heyy!!! i'm glad to see someone is still writing for val, so whenever you can get by, can you write something for iso¿ it can be a continuation of series you've already done (sleeping together, nsfw alphabet,...) or anything you feel like writing, thank you in advance!!
Can't believe I haven't done one of those for Iso yet! I'll get right to it ♡
Sleeping together (literally); Iso
Has a strict routine before going to bed, will NOT let you interrupt it
But of course you still try because it's funny sometimes ;)
He knows you're not doing it to be mean so he's not bothered by it, even uses it to make YOU pay the price for it (forces you to do his skin care routine with him)
"No entrance to the bathroom without the entrance fee!" you'd explaim, blocking the doorway with your smaller frame, "and what is the fee you're talking about?", he'd ask. You'd sheepishly reply "A hug and five kissies!"
Gladly pays said "fee" of course ;)
But in return doesn't let go of the hug and just carries you into the bathroom with him
You've done this several times by now so you knew to get your headband so the product wouldn't end up in your hair and enjoyed while he applied his expensive products on your face before doing the same on his own.
Afterwards you both snuggled into bed comfortably
Iso makes sure to cuddle you for a while before actually going to sleep
Which makes sense because he sleeps like a corpse. On his back, arms above the blanked, not moving an inch during the night.
Seperate blankets. He can't stand it when you change your sleeping position and he's left with none of the blanket while you're wrapped in the entirety of it.
You've gotten used to it after a while but it took a while to accept no cuddles during the night.
If for some reason you've woken up before him you sometimes cuddle up to his arm, which does wake him up but he'll gladly initiate some more cuddles by that time
If he wakes up before you do (happens a lot more often than the other way around) he'll be your big spoon until he has to get up
You swear his alarm goes off at least 10 minutes before it needed to just so he has time to cuddle you but he denies it
Hey! I have an idea: writing jealousy headcanons for Yandere Tejo, Vyse and Reyna. If it's not too much, you could include Iso in it too, that would make me soooo happyy >ᴗ<
Of course! This will be SFW <3
Jealous Yandere's ft. Tejo, Vyse, Reyna, and Iso
Tejo
Jealous Tejo isn't too different from normal Yandere Tejo
He's overly affectionate. His hands are on you so long as the cause of his jealousy is nearby. Around your waist, your back, across your shoulders. You are nestled into his side well and securely
He takes over any conversation with you involved. Tejo answers for you, leads the conversation, and ultimately finds a way to end it if at all possible. He feigns you two having dinner plans or a training date
Obsessively drops you're his partner. If he can say it he does and he never feels out of place! He entirely just gives off the 'loving, doted partner' so everyone's cooing at you meanwhile this is the most 'polite' way he can say to back tf off
If something occurs and he isn't there then he finds the next excuse to be. Someone being a little too friendly at work? He's bringing you lunch and flowers. Barista chatting you up/asked for you number? He's there instead picking up your usual order under your name, flexing "oh, that's my partner, aren't they great?" You don't ask or are fully aware he's doing this but he is and, thankfully, people keep their friendly distance from you
He is all about subtle but loud so you're also wearing new jewelry. You've gotten yourself a spa treatment and look absolutely pampered. Its clear you've got a pep in your step and are glowing. It's all so you can gush "Oh! My boyfriend/husband got it for me!"
his methods are simply, subtle, but very very effective!
Vyse
Jealous Vyse is kind of hard to pick up on right away because shes like a coin
On one side you're getting the same treatment as before; mark ups, overly critical comments, pampering that seems super back handed.
On the other shes directly talking to the person making her jealous. Shes assessing them, trying to see if they are even a threat or if its just a case of friendly banter. To those outside, you included, it seems shes just being her normal self but this woman is doing high level mental math.
Vyse outright interrupts your interactions. Shes butting in mid conversation to remind you that you had training with her, degrading you a little/making you look forgetful or lazy. Before anyone can bump in shes snatched you up and you're out the door. Training she scoffs and takes over helping you from them the moment they try and touch you. It doesn't matter if its harmless, you're hers and only she gets to 'help' you.
She also just keeps you stupidly busy so theres zero chance of you bumping into anyone until shes 'secured' the situation. You're relieved for a break from training only to be told you stink and to shower. Fresh out of the shower excited for lunch and BOOM shes got food in her hands pulling you to go look over something with her privately. It never ends but she at least makes sure you actually get done what you need done.
