#irinalook

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"One day I will suddenly disappear/ and you will be wondering 'where is Irina'/ and you will start looking for me/ but you won't find me/ because I'll have been digging for 3 days/ and I'll be like 150 meters deep in the ground/ and then I'll start crying/ and drown in my own tears/ just like Alice/ but in a well made by myself/ with the power of my rage/ and all of it will be because of Xabi"

Irina "How I Will Die In A Well I Made Myself"

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Hi girls! Since yesterday I watched the episode wifi-less, I took notes and here they are. They are kind of crazy and badly written, but that expresses my mental state during the watching.

1. Racoon

2. OMG KEVIN AND MUM

3. OMG I LOVED THIS GUUUUUY (ALFIE THE ANGEL)

4. OMG CROWLEY ILU

5. CAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS

6. OMG CAS NET AND CAS WITH NEW TRENCHCOAT AND PRETTY AND UgH PLS MY FUCKING HEART NO

7. CAS WATCHING TV I CAN'T I CAN'T I LOVE THIS SO MUCH I'M LOVING THIS EP

THEY ARE MENTIONING CHUCK OMG NO HE IS NOT DEAD HE WAS GOD I THINK THAT WAS CLEAR JDKBGHIETKDFBG

+ when in purgatory, cas puts his hand on Dean's shoulder bujsdrhfg my otp touched bitches

The walls from the motel remind me of Changing Channels

dude the eyesex dean/cas mmmmmm

"Cas, can I talk to you for a sec?" AND I SCREAMED BECAUSE THAT MEANS ROMANTIC QUARREL AND THEN SEX OR JUST SEX AND EVERYBODY KNOWS THAT

"I did not leave you" PLS ÉS QUE THEY ARE SO IN LOVE PLS OMG DAMNIT BVFDHJVBIKD THAT'S SO CAS I SWEAR I LOVE YOU I DID NOT LEAVE YOU I WOULD HAVE KILLED MYSELF BEFORE LEAVING YOU AND CAS IS LIKE YOU THINK THIS IS YOUR FAULT? I CAN'T FUCKING EXPRESS THE FEELING BUT IT'S A LOVESTORY FEELING

When Dean says it he's super afraid of saying it, he utters it for the first time and it's right from his heart, it's all the pain he has felt, all the doubts and sorrow for thinking that Cas is dead because of him, that he would have died thinking he had left him. So he says I did not leave you, and omg Dean's voice tone when he says it, it breaks my heart. He's desperate.

Mamma Tran is like the badassest character ever

Crowley blowing that shiny thing PLS

TEAM FREE WILL BACK ON BUSINESS

I can't be the only one expecting unconsciously for Dean and Cas to kiss at any moment

OMFG WHAT AM I SEEING WHAT IS THIS WHAT IS HAPPENING I'M SCARED CAS CAS CAS SCHSJFGJ

I'm at Dean's "I don' need to feel like hell for failing you like any other thing I've ever cared about" speech and sobbing

NO THE TRUE MEMORY I DON'T WANT TO SEE IT

NO BUT IT'S ACTUALLY TRUE OR IS IT CAS LYING OR WHAT WHAT

NOCASNOCASNOCASNOCASNOCASNOCAS ISDNFHJDF NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SDFHJS SOOOOOBBIIIIIIING

"You can't save everyone my friend" MY FRIEND MY FRIEND UG AFFECTIONATE WORDS UGH IT HURTS

DEAN PLS DON'T HATE HIM DEAN PLS

OK HE DESERVES A BIT OF HATE BECAUSE YOU WERE LIKE KILL ALL THE THINGS, SACRIFICATE ALL THE THINGS, PUT ALL THE EFFORT IN - IN ORDER TO SAVE HIM.

SO. YUP.

WHAT

WAT

WHAT

HSRDFUIGSED

IS THIS DOCTOR WHO?

IS CAS AMY?

IS CAS PREGNANT WITH RIVER SONG?

