SO a03 has suspended my account for calling the person out and using too many lyrics in my work supposedly.
They also said the offending fic is not close enough and I didn’t provide enough evidence. They also said that the other person’s fic is not close enough to mine which is bullshit. They also said it was okay for people to be inspired by another fic to make their own. I disagree.
I’m suspended for 30 days and then I have seven days to edit it.
They also will not allow to use lyrics in my story anymore as it is considered “copyright.”
I’m pissed.
I have now deleted my entire account.
I will no longer be using a03.
I have decided that I will be uploading Carry on My Wayward Son, Invisible String, and The Rubble or Our Sings? on to here. You’ll see them pop up and their pages will be updated with links to new chapters.
My Mind Turns Your Life Into Folklore is on hiatus.
I don’t know what I’m going to do as the lyrics are such an important part of it. I always made sure to credit the actual artist of the song. I am stepping away from the fic to see how I feel about it in a few days. Between this, the stealing of my fic, and the constant hate I got from every chapters, I just have to think about my next move. If nothing else, I will give you all a summary of what happened/the last couple of chapters.
Carry on my Wayward Son has been upload until the current point already.
I’m sorry for all of this.
Thank you to those who tried to help me.
I’m sorry if I let anyone down.
I genuinely just wanted for that person to leave me alone and unbookmark my fic. That was it. I even asked that you didn’t bother them.
I don’t agree with a03′s choice so it seems simple enough for me not to use it anymore.
I really am sorry to anyone I let down. I’m sorry to my readers who don’t check my tumblr. I hope it somehow reaches you that I’m here. If you have any friends who read my fics, please let them know I’m here.
I’m sorry if people got hurt, that was never my intention.
I really just wanted to write my own fic in my little corner of the fandom.
But I promise I’ll give you what I can.
Thank you for understanding. I hope you’ll read my fics still even if one of them is on hiatus.
I’m so grateful for every single one of you. Please feel free to talk to me. I’d love to be friends.
Which both artists have inspired stuff in several of my fics.
So that's exciting.
Also so you all know, no matter what fic, I'll release a playlist for each fic at each interval of 10 chapters. It may just be songs that inspired that chapter.
Music is a huge inspiration for me and I used to work in the entertainment industry until everything fell apart. Now I have a day job.
So when we get to the chapters where it's a concert in mmtylif, I hope to write it so you can call feel like you're really there, watching them perform.
As far as updates:
Mmtylif is on track to release a new chapter next week, as always. Possibly more? But I'm not sure.
The Rubble or Our Sins? Will be updating next week.
Carry on My Wayward Son and Invisible String may update. I'm not sure as I'm trying to balance a lot.
Also I'm up for a possible promotion at work. I'm not sure if I'll get it. However, this means I will be working much longer hours. Which would mean that morning updates really won't be happening expect on days I'm off. I really have no idea if I'm going to get it or not. I'm hopeful but I don't know.
So that's pretty much where everything stands. Again, I'd rather promise less and give you more than disappoint you by giving you less.
As always, feel free to ask me anything about my fics. I love questions and discussing things with all of you!
Everyone is connected someone by an invisible red string of fate, including Mikasa and Eren. This link become very important as they are reincarnated into their new lives 100s of years later. Mikasa has no memories of her past unlike Eren. Eren has been cursed with his memories of all of his past lives. With the help of an entity who takes the shape of Founder Ymir, Eren begins his journey to keep a promise he made in his previous life.
RATING: MATURE
Ships: Eren x Mikasa, Gabi x Falco, Past Levi/Petra , past Levi/Kiyomi, yeah I know it's weird, but you'll see
Other Tags: Reincarnation, Red String of Fate, spoilers for chapter 139, Does not include extra pages for 139
COPYRIGHT DISCLAIMER: Any recognizable elements belong to Attack on Titan.
NOTES: I have changed the chapter names on this fic from the original
CHAPTER ONE: EIGHT TIMES
Die.
Live again.
Die.
