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Everyone wish Tanigawa Hiroki a happy birthday!
Hiroki doesn't much care for taking time off, and he especially doesn't care for Valentines Day, but this year it seems like he's been forced to participate in both. It seems like he's gotten a late valentine from someone special, and with today being a Saturday, he's had the day to himself! He doesn't seem very excited though.... maybe he's just restless!
Everyone wish Izumi Amiko a happy birthday!
Amiko usually doesn't get a lot of time to herself due to her busy schedule, but today her mom took her out for breakfast before her shoot started! Amiko chose to eat at a cat café. Its not a lot, but it means the world to her, even if it doesn't look it...
Its unfair to both of us to make you the face of all that I've been looking for.
I'm at a red light: I've come to terms with the fact that he's not who I hoped he would be, and that's fine. He's not interested In that way, probably never was, and that's fine. Probably okay being distant friends and that is also fine...I just already have so many friends. It would've been nice for this time to be the time, or at least a time where the gods of romance brought me something that wasn't a gag gift.
Shaking my head trying not to be disappointed with myself. A part of this feels like I've been led astray by an enticing distraction. It would be confusing because I barely know him so why am I thinking about him this much? It made no sense! But that's okay--liking somebody doesn't really make sense and it frustrates me because it can never seem to be someone who returns the favor or can.
It's alarming how easily I can lose myself in the fantasy of someone. Adding seemingly celestial context to cut-and-dry phrases like my life depended on it. He stopped me from getting hit by a bike and my ass was like "omg he touched my shoulder" like C'MON, I been feeling like a BIRD.
Of course I know this is okay and "normal" but...*sigh*. I am deeply, deepy over "wanting" and "wondering" and am moving into "having" and "knowing". Two things can be true: It's about building security in myself, and that still may not replace companionship.
No no, its fine. I only thought that...I dunno...maybe this would be something? Not just something romantic, something exciting; running through a festival, laughing under the stars, knowing smiles. Not exactly but the feeling. It's unfair to project that onto you.
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JUICE!!!! i love juice
Healing by Intra-Venus
Angrenost - INTraVeNUS
Some pretty terrifying sounding black metal from Portugal. Definitely has a bit of an industrial edge at times.