#insidemycrazymind

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

So this is for anyone that is new here or for the people that have forgotten this but the reason for this blog is just for me to let out the anger, sadness, paranoia, depression and suicidal thoughts that run through my mind. I'm honestly I don't give a fuck if people don't like what I post cause I'm not posting for people in posting for myself and honestly that's all I fucken care about. I made so called "friends" here but where they at who know cause just like the rest they are gone. So I'm not looking to make new friends done with people saying they're different when it ends all the same. I have the few I trust and those people's actions are what speak not so called friends words. Also I know I don't reply to my messages yeah I'm sorry I don't reply to you but don't have the energy to keep repeating my story and telling people what's wrong. There are a few post about my life but you have to be really lucky for me to show you all the darkness I hide and all the shit I don't write on here. If you want to read up on me just check #story time on my blog to know more personal stuff about me. Honestly don't care if people like me or not doesn't make a difference to me I'm going to be who I am cause In the end it's my fucken life.

-Night

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

[Verse 1]

Hi Depression

How yea been??

It's been a long time, we meet again

I've been good

The fuck you been up to though?

Lately you look like your unstoppable

You must just not of check your messages

I've been trying to get to you desperately

It's time you came and pay your debt to me

I just want to be left in peace

Why the fuck you gotta mess with me?

So sick and tired of you testing me

Don't get to smile. Don't get to sleep

Sounds like you just need stress relief

Cut yourself or maybe take some pills

Cause nobody cares if you die or live

A waste of space, another useless soul

The world is better ... if you just go

Why you an asshole?

Making it easy?

As long as I'm breathing, my family needs me!

Give it a week and they'll forget your gone

Forget your name, forget your songs

You think you're loved but that's a lie

I cross my heart and I hope you die

You can't cope with this

You can't cope with change

You got knots to tie

You got ropes to hang

But what do I do when I can't get a job

And I can't get the fuck out my house?

I'm loosing it slowly my life is unfolding

And this isn't what I'm about!

Whoa

Tone it down. You're going to bust a vein

It's just your fate this isn’t just a phase

I'm drawn to you and you belong to me

I hope you see now that you're stuck with me

[Chorus]

The voice inside your head I am the poison in your veins

I toy with your emotions

I take pleasure with your pain

And I will make you...

Just another fallen angel

[verse 2]

Get the fuck out of my head!!!

Heha! Hey! Hold up man

I'm not done with you!

I'm going to do what I'm going to do!

Fuck this shit I'm not comfortable!

All I ever do is run from you!

I can't except this, I crave acceptance

I stay expecting the same exact thing

The same rejection, The same deflection

The same infection, My brain's defective!

Don't you want to come and play with me?

We can see the world, at least a darker side of it?

I got in and left a mark inside your head

I'm not leaving until the heart comes out of your chest

Heh, I've seen your soul it isn't worth you keeping it

And your incompleteness is what's been completing me

[Chorus]

The voice inside your head - I am the poison in your veins

I toy with your emotions

I take pleasure with your pain

And I will make you...

Just another fallen angel

[Verse 3]

Get the fuck out of my head!!!

I see dark on the brightest day

I fight the pain, I just want to gain some confidence

Locked in the mother-fucking box on top is a rock

I don't know how I got in this

(I do) Fuck you, fuck everyone else and the whole world!

I've been on the edge and I'm unsure

I have been feeling like something is building inside of me

Killing me slowly, I feel like I'm dying and I've been trying to deal with the stress

Life is a mess! I wish I was blessed! I wish I was...

Dead

Maybe you're right

You know that I'm right

I'm sick of my life

You're sick of your life?

Well come with me now

We could end it tonight

We could end it tonight

[Chorus]

The voice inside your head I am the poison in your veins

I toy with your emotions

I take pleasure with your pain

And I will take you

You could be my fallen angel