The first time he dies, he comes back in the form of a bird. He watches over Mikasa. Day and night. He finds ways to let her know that he's here.
Then he is a blue butterfly. He lands in her hair and follows her so she knows it's him. He can't wrap the scrap around her but he does what he can.
Then he is a bird again. Flying so high. He's free.
But none of that matters.
He's never human again.
Not until this time.
Knowing you caused the Rumbling from birth is a struggle.
The first time Eren sees her is in a dream when her half sister’s mom died. He doesn't know why he knows that or how. He just does.
He's here though.
She's crying.
At first, he just watched her. She looks the same as the first time they met.
"You're going to keep missing chances," a voice sang. There stood Ymir Fritz, just as he had seen her all those years ago.
"You're free.."
"Oh. I'm not actually her. I just took this form so it would be easier to talk to you. I'm the opposite of her."
"Are you the one who cursed me?"
"Nope. Not them either. I'm just a watcher. I've been watching you for a long time, Eren Jaeger. That was your name the first time you were born. That is who's soul you are. And she is the other half," the girl smiled up at Eren. "Oh. Right. You can't see the string."
The girl reached up and pressed two of her fingers to his forehead.
Eren felt a surge of power run down his spine.
"That should help. Look,” Ymir Fritz said as she pointed to the long red string that connected from Eren’s finger to Mikasa. “Soulmates,” the girl beamed. “Two halves of the same whole. It’s so amazing to me that they exist. You know they say you were one in some stories. You were too powerful that way. But I don’t know if I believe that. I just know the string exists regardless of anything we believe. Those people are destined to be with one another. That to me is beautiful. Don't miss any more chances."
The Ymir disappears.
Eren sits down on the beach. He looks the same in this human form as he did the last time he was human. Eren looks and sees her staring at him.
He smiles at her.
Neither of them can be more than nine.
“I was wondering when I would get to see you again,” he says as she sits down next to him in the sand.
“Where are we?”
“Paradis. Are you on Marley too?" He asks her, unsure of where she is. It's a large planet and she could be anywhere.
She nods.
"Well that's pretty funny. I don’t think you remember that though. You’re not cursed like me to remember all of it. It’s funny because...well that's not important. I'm just glad we have this time together. I've missed you,” he smiles at her.
There’s something familiar about him that she can’t place. There’s something comforting about him. She knows if anything happened to him, she’d take vengeance on the one that did it.
“At least I'm not a bird this time,” he mutters as he closes his eyes.
She stares at him like he’s grown three heads.
“Why are you crying?” he asks her after a moment.
“My stepmom died,” she mutters before she pulls her legs up to her chest. “I’ve lost my mom...again...now my sister doesn’t have a mom either.” She wraps her arms around her legs, making herself into a tiny ball.
Eren wants to comfort her more than anything but what good would that do? She doesn't know how he is. She doesn’t even know his name and he doesn’t know her name either.
So they sit there in the sand, watching the waves go in and out until Mikasa is woken from her dream.
The second time the entity using Ymir Fritz’s form appears to Eren is when he is thirteen. Eren is having trouble fitting in at school. When you realize that you are responsible for the rumbling and you killed everyone around you, it’s a little hard to make friends. It’s even harder when a girl asks you out but you see her red string is connected to someone else.
Eren sees them everywhere. Red strings.
“Why did you do this?” Eren asks.
“What?” the entity asks as it moves around the room that is nothing but white light.
“Why did you make me see these? Have I not suffered enough for you? What more do you want from me? I set Ymir free. I brought Mikasa to her. I gave up everything for my friends, my family. Why is that not enough? I just want to be normal! Why won’t you let me be normal?”
The entity sighs, “Eren, you’re not normal. Neither is Mikasa. You’re heroes. You’re the sort of people they write legends about. You’re anything but normal. You’re special!”
“But I don’t want to be special! Why can’t you leave me alone? Let me just have this! Let me just have her!”
The entity changes the room.
They’re watching the Wall Titans move. The Rumbling has begun.
“NO!” Eren yells.
The scene changes.