WHAT IS GOING ON THIS IS SO WEIRD HUG ME

NO YOU ARE ALL WHORES SONS AND DAUGHTERS OF BITCHES NO THIS IS CRUEL AND PAINFUL AND IT HURTS,  YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO CAS, YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO THE WINCHESTERS, YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO MY SHIP AND MORE IMPORTANTLY YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I HAVE SO MUCH PAIN TO SHARE HOLY FUCK BUT I DON'T HAVE INTERNET NOW. TUMBLR WAIT FOR ME

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CORGNELIUS THE CORGI Y'ALL

CORGNELIUS THE CORGI

HERE

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Assemble, council of the wise:

I have an hypothetical scheme for you, and I need you to give your opinion/advice in the matter:

Subject A becomes best friend with Subject B through the Internet. In several years, they talk constantly and share everything, becoming best friends. They feel so freaking comfortable talking with each other and they end up recognizing they feel something else for each other.

Subject A gets a very interesting job offer (of 6 months) very close to where Subject B lives.

Cons:

- Family of subject A will not be supportive of the subject moving (they do not know anything about Subject B).

- Job offer is in pretty far away place.

SO: To go or not to go?

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Why is life so hard kids?

So I want to tell you about this because it's really worrying me and ugh

Erasmus. I got to apply for an Erasmus grant next year, and I have to choose three places in order of preference, let me tell you about them and their pro and cons:

1. University of Edinburgh - This is my first option, the sweetheart of my life-in-which-I-cannot-possibly-afford-Oxford. Pros: It's the BEST uni, it's in SCOTLAND, which is full of ACTUAL SCOT MALES, and I have a lot of FREE SCOTLAND feels besides the academic excellency. Cons: the pros are so relevant that any con is valid.

2. Okay, the second position is the complicated one. It's is SO COMPLICATED to get in Edinburgh. Only the best grades get there, and there are 3 places. My very good friend Jana wants to go there too and she has AMAZING GRADES so she's quite in, but she's not the only one besides me and although my grades are good (8,2 from the first year) they are not excellent. Which worries me. A lot. Therefore, choosing the second preference is VERY IMPORTANT because it's kind of pretty sure where I am going: Dublin: Pros: Academic excellence, interesting courses, GORGEOUS place, very literary. Cons: SO FAR AWAY FROM ACTUAL ENGLAND. Manchester: Second best Uni in Ireland+Scotland+England. ACADEMIC EXCELLENCE OF FIRST LEVEL, THE BEST COURSES, SO IN THE MIDDLE OF ENGLAND, an hour and a half from Birmingham, Oxford and London. Cons: they say it's an ugly city. I mean I had to say something. Birmingham: This means I'd go to every single gig George and the boys give for a whole year. Thus being able to follow Sílvia's instructions. No, I'm kidding. Well. Okay that was the pro. Also quite near to Oxford and the south west of England. The cons are: not much academic reputation. Not really interesting courses. 

You'll say: choose Manchester as second option! YES WELL IT SEEMS EASY DOESN'T IT? Well I have a friend who really wants to go there. She's meeting a friend there and for her this means to be able to be with her for a whole year and they can never actually see each other because they leave so far away. DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT IS? IT'S LIKE A FUCKING DREAM HOLY SHIT. She says her grades are not as good as mine so if I apply, she says she'll be out. And I don't want to carry this guilt with me. I really don't want to. And I feel SO BAD. 

Moreover, Laura wants to go to Dublin, and she says the same about that.

I'M SORRY MY GRADES ARE GOOD ENOUGH TO FUCK UP MY FRIENDS BUT NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO FULFILL MY DREAMS

THIS FUCKING SUCKS

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Irina's monologues on her tags:

#BEST #Cherlock #WAHT #Sherlock

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THERE'S A NEW OLAN ROGERS VIDEO

OMG

I PROMISE YOU I JUST HAD A TREMENDOUS BURST OF LOVE AND HAPPINESS IN MY CHEST

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ARE YOU A GHOST FROM FANGIRLISM PAST?

Irina, on me, totally randomly.