closed starter for milo wray ( @milo-wray )
-> the pantry
For many, being sober means finding yourself. Winnie is no different. Alcohol turned her into some sort of mangled creature - a version of herself completely unrecognizable to those who might've known her at her youngest and purest. Unfortunately, alcohol did all of that changing at a very, very young age; her brain never had the chance to form without influences, which meant that when she did finally let go of the bottle, she had to do a whole new kind of soul-searching. She had to completely reinvent herself - starting over without any of the freedom or levity of youth.
Doing that in a small town where every corner turned meant more opportunities to run into the ghosts of her past? Torturous, to say the least.
It isn't embarrassing to be sober. This is something Winnie tells herself every day, still, even after a decade of recovery. Unfortunately she'll have to keep telling herself this, likely forever, because as of now she still doesn't believe it. It is something she tells herself right now, here in the boxed soup and canned bean aisle, because standing in front of the various broths (and looking incredibly confused) is a ghost she's been avoiding for... well. A very, very long time.
"Milo," Winnie says - unthinking. An impulse she couldn't swallow even if she tried. She's seen him around, of course, though always at a distance where she could dip into the throng of people and disappear. Now, though, it's just them, and the broths, and the muzak that plays through the tinny speakers at 8:30pm on a Tuesday.
"Wow. Shit, sorry. It's been a long time. It's been... Yeah, wow, a long time."