Step into my mind

You can call me Night Born 1992. I deleted my old blog for personal reasons that I don't want talk about. I made this second blog cause i still need this fucken place to let my anger out also just to get things of my chest and the crazy shit going thru my mind. You show me respect and I will show you respect. {MY BLOG CAN BE TRIGGERING} #insidemycrazymind for my post also that's my old blogs name. Music is my therapy only way I can deal with shit and they tell my story when I can't speak. You can caught me listening to something all the time. (We don't drink to forget we drink to numb the pain -Night)

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

The reality of this world is most people won't get a happily ever after instead they will get pain and suffering

-Night

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

Just overwhelmed by everything, all the dark thoughts overflowing your mind at the same time you can't even think right all you can think so you just want everything to stop

-Night

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

I never planned to live after I turn 20 years old yet I'm still here a few years after I gone through hell waiting for it to get better when its just been getting worst. I been pass my limit of handling shit but now I think there isn't anymore to give other than to just to fade away from this world

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

Watch "Citizen Soldier - Waiting On The Sun (Official Music Video)" on YouTube

Stop telling me that it's okay like it's gonna get better

I've heard every damn cliché, been stuck here forever

In my own head I'm a prisoner

And you're not much of a listener

I have always been this way

Can't outrun the pouring rain

I'm so sick of waiting on the sun

My silver lining never comes

So sick of feeling not enough

Does hope hurt more than giving up?

I know that I can't be the only one

Sick of waiting on the sun

Stop telling me that there's a light at the end of the tunnеl

Every time I beliеve those words, it's nothing but trouble

I hate to sound so cynical

But I'm done chasing miracles

This fall it ain't worth the climb

Glass half empty all the time

I'm so sick of waiting on the sun

My silver lining never comes

So sick of feeling not enough

Does hope hurt more than giving up?

I know that I can't be the only one

Give me a reason

I should even be alive

Help me believe that

Tomorrow's even worth the fight

I must confess, I'm terrified

That I won't make it through the night

Wish I could change my mind

I'm so sick of waiting on the sun

My silver lining never comes

So sick of feeling not enough

Does hope hurt more than giving up?

I know that I can't be the only one

Sick of waiting on the sun

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

Let me Sleep forever so I don’t have to feel this pain no more

-Night

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

Your family is suppose to help you and protect you yet mines just find ways to fuck me over and over again yet I'm the bad guy

-Night

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

No one has mentally damage me more than my own family I'm always the bad guy if I try to think about myself it has to be about them and only they are right and it can only benefit them not me. That's just selfish to care about myself or my health.

-Night

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

I want to leave this fucked up world on my own fuck terms. I didn't have a choice to be born or not in this world so I should at least be able to decide when I want to fucken leave it

