needed to set some ground rules. it was...fine? i haven't been able to figure out how i feel about it.

per all the exhaustion, i announced at 22:15 that i needed to leave. it was admittedly unceremonious and didn't feel great - i should've said at the top that i wanted to leave around 10. pia didn't have a great reaction, which made me feel bad. i then felt a crushing sadness, akin to what i'd felt on our last morning away this past weekend, and had to fight back tears on my way out.

i then sobbed on my way to the bus and posted something on close friends which pia saw and so we texted a litttle but the gist was i feel really sad and i don't know why.

first and foremost, im overwhelmed. that is a lot by all standards.

i have a lot of pretty big questions about my feelings towards pia (and hers for me). namely, are they bigger than i realized? and is that ok? there's a lot to parse out.

to make things even more fun and complicated, i already had plans to see ann, the friend who went on the date with pia's new person, but D will also be there, so i have to figure out how to handle that because i have no interest in discussing it with ~the group~ you know?? cuz like what will ann tell the person who will then tell pia????? IT"S SO WEIRD!!!!! but like normally i'd tell D all of this....ugh. anyway. my journal and my friends are gonna be working overtime until i have therapy wednesday lol hiding in a hole bye.