#isles.memeday

[hellschimera]

lapis lazuli

does your muse prefer the idea of exploring the depths of the oceans, or the boundless expanses of space more?

The depths of the ocean is something that has always intrigued and horrified Theo, he respects it intricately and while he is terrified of what might be in the ocean he’d rather explore that then space. 

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10-13, 23

Pick a scar/injury you have/had and talk about how you got it.

I used to have a scar across my eyebrow, my mom had a matching one, she used to say that that made us honorary twins. She got hers playing softball as a kid and I got mine running through a glass door when I was three. I miss it, it was one of the only things I had left to remember her. 

Who’s the last person you kissed? Is there anyone you’d like to kiss?

Tracy, Tracy Stewart. Right now I don’t think I could say who I wanted to kiss, I’d rather keep that to myself. It’s kinda personal.

What’s your reputation with the people around you. Do they like you? Dislike you? Why?

I think my reputation is complicated, I’d say personally they probably dislike me, for the most part anyway. I hurt a lot of people, killed people. They have every right not to trust me or want me around, so it’s strange that some of them do, that I’m still here. 

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3, 18, 21, 27

In what ways has someone hurt you? Who?

I’ve been tortured in ways most people can’t even imagine, the things you see in movies don’t really come close when I think about what I’ve gone through. When I was 10 years old I was strapped to a metal table while the dread doctors made me swallow mountain ash. It burned something awful, it got in my nose, coated the back of my mouth until I couldn’t breathe.. The only respite I had was when they forced the wolfsbane down my throat, Blue Monkshood, Yellow Wolfsbane, Purple Wolfsbane, they tried them all. It hurt, it was one of the worst pains I’d ever gone through, but as a chimera it didn’t affect me the way it would a true supernatural. That’s what they wanted to know, they wanted to know if it would kill me. In that way I was a profound success. By the time I was 12 I didn’t even flinch anymore, so they no longer had a reason to strap me down.

What your favorite color? Foods? Weathers/Seasons?

There’s a very specific color I like, it’s like the color of the ocean. A sort of sea green, but mostly it’s blue. Intense and beautiful. Like a jewel. When I look at it, when I see that color I think of someone and that makes me happy, like really happy. Other than that I don’t have a favorite anything, food is food and weather.. I’ve never had a preference that I can think of.

Do you make friends easily? Talk about them for a little bit.

I was never that good at making friends, I think in a way I learned how to pretend, how to manipulate a situation and get people to like me. But I never made true friends that way, but once upon a time I had a few really good friends, I hung out with them as much as I could. I would trade toys with them, do anything I could to make them smile. I even gave away my favorite stuffed animal when they scraped their knee all because I wanted them to feel better. 

Are you an open person or are you closed off?

Maybe once I was, but that part of me is long gone. I prefer to stay to myself most days, keep things to myself. To be open with someone means to show them every part of you, the fears, the ugly parts you don’t want anyone to see. To be open means to be raw and I don’t know how to be that person anymore. 

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2, 9, 14, 24

Past relationships? How did they go? Do you still speak to each other?

I’ve never had a relationship, not the conventional kind. I kissed a girl once but then I did something bad and I’ve regretted it ever since. If I could speak to her I would tell her how sorry I am, how I was a different person then. That I’m different now, but I wouldn’t except anyone to forgive me for that, least of all her. I can’t even forgive myself.

Talk about the people you know at work. Do you like them? Do you hang out with them after work?

I don’t have a job, I guess  I work with the pack technically, so I like them for the most part, even if some of them might not really like me. But no, we never hang out.

What do you do to relax?

I’ve never really tried relaxing before, I’ve usually only been focused on surviving. I guess if I were to try, I’d consider taking deep breaths and just resting. Sometimes I think about Liam and it helps, but I try not to think about what that means.

When’s the last time you got drunk? Do you remember what you did? Do you regret it?

I’ve never been drunk before, my healing doesn’t really allow it. If I wanted to I could try mixing the alcohol with yellow wolfsbane or the wolfsbane the dread doctors used to use on chimeras. It had a kind of sedative effect. So maybe that would weaken me enough to get me drunk, but it could also kill me if I was attacked so I don’t know if its worth trying.