At some point she deadass, much to your embarrassment, asks the person (s) what their goals are with you. If they think you're attractive, etc. She shuts each of them down, tearing into them in ways that KILLS any self confidence this person has. Its not mean girl stuff its "Oh? Do you think you'd be able to even keep up? They scored the highest on the simulation last time. What do you even bring to the table that they'd want?"
To really jam that thorn in she will, when just they are aware, wrap a possessive arm around you and tilt her head in to get a kiss. Daring them to try something.
Reyna
Reyna is grumpy the moment someones trying to make any perceived moves on you. You're aware shes jealous but any action by you does little to calm it.
She stays on that line between irritated and genuinely angry. What seems to act as a sort of pacifier is letting her smother you in bites. You're just a fancy teething toy for her but it pauses her ranting and seems to ease her a little. This is just a measure of asserting her dominance. There's so many you cant possibly hide them or pass it off as your cat getting a little to aggressive while playing. Anyone who knows the two of you knows exactly who caused them and they spread it back to exactly who Reyna wants to hear it.
Reyna has you scooped into a breath taking kiss before you even know shes there. You're giggling as she coos over you, squishing your face, and asking you how you're day is. Some of the other agents are making gag sounds to tease you but that doesn't much matter to her. Shes rubbing her possession of you in anyone whos watching faces.
She is also a bit like Tejo in the way she will just show up when ever this person(s) would be interacting with you. Unlike Tejo though she is always stunning! This woman has money, status, and most importantly knows how to show off without it being too much. She's got you wrapped around her arm as she picks up lunch, that server that always chats you up oddly quiet. Shes spotting you at the gym and also being an utter show off by using you as the weight, showing just how capable she is and how much you adore her.
As soon as its apparent you've been left alone she is back to her usual self and you are covered in a lot less bites!
that being said, should someone not take the hint or try and 'show' you her behaviors Reyna does escalate easily. She's out right threatening them, finding them on their way home and isolating them to send home the point she is not to be crossed. She doesn't want to shed blood if she doesn't have to, especially if it'd concern you, but she will if needed and has zero problems tracking her prey down.
Iso
Starting off I have to state Iso is more of the quiet Yandere. He keeps to himself, he's a little awkward, doesn't really talk much when he 'on guard', and has ZERO concern for social graces.
As such he will just appear and take you, without a word, away from the cause of his jealousy. He's got you pulled away, asking you a million questions before taking you some where else to get food/clothes/ etc.
Its honestly kind of cute! He's so pouty as he talks about people taking you from him, cheeks puffed up as he plays around on his phone. You cant help but reassure him as well as entirely fawn over him. It's adorable! But that little adorable mask covers his plotting.
Before the end of the day he's gotten all the information he needs on the person. He is a hitman after all. By the end of the week he knows their routine, their schedules, knows where they'll be when as well as where anyone that matters to them will be. You're unaware, him giving you his cute quiet affection that you take as him mopeing
Iso doesn't act right away though nor does he push hard for you to change your routine. Iso himself likes routines, he likes the places he does and doesn't like swapping them so he wouldn't pressure you to change it up. Instead he watches. He follows you just out of sight. Every interaction you have is noted and monitored as well as judged.
That person crosses a line he's ready. Iso has the skill set to destroy someones life in a matter of seconds if he wants, all without too much of a care. Everything is quiet, done before anyone knows what's up, and cleaned up with zero trace anything even happened. Be this the person getting taken out or simply 'encouraged' to leave town. Its seamless and your routine is preserved.
Once everything is done he's back to you, being the silent and loving partner he is. Probably curled up in your lap playing video games while you talk about the new barista at your favorite coffee place or your new manager at work.
coworker!iso who found out the new medics was you. A Radiant. How could they hire you without any missions?
That's right you had powers like anyone in the Valorant Protocal Team.. but you weren't even joined on missions with them and yet you were still in the higher ranks. Iso even found you a bit comfortable to talk with.
When Sage was caught up with her missions, you'd be the next best thing off the battlefield. And that's when he found out. One of your powers are healing.. like Sage but way more better.
With her powers,, you'll heal slowly.. but with yours, it healed instantly. Though Iso, kept his thoughts to himself.. wondering if you could fight. So after one mission, he had visited you in your little clinic.