They’re back in the room of white light.
“Oh! Now that’s interesting. You sure do catch on fast.”
Eren grabs the girl and slams her against one of the white walls. “Stop it. I’m not some toy for you to play with. I’m a human!”
“Are you? Or are you a monster?”
The entity disappears.
Eren is alone in the room with the white light and the white walls.
It feels like a century later when Mikasa finally shows up.
“What is this?” she asks him as she pulls on the string.
“Red string of fate. Have you never heard of it?” he asks.
“I thought it was a myth,” she says as she pulls on it. “I don’t even know who you are.”
“Yeah, that’s the problem. See, I get to know everything. How many times we’ve done this. I get all our past history and you get...nothing. Well, I guess not nothing, you’re having these dreams with me. Curses are funny. I broke one and got another. Well, technically, you broke it. Why don’t you just pick someone else? Move on from me?”
She stares at him. “I don’t want to.”
Where did that come from?
She doesn’t even know the boy in front of her.
But the idea of moving on from him makes her very soul hurt.
She can’t do this.
She can’t.
There will never be anyone else.
There never has been anyone else.
It’s only him.
“Oh,” he replies. “I told you to. Then again, you never did listen to me.”
“Probably a good thing I didn’t,” she replies as she crosses her arms across her chest. “You’re stupid, you know? You tell me this is a red string of fate and then you ask me why I haven’t moved on. A red string of fate represents destiny. Soulmates. Why would I want anything else?”
“Because it never works out.”
“Well stop messing it up then,” she tells him as she uncrosses her arms.
He laughs.
“It’s not funny!”
“No, you’re right. It’s not. You mind if I change the scenery?”
She shakes her head.
He waves his hand and it changes.
They’re somewhere in a garden in summer.
There are fireflies flying through the air.
Mikasa looks around amazed by the view.
“Wow, have we been here before?” she asks.
“No, it’s from someone else’s memory I got back then. I’m not even sure where this is.”
And it is. The flowers. The gentle breeze. Trees swaying in the breeze.
Some of the fireflies land in Mikasa’s hair causing her to laugh.
“This is beautiful,” Mikasa says as she holds her hand out and a firefly lands in it.
“Yeah, it is,” Eren says.
But the boy isn’t looking at the landscape.
He’s looking at her.
She picks a flower and hands it to him.
It’s a white hydrangea.
“Why this one?” he asks her as she takes it.
“I think it represents gratitude,” she replies.
How did she know this?
She didn’t know.
He smiles at her.
“Can we just sit and watch the fireflies?” she asks him.
“Oh come on, you’re not being any fun for me. Besides, I have good news for you.”
Eren looks over at her, clearly annoyed.
“So you are cursed, just like you thought. But not by me. Actually, I’m here to make it a little easier on you.”
“And why would you do that?” Eren asks as he crosses his arms across his chest.
“Consider it a favor. This will be the last time you’ll see me for a long time as I’m changing things just for you. I won’t have any power to keep this form. So I’m going to send an old friend of yours to you. I think having a friend will be good for you. Plus, I’ve always loved a little chaos. Besides, it’ll be much easier to break your curse this time. All you have to do...is get it right,” the entity explains.
“Get what right?” Eren asks, confused.
“....you’ll see. Look out for your friend. In the meantime, enjoy your time with her. She’ll be arriving soon,” the entity says before giving a wave and disappearing.
Mikasa shows up hours later.
They’re nowhere fancy tonight.
Just her bedroom.
At least Eren guesses its her bedroom.
“What’s wrong?” he asks her.
She explains that she’s in trouble in the first semester of her freshman year of high school for an outburst in her history class.
She hates it there.
She hates hearing about all these titans.
She hates the slander.
Wait, how does she know it’s slander?
Why is she so angry?
“I don’t think what Eren did was right but there has to be a reason for it. I don’t think you can just dismiss him as a monster. He did monstrous things but didn’t Marley do it too? I don’t get it. Why is it okay for one country to do it and not the other?” she asks him, completely frustrated with the situation. “Marley and Paradis are both to blame. Or maybe it’s King Fritz. Either way, we can’t just dismiss Eren as evil no more than we can dismiss Reiner as evil. He broke the wall, didn’t he?”
