#irl problems tw

[wrennly]

I've held off for as long as I could...

wrennly. so I'm in DESPERATE need of commissions. I have 0$ to my name and I won't get money in until later in the month. I can't pay my rent, phone bill, or even my Spotify bill. I hate to ask for donations, but if anyone is willing... please give you something in return.

So I won't take donations, I'll take commissions. I'll draw anything you want, within reason. The more complex the drawing, the more the price will rise. I can also do blog edits!

All of my edits on my blog (from my banner to my background to my icons) are all mine (the raws of the icons aren't mine, but some are). I can make icon borders, theme backgrounds, I'll even edit the code for you. I don't care, I'll do it. My names on Cashapp are my new names, Wrennly Elliot, while Paypal is my dead legal name.

My Cashapp is: $samanthastormi531 My Paypal is: samanthahyphen

Have a vague idea for your OC? Want some pics of your character? Let me know. I have 5 slots open and will update accordingly.

slot 1: open slot 2: open slot 3: open slot 4: open slot 5: open

Examples of my work underneath

[strawberista]

{Something terrible has happened. I'm not gonna go into it here. I'm sorry. I know it seems like I didn't do any work today, but I was trying. I put a bunch of stuff into drafts to fill out and completed a couple of drafts here and there. But I have to get off now. I probably won't be back today.}

[wrennly]

wrennly. update, my "friend" whom I had a falling out with told me I'm a shitty friend and that I need to mind my business and that it's not all about me. I never made it all about me. I chose to leave a toxic situation because it wasn't good for my mental health to be there. all of our "friends" mutual between us are taking her side which is great to see. said I was out of pocket and blew things out of proportion. she's the one who kicked me out over one post on snapchat looking for a new place to live.

I'm trying not to take anything personally but it's really really hard right now.

[wrennly]

wrennly. since nobody really liked my help promo, I'm gonna try a different method. Explaining things down below - long story short, if anyone can make donations, that would be greatly appreciated. or if anyone can do emergency commissions (where I make you things or draw you things) that'll be great.

basically, I am homeless. I am in between jobs (I have one, but they haven't scheduled me at all for next week or the foreseeable future...). I have cats to feed, and rats to feed, and myself to feed.

hell, I'll make you a custom theme if that's what it takes. but PLEASE help. I wouldn't be asking if it wasn't serious.

Cashapp: $samanthastormi531

Paypal: @samanthahyphen

[strawberista]

{I'm struggling a lot, guys. I think I need to talk about it because of how much it's been affecting this blog, but also I don't want to make anyone feel bad so. Snip snip.}

{TW: mental health, healthcare, financial instability, negativity, ooc/irl situations.}

{After struggling really hard to try to get in some place, we've determined I can't actually afford therapy, counseling, or any sort of mental health treatment. The cheapest we can get is $85 a week with my insurance, and we just can't afford it.}

{It makes me feel like I will never be able to roleplay properly. My biggest flaw when it comes to roleplaying is my complete inability to plot with other people, and trying to experiment with whatever the problem is usually leads to the conclusion that I just need therapy. And I'm not going to be able to be a good roleplay partner until I can.}

{I don't know what to do. I know my lack of plotting is really holding me back from being a good partner for everyone and it's not a good time trying to hold a conversation with me at all. I know this. But I can't do what I need to do to fix it. It makes me feel like I shouldn't be roleplaying at all, because if I keep this up eventually I'm going to accidentally hurt someone really badly (if I haven't already, idk), and I'm really scared. I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to be a bad roleplay partner. I was feeling confident because I was taking steps to find a solution, but now no matter how much I look I'm not going to be able to get help.}

{I don't want to outright leave, either, though. I don't want to abandon partners and threads that I've started. I don't want to upset anyone by not being here. I just don't know what to do.}

{It's gonna affect me. I guess not anymore that it already has been, but I'm not going to get better like I wanted to. I'll always be spotty, difficult to talk to, and I don't think I'll ever be any good at plotting. I'm sorry. I tried. I'm not sure what to do now.}

[strawberista]

{Okay, I know I said I'd come back, but legit I believe I've given myself carpal tunnel with my crochet project in combination with getting back on the computer, so I'm going to take a break for a while.}

{I've done some stretches and the pain is gone now, but I don't trust that. I'm going to stop all activity using repetitive motions with my hands for a couple of days and continue doing stretches. I also might try to learn how to craft a brace or something with ace bandages because I have those handy.}

{But if anyone else has tips beyond stretching/bracing or any carpal tunnel prevention tips for typing/gaming/crochet specifically I'd be happy to take them.}

{In the meantime catch me on discord. I can swipe words instead of type on my phone, and predictive text helps, too. Just gonna give myself a break while I work on managing pain, etc.}

[wrennly]

wrennly. so I finally got my eviction notice... I don't have enough money to pay it.. if anyone has any spare money, or could reblog my commissions post, that'd be wonderful ;;;;