"Iso..?" You perked up, standing over your desk. He sauntered over to you. "Yo.." He looked over at your coat as you raised an eyebrow. "Let's duel." Suddenly you were surprised. "Excuse me—"
And thats how you get here, having a duel with Iso in his own domain. Of course not with real guns, it was bb guns for training. You did well, much better than his expectations for your powers.
You huffed slowly as you finally sat down near the shooting range. "Don't ever drag me like that again.." Your coat was disheveled, as he barked out a laughter. "嗯，不错 (hm, not bad)" You just raised an eyebrow at him, "What?" Iso just seemed amused,, then stare back down at you.
Disclaimer!! Everything RED is NSFW! And also obviously made up.
Sfw:
Even in a relationship still kinda cold but will show his love thru quality time
Not much talking
Not the type to ask "Heyy u wanna eat something?" but rather "Eat." as he gives u some food because he noticed u look hungry, or haven't eaten in a while
Notices small things
Recommends u songs
Watches u and looks at u when u don't notice, especially when u sleep
When u argue and he's rlly mad he'll talk in mandarin automatically
Prob prefers rather thin and physically "weaker" girls so he can show off and impress with his strengh
Neck kisses
Nsfw:
Dom
Hes big, not just in lengh but also not too thin in width!!
He doesn't stop until he want's to
Rough, hard
Has a playlist specific to f u until u can't walk
Long slim fingers, I think u can think further urself
Watches u, like his eyes pierce thru you
Def multiple rounds
His stuff is rather slimy and doesn't taste bad since his nutrition is rather good
And their experiences shaving facial hair for the first time (Headcanons). I decided writing this because i feel like not a lot of people talk about common things we usually experience and it would be nice (idk) to see more silly headcanon posts about those things. I will think i will write more domestic headcanons soon.
Content warning: mentions of cuts, razors, nothing too descriptive. This post contains headcanons for Sova, Phoenix, Iso, Gekko, Breach, Brimstone and Chamber. I'll be using their real names.
- Sasha was 13 at the time. He thought he could do it alone in the first try.
SOVA
- He grabbed a razor and went silently to the bathroom. He had zero experience and didn't ask anyone for help.
- He ended up with some shallow cuts due to the lack of knowledge.
- It was very funny until he looked to his side and his father was at the door, staring at him with crossed arms.
BRIMSTONE
- 15 years old.
- His father taught him how to shave his facial hair.
- At first Liam didn't want to shave. His dad had a full beard and he thought it looked cool.
- His dad insisted in teaching him how to so he could be able to do it in the future.
(Don't tell anyone but Brim has a full beard now because he still looks up to his father)
PHOENIX
- Jamie was 15, almost 16 when his facial hair started growing.
- He was unsure how to do it so he asked his mom for advice.
- They both researched until Jamie felt safe to grab the razor and try by himself. His mother stayed with him to give moral support.
- He bragged for the rest of the week about how he was a grown up now.
BREACH
- 14 y/o
- Erik didn't tell anyone. He didn't ask for help. He was afraid of being judged by his family.
- Ended up with one or two cuts and razor burn.
- Avoided looking at/talking to his parents and brother so they wouldn't find out.
- At least he learned quickly.
ISO
- He was 16.
- He asked his family for advice so he could do it safely, without any cuts, razor burn or getting ingrown hair after.
- It went well, he was well informed and prepared.
- He didn't make a big deal out of it.
GEKKO
- He was 15 years old.
- His mom "forced" him to shave the mustache he was trying to grow.
- To learn how to shave his face, he read tips online and saw some tutorial videos.
- His mom was there to help him in case he needed.
- His little siblings saw him trying to shave and made fun of him. Their mom made them leave because Matteo was getting mad at them.
CHAMBER
- I have a Transmasc!Chamber headcanon so it didn't happen at teenage years. Instead, it happened when he started taking hormones.
- Vincent was actually confused and anxious. He didn't know how to start, half of him was happy he was doing that but half was overreacting and wasn't absorbing any thoughts.
- He called his father. It was a bit shocking because he almost stopped contacting his parents for a long time, getting a call from him was totally unexpected. His father got worried and rushed to Vincent's house. When he arrived, his son explained everything.