“So you’re the angry one this time,” he says as he sits down on her bed.
“What is that supposed to mean?” she asks as she crosses her legs.
“Nothing. It doesn’t mean anything,” he tells her.
She nods.
“Who are you?” she asks him.
“Just...someone. Your soulmate,” he answers.
“Do you have a name?” she asks, her bottom lip trembles.
“Eren, I’m Eren,” he answers her before he stands up. He examines the bookshelf in her bedroom. There’s a picture of her and someone who looks like Levi. There’s another little girl in the picture. She looks like Gabi. What a strange family, Eren thinks.
“Maybe that’s why I feel like I have to protect Eren because you share a name with him,” she tells him as she stands up and walks over to him. “I’m Mikasa.”
“I know.”
“You know? How?”
“It’s a long story.”
“I’ve got time.”
“I don’t. I’m sorry. I’ll see you again,” and Eren leaves Mikasa alone as he wakes up in the real world.
But there are too many people trying to talk to her.
She should be networking but all she’s thinking about right now is getting to the boy who has been haunting her dreams since she was a child. She has to talk to him.
But by the time she made it where he was standing, he was gone.
I didn’t sleep well at all last night. I was too filled with rage but it allowed me to think of my plan.
I will overhaul mmtylif’s chapters that have already been posted, removing the lyrics. It’s going to be awkward in some parts because well, the lyrics are gone.
It’s still on hiatus BUT I feel like you all deserve to at least have something left of the fic so I can at least give you the chapters with the lyrics gone. My playlists will stay.
I’m leaving titles alone and chapters because....well...everyone uses lyrics for those.
I will upload mmtylif using five posts a day for all past chapters with the queue system. It’ll take roughly six days once that starts. I don’t want to flood anyone’s dashboard so this seems to be the easiest way to do so. Again, the fic will still be on hiatus.
The other fics will just get uploaded as I don’t have to edit them. I just have to upload them. Plus none of them are more than five chapters.
I’m changing my url/username. Why? Because I don’t trust people. If you’re following me, you’re fine because I’m NOT deleting. I’m just changing it. I will be doing so tomorrow. So if you’re not following me, there are ways to find me.
I want to make this super clear. I am NOT going back to a03. I’m sorry. I’ve talked with friends, I’ve talked with family. It’s clearly the best move for me not to write on their anymore as I don’t agree with their choices. I will still read people’s works but I will NOT be making another account. So if anyone says they’re me, they’re simply lying.
I’m taking the rest of the week off from writing. I need a break and it’s going to take a lot of time and energy to overhaul mmtylif. I have a lot of things going on in my personal life too right now. So I just need a break. I may still upload the other fics this week or I may just wait. I’m not sure yet.
I’m NOT quitting writing or sharing my fics. They’ll all be right here. I’m not going anywhere anytime soon. I still plan to finish invisible string, comwws, and troos.
I hope you all understand. I’ll make a post tomorrow letting you know, hey it’s still me, just a new username.
I cannot thank you all enough for the support you all have given me. I cannot tell you how much it means. I hope you will all stick with me and if you haven’t read my other fics, I hope you’ll give them a try.
So @annie4115 replied to this post which is meant to start a discussion about my fics so if you’re interested in me doing the same, you can comment here or there.
Okay long one. For question one - uhhh I’m not sure if you’ve mentioned it as it’s not ymir - but if now she’s my guess. If not perhaps the centipede or the said devil from historia’s storybook from when she was younger. If not it’s maybe isayama or yourself whom you’ve snooped into the story UwU I love that mikasa ans gabi are sisters in my opinion cause mikasa’s mom was expecting back then so I’m glad in this reincarnation she finally got to live that here - also gabi would seem like a really cute sibling trope who really adores their elder sibling but won’t really show it openly so I’m excited !!