-Night

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

Watch "The Real Young Swagg - "Paranoid" (Official Music Video)" on YouTube

Раrаnоіd, уеаhh і’m раrаnоіd

Yеаhh, і ѕаіd і’m раrаnоіd

І thіnk ѕоmеbоdу wаnnа kіll mе

Yеаhh, і ѕаіd і’m ѕоrrу but

І dоn’t thіnk thаt thеу fоrgіvе mе

Ѕо і am bаrеlу hаngіng оn

Тоo еdgе і dоn’t thіnk і саn hоld

Сuz і’m раrаnоіd

Fіngеr оn thе trіggеr аnd і’m rеаdу tоo рull іt

Іt’ѕ ок, іt’ѕ аlrіght, dоn’t wоrrу, і’m јuѕt fіnе

Кеер mу раіn lосkеd іnѕіdе

Тhаt’ѕ whу і lау аwаkе аt nіght

Саn ѕоmеbоdу trу & ѕаvе mе

І rеаllу thіnk і’m lоѕіng соntrоl

Yеаhh, і thіnk і’m gоіng сrаzу

Тrу & bе ѕtrоng but іt tаkеn іt’ѕ tоll

Еvеn іf іt rеаllу іѕ mу tіmе

І guеѕѕ і nеvеr wаntеd tоo lеt gоo

Ѕо іmmа tаkе а lооk іntо thе ѕkу

Веg gоd lіkе рlеаѕе јuѕt ѕаvе mу ѕоul

Іt’ѕ ок, іt’ѕ аlrіght, уоu’rе аlwауѕ оn mу ѕіdе

Аnd і јuѕt wаnt оnе mоrе nіght

Ѕoо hоld mе tіght bесаuѕе і’m раrаnоіd

І’m раrаnоіd

І thіnk ѕоmеbоdу wаntѕ toо kіll mе

Yеаhh, і ѕаіd і’m ѕоrrу but

І dоn’t thіnk thаt thеу fоrgіvе mе

Yеаhh, і’m раrаnоіd

І thіnk ѕоmеbоdу wаntѕ toо kіll mе

Іt’ѕ thе ѕаddеѕt ѕtоrу

Вut thе mеdісаtіоn nеvеr hеаlѕ mе

Ѕоo і’m bаrеlу hаngіng оn

Тоo еdgе і dоn’t thіnk і саn hоld

Сuz і’m раrаnоіd

Fіngеr оn thе trіggеr аnd і’m rеаdу toо рull іt

Іt’ѕ ок, іt’ѕ аlrіght, dоn’t wоrrу і’m јuѕt fіnе

Кеер mу раіn lосkеd іnѕіdе

Саn’t сlоѕе mу еуеѕ bесаuѕе і’m раrаnоіd

І thіnk ѕоmеbоdу wаntѕ tоo kіllѕ mе

Yеаhh, і ѕаіd і’m ѕоrrу but

І dоn’t thіnk thаt thеу fоrgіvе mе

Ѕоo і’m bаrеlу hаngіng оn

Тоo еdgе і dоn’t thіnk і саn hоld

Сuz і’m раrаnоіd

Fіngеr оn thе trіggеr аnd і’m rеаdу tоo рull іt

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

I'm not okay and honestly don't know if I will ever be okay I try my best to be but this mental illness doesn't let me

-Night

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

Everyday is a battle in my mind and I feel like I just keep on losing

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

Watch "The Real Young Swagg - Falling (Official Music Video)" on YouTube

Suffocating in my room

It's like I'm drowning Underwater

And I don't know what to do

My fingers gripping on this Bottle

So I think I'll leave today

Cuz I just can't wait for Tomorrow

Got these pills in my hand cuz a Bullets too hard to swallow

And I'm running from my pain But it always seems to follow

Like them voices in my brain Yeah I can hear them when They callin

So im driving on the edge

I got my foot on the throttle

Swerving side to side cuz when I'm high yeah I ain't scared bout Falling No

No gimmicks this is real life

Walk in my shoes it isn't real Nice

Like some eggshells ontop of Sheer ice

I ain't complaining I'm just Saying what it feel like

Look for the light but it's too Grey

And every single night it's a New thing

I don't think that I can handle Any new pain

So don't even try to save me Cuz your too late

Suffering in silence you don't Even hear

But even if I scream out you Don't even care

You been telling me to leave You don't wanna see me here

So now I'm all alone it's just me Snd all my fears yeah

Snd I'm trying to be a man but I Don't know if I can fix the part Of me thats broken Scattered all Around me on the floor and I Don't know if I know how to Cope with

All the problems locked inside Of me

I closed the door I'm try to find the key

So cut me open I just gotta see

If the soul inside of me will Bleed

Only walked out cuz of all the Misery everything we got now Is only history

I'mma leave it in the past with Everything I wanted all I really Needed was somebody when I'm falling

Suffocating in my room

It's like I'm drowning Underwater

And I don't know what to do

My fingers gripping on the Bottle

So I think I'll leave today

Cuz I just can't wait till Tomorrow

Got these pills in my hand

Cuz a bullets too hard to Swallow

Please catch meI'm falling

Before I hit the floor

I'm screaming I'm calling

But I just can't scream no more

So please catch Me I'm falling

What am I falling for

It's your name that I'm calling

But I guess I need you more

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

The good memories tend to fade away but the anger, pain and sadness never leave those memories just keep haunting me

-Night

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

things didn’t end the way i intended all that time ago. i’m sorry. i still check up on you. take care

I see don't know what else to say

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

I'm tired of pretending to be okay I'm so overwhelmed i only see one way out from all this shit and that's fucken finally fucken ending it

-Night

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

The moment I think I'm okay my mind starts finding a way to make me think I'm not then it's down hill from that

-Night

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

I feel like I can't fucken do anything right no more don't fucken feel useful feel like I'm just a waste of fucken space

-Night