- His dad taught him and watched him try. That day he felt proud seeing his son.
notes : mutual pining ? i’ll let the audience decide , might be ooc since i wrote this based on all of his available voicelines so far ( . — . )
The echoing clang of bullets hitting metal targets reverberated through the shooting range as you took aim alongside Iso, the new recruit to the Valorant Protocol. You’d been itching to get to know him better, and what better way to break the ice then some target practice?
“Clean shot! I should let Chamber know he has a rival now.”
Iso shrugged and chuckled, as an acknowledgement to your compliment.
“So, Iso… I heard you isolate your enemy into that domain of yours? Interesting…” you remarked, keeping your eyes trained on the target as you shot a bullet straight to the head.
Iso nodded shyly, his fingers still gripping the handle of his pistol.
“Y-yeah… Just my way to secure a 1v1 duel…”
Oh, what the hell am I saying, Iso thought, mentally facepalming at his awkward response. He felt silly for acting awkward in front of you. To be honest, he finds you really, really beautiful. Maybe that’s the reason.
But to his surprise, you merely gave him a soft smile.
“That is sooo freaking cool ~! Can you bring me there someday?” you asked, your tone playful and light.
Iso was surprised, his eyebrows knitting together.
“Why would I bring you there? I don’t think having a gun duel with an ally there is a good idea–”
You giggled, which interrupted his words. “Not in a gun duel, silly. I just wanna know what it looks like in the dimension.”
Warmth crept onto Iso’s face, his cheeks tinged with embarrassment at having misunderstood your context. “O-oh… Yeah, sure. I hang out a lot there even though there’s nothing much… Mostly when I need alone time to read my books or… listen to music.”
“And, having company once in a while would be nice.” He smiled, his eyes glanced at you.
“Mhmm, then I’ll be waiting ~” you replied, your curiosity piqued. You adjusted your stance, firing a few more rounds with precise accuracy.
“Oh ! Talking about music,” you continued, gesturing to the earbuds that Iso always had whenever you saw him. “I always see you got your earbuds on all the time. I assume you’re a music enthusiast, yes?”
Iso nodded, his fingers fumbling with the gun’s magazine as he exchanged it. “It helps me to stay relaxed and focused. Music has this way of grounding me, you know?”
You smiled, appreciating his honesty. “That makes sense. What kind of music do you listen to then?”
As Iso put his pistol down, he began to list off his favourite genres and artists. You noticed the way his purple-coloured eyes lightened up. You were surprised by the variety of his tastes, from classical compositions to high-energy EDM tracks. Your conversation flowed seamlessly, as Iso continued geeking over his profound hyperfixation.
“So, do you have a favourite song?” you asked, genuinely interested.
Iso took a moment to think before answering. He has so many favourites, heck, he could create millions of playlist when he thought of it. Then, a song came to his mind, “There’s this one song that I find myself going back to quite often. It’s called ‘Helena’ by My Chemical Romance.
The name caught your attention, “Wait ! I know that song ! What’s the worst that I can say ~”
Iso chuckled, he continued singing along, “Things are better if I stay ~”
“So long and goodnight, so long and goodnight.”
Both of you started giggling, which lightened up the mood surrounding the both of you.
Iso started to fiddle with his gloved fingers, his expression softening. “To me, that song carries a powerful and cathartic expression of one’s emotions surrounding the loss of a loved one, so it has become one of my favourites.”
You were touched by his description and decided to make a mental note to listen to the song again later. As you both finished up with the training at the shooting range, you couldn’t help but feel a connection forming between you and Iso. He’s slowly getting along with you, no longer the quiet and reserved recruit.
Someone you could genuinely relate to.
As the both of you left the shooting range, the two of you talked and laughed, not just about combat training but about music, books and everything in between. His giggles caught your attention, the way he would bring up his hand to stifle his laughs.
Goddamn, he’s cute.
You didn’t expect the training you had with him could be the perfect time to bring you both closer. You couldn’t wait to explore Iso’s unique dimension with him, discovering not just his hidden talents but the beauty of the world he had specifically created for himself.
“So, about that dimension visit,” you teased, “When can we make that happen?”
Iso grinned, the embarrassment from earlier dissipating. “Whenever you’re ready. I’d be happy to show you around the place.”
“Can we make that a promise?”
“Yeah, promise.”
(A/N): my love for iso is growing… he’s so cutie patootie… do u get me…
[ Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5 / Part 6 / Part 7 ]
Genre: Angst, fluff
Words: 3k
Synopsis: One winter before his disappearance, you told your boyfriend Yu about a question you’ve had for so long; one even he could hardly respond to.