Correct it is not Ymir. I never thought about making it the devil in the storybook. That’s a good idea though. I’m going to try and leave more hints then about who it is. This is good feedback for me because I thought I had made it too obvious I’m glad I haven’t yet.
I’m glad you’re enjoying them being siblings. I really wanted to give Levi the family he always wanted and to give him some good kids. I know the whole ship with Kiyomi is a bit weird in the beginning but we don’t know Mikasa’s mom’s name. Plus I think Petra would have also been a good mom to Mikasa. Gabi needs an older sister while Reiner is great, I wanted to mix up the families more but not separate Levi and Gabi. The scene where he’s helping Gabi shoot in canon is forever in my mind.
Yes, Gabi loves Mikasa but is also a little shit to her big sister. They are best friends. Plus Falco also adores Mikasa and I look forward to their scenes together.
Okay for carry on my wayward son, I have no headcanons as of now for the mark. Characters I’d love seeing would be uh erwin perhaps? He’s not in your other two fics so I’d love to see how you write him. If not him, I’d be excited to see how you add falco, udo, zophia and gabi in case you do Also uh getting eaten - yes rod’s an amazing option but maybe Floch too - I don’t like that horrible excuse of a tomato.
Yay! The mark will get explained at the beginning of the next chapter. I’m glad I didn’t give that either.
So the reason for no Erwin in the other two is: 1) he does have a role in mmtylif but....he’s dead already. 2.) he’s not in invisible string because I feel like he doesn’t have any unfinish business. I’m also a sucker for Levi x Hange but I feel it only works after Erwin is gone because Erwin and Levi are also a ship I can get onboard. I’m a multishipper for my boy Levi here which has its drawbacks.
But in carry on my wayward son, it’s less about Levi’s romantic life and the man can have lovers in every zip code as far as I’m concerned.
Erwin is also the only one I have trouble relating to so I’m super nervous about writing him. But yes, Erwin will show up in this fic! Look forward to Hange and Erwin gaining up to teased Levi.
Because Erwin would a 100% be a hunter. Anyone who says different can fight me. I’d love to have the warrior kids in it too because I love them so much. Gabi is so fun to write.
Listen, I have three characters I can’t stand. One of them is already dead, the other two are Floch and Rod. I will totally feed both of them to something.
Okay for my mind turns your life into folklore, zeke and Levi’s plan - hmmm uh perhaps they have some juicy secret that they expose to the world, or kill rod and make it seem like an accident idk 🤷🏻♀️ About songs I’d love to read - Taylor Swift specific - I’d say willow , august, love story (it’s a classic please) maaaaybe some from reputation oh and lover. Other than Taylor Swift- perhaps the classic call of silence and call your name , maybe some billie eilish ? Idk 🤷🏻♀️ ike ocean eyed gave me good aruanni vibes, even “used to this” by Camila Cabello - I love the soft fluffy vibes I got from it 🥺 yeah.
So I’m glad you guessed part of the plan. Sadly, they won’t be making Rod not be alive because as much as they would like to.....it’d be a bad example to the kids. I kind of dance around whether Levi has actually killed anyone outside of military combat. We know Kenny has. There’s a reason why Rod isn’t directly attacking Zeke or Levi. They’re both pretty powerful in their own regard. Levi has all the dirt from Kenny and Zeke is a direct Fritz. Dina’s maiden name is Fritz for a reason and it is Zeke’s middle name in this fic.
I used Willow for the Armin and Annie proposal last time but I ended up not liking how all that was written. We’ll see how that goes this time.
I love August....I’m trying to use all of folklore for sure.
Yes, Love Story is coming. I can’t not put that one in there.
There also songs from both Rep and Lover coming soon too!
Call Your Name would be good. Thought I don’t think I could handle call of silence because all I hear is Ymir in Paths and her letter to Historia and I just can’t. But maybe I’ll work it in somehow.
Ocean Eyes is totally Annie and Armin.
I’ll see about used to this.
I make no promises on songs but this was all very helpful.
