Two nights in a row I've been having nightmares. The night before last I dreamt that I was being attacked by a woman who wanted to kill me. She was driving the car and I was in the front passenger seat. Suddenly she accelerates and we're going at least a hundred miles per hour driving straight toward a wall. She seems to have no emotion and no fear and she's looking at me gauging my reaction. Maybe she gets off on creating fear. I don't know if I was showing outward fear but I do remember on the inside the heartbeat is racing and I'm partly accepting that I'm about to die and terrified that I'm about to die in this manner. As we are inches away from the wall I remember raising my feet up to the dashboard and putting my arms in front of my face. And then the car stops just before it hits the wall. I remember getting out of the car after she attempted this a second time and she comes after me with a knife trying to kill me. Last night I remember I dreamt that I was home and lived alone; asleep and in the middle of the night I wake up and I can tell that someone is in bed leaning over me watching me sleep. I open my eyes in a panic and I see a man staring right at me my heart is racing. The dream shifts into another segment completely different and all I can remember is being around at least one person I might know in real life I think they were my safety because I didn't sense any ill will toward me from them. I just remember there being a lot of people kind of like a shopping mall and we were going back and forth various floors different compartments of the building maybe socializing with other people but it didn't make any sense.
I'm very sensitive to the way the world is lately. All the violence and all of these strange occurrences and I'm feeling scared terrified almost wishing that I was never conceived because this world, no matter how many people who push positive thinking believe but this world it's really terrifying. And I would never procreate based on the conditions of this world. Something's really wrong and I don't feel safe and I wonder will I ever?
