anyway since i'm oversharing tonight. i have this practice of copying lines that i like from books i'm reading into a personal notebook. it kind of began with the notion that doing so allows me to revisit the story and the way it's told (in a way it can be considered a sort of 'rereading') (this is also helpful bc my memory is absolute dogshit from being mentally ill for over half of my life), and also allows me to learn from the book bc when i'm penning those lines, i have the chance to possibly put myself in the author's shoes and understand how and why they wrote those words. i think i'm still lacking as a writer and approaching this practice from this angle helps me to learn more about writing itself.
yet. another thing i want to be is a fast reader. so many books, so little time. one can see how the aforementioned practice sort of demands that one dedicate more scrutiny and work towards a single book, and would require time that could otherwise be spent reading other books. it is also inevitable that the longer the book, the more such lines it would contain that i wish to study, and thus a longer duration should be spent applying this practice to it.
i have definitely benefited from this practice before - it's not only helped my writing but help me come into my own voice. but there are also some instances when i wonder if this practice is banal and arises from a place of compulsion, ie. "i MUST prove myself to be a good writer. i MUST always become a better writer. it's the only thing i have going for me and my existence is otherwise completely worthless." this as compared to approaching it as a supplement to writing, which itself is something i love and enjoy and *want*, not am *obliged to*.
it feels, at times, that this practice is a shackle or weight upon what would otherwise be a swift and voracious passion for reading, where i would relentlessly devour book after book. like, am i holding myself back here? maybe it would help to copy those lines as i read them, while their impact is still fresh in my mind, or make a daily habit of this practice (ie. do this at the end of each day with whatever reading progress i had made that day)? idk. like i said, it helps but it sometimes feels unnecessary and like a method of compensation.
should i continue with this practice?
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