When I wanted to do art for a living
I had a hard time letting go of my mental health issues, I was afraid of growing in some sense, because whatever I had then, I believed, was the source of my creativity. As an INTP but also as myself, I usually am a very flexible person and I need change once in a while just like everybody else. When I wanted to do art for a living, I was afraid of any other activity. I couldn’t think about alternatives. Make a plan. Evaluate myself and my abilities in a more complex way. Not being able to have an art career, because creating is actually not my strong suit broke my heart. I felt like all my life I’ve been lying to myself. Been blind and stupid. And lemme tell you, feeling stupid is an INTP’s kryptonite. It brought me down for weeks and weeks, as I realized I lacked the persistent need to create art.













