#irrevocablelove

[lazilymagnificentcollection]

When you feel like shit and wanna talk about it but don't want to bother anyone so you just sit in a puddle of your own feelings and internally collapse for a while

@lazilymagnificentcollection

[sassysadbitch]

I am delusional. I once got so confused that I couldn't differ my reality from my dream. And I guess, I went crazy right after I fell in love. It's agonizing to death when you love someone so much. The pain makes you feel so alive in a way that you go bonkers. Sometimes, I abhor myself, I abhor the amount of love I have for someone who never loved me back. It almost sounds that I am self-pitying, but I am not.

Once, I had gone back to my hostel to get some of my stuff and asked him to wait near the hostel's main gate. When I came back, he was nowhere to be found, and at that moment I realised have I gone crazy? Because I thought that I was just imagining him, a beautiful dream and that he never existed in reality. But then I suddenly saw him, standing in the corner under the wall's shadow. And then suddenly, the bitter truth pierced my heart, I couldn't believe that I was in love nor the fact that someone loved me too. Even if it was the briefest love affair that after the passing of three months had become a cup of poison that I had to drink every day. I was unaware that I was drinking poison, the poison of love.

Irrevocably in love :')

Some people keep telling me how breathtaking and amazing it is to be in love, and I won't deny it. It's astonishing to love a stranger so much so that in such a short period, you become incredibly accustomed to his existence. As if, his existence is all that matters in your life. You forget all about yourself, I have been told how I shouldn't do it the next time I fall in love. But you see, it's quite funny when someone tells me how to not repeat the same mistakes I made with my first love. I admire their optimism, their hopes; they feel that one can fall in love again. I know a lot of people who have fallen in love for an uncountable amount of times. I am in awe of their bravery, but I am not brave at all. You may call me a coward but I won't be able to fall in love again, ever. It's scarring and scaring. And I have more than enough scars and injuries on my heart and body, inflicted by me and my loved ones, including him.

[alreadyfoundmyforever-blog-blog]

Already found my forever

It still overwhelms me that I have found the most amazing, loving, caring guy- my soulmate, and at such a young age. Who would have thought that five years ago, the seventeen year old me, would stumble across a guy that would change her life forever and fill it with the most amazing experiences and opportunities. I am honoured to call him mine. Throughout everything we have gone through one thing has never ceased- the unconditional love we have for each other. No matter what occurs, at the end of the day he is there, irrevocably in love with me, and I am there, irrevocably in love with him. And to top it all off, in less than a month I will give birth to our first baby. Life is pretty sweet.