It took many more hopeless winters for you to finally have your answer.
Note: Please don't copy or steal my work and pass it off as your own! If you'd like to use one of my headcanons or something, I'd love it if you tagged or asked.
We're done with Iso!!
As per the vote, I'm moving on to Yoru once everything's ready. And man is he as painful to write as I remember haha
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Spring, present day.
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It took you a long while to decide on whether that was one of the worst or best months of your life.
On one hand, you came back with a quarter of the harvest you were supposed to get, and you had to wait for a while until your lemon trees would bear fruit once more.
That, and working with only thirteen lemons turned out to be much more difficult than you thought when it comes to baking.
And on the other hand, it was fun attempting to come up with workarounds with Ying.
That, and you woke up the next morning with a new sensation that wrapped around you like a clingy lover. And it wasn't anything like the miserable pessimism you hauled around, or like the apathy that…
No, no. It was apathy.
But a more positive kind of apathy. One that beckoned you to come to terms with many dilemmas in your mind.
One of them being that winter was just... winter. A season. And like every other season, it had its ups and downs.
It wasn't some omnipresent being out to get you, or whatever.
And quite frankly, this apathy was the best feeling you've ever had in a long... well, in your entire life.
You woke up looking forward to the day, with a desire to actually get things going.
And that's exactly what you did.
You spent the past three months selling those plants back in your apartment at that nursery, you made friends with that lady who recommended you do such a thing, and now you were back at Yu’s house to check in on your growing orange trees.
Heck, Yu’s neighbours even started greeting you whenever you came by.
They definitely saw you carrying the baskets of fruit and wanted some.
Maybe you should use this wealthy neighbourhood to your advantage, you mused.
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Ying called you earlier and mentioned discussing the state of her café with you since she had ‘more important matters to get to’. And you didn’t really mind, despite still being a mere barista, but she said she’d discuss the details by afternoon… But the location?
Yeah, she promised she’d get back to you on that after she’d decided.
You moved down the short corridor, your eyes taking a moment to adjust to the strong rays that poured through the windows of the doors.
The darkness around you did not help ease the pain of such a bright light. But even then, you wrapped your free hand around the handle and forced the door open, allowing the brightness to finally balance itself out.
You noticed something yellow out of the corner of your eye. And you would’ve dismissed it if you hadn’t turned to look at what it was.
It was… inside the basket.
There was one Meyer lemon, probably from that harvest months ago that the two of you missed.
It kind of made sense that you’d forget it. You haven’t really visited this house after that day, not with the ongoing streak of snowstorms. And, you know, Ying’s persistence on keeping you safe.
Your thoughts were interrupted by the buzzing of a nearby mosquito. And immediately, you dropped the watering can and crushed the bug, instantly killing it.
Now that you considered it, the one good thing about winter was the lack of annoying insects.
That, and the fact it helped plants rejuvenate after a harvest, and that it kept earth’s temperature in check, and…
No, nevermind. You didn’t want to be warming up to winter.
Pun intended.
You moved back towards your growing orange trees and observed their shape for a moment. And like the row of lemon trees right behind them, they looked as otherworldly as they were.
The white flowers on it looked even prettier under the sunlight’s strong glare. Much prettier than in the winter, but they both had their charm.
Super photogenic.
Just as you grabbed the watering can up from the ground, your phone vibrated with an embarrassingly loud ringtone, and you pulled it out of your pocket only to discover that Ying was calling.
At the worst time as well, you thought as you answered and held up the device to your ear.
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"Hi."
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"Y/N, I've decided!"
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Her voice took you by surprise more than the ensemble of loud chirping birds around you.
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"Decided?"
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"We're going to meet up on the bridge. Do you remember it?"
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You kept the phone held up against your ear with your shoulder, grabbing one branch and gently pushing it aside so that the water from your can could reach every crevice of the tree.
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"The bridge...?"
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"Yes! I was told it looks ethereal in the spring, and it truly does! Ah, and it's closer to the train station than I thought. We can use it as a landmark for when we leave. What do you think?"
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You continued watering in silence for a moment.
It looks ethereal in the spring? Who the heck told her that?
Whatever, it wasn’t your job to question everything.
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"That can work. When do I come by?"
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"Actually, I'm already here."
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You immediately stopped watering.
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"Already? Ying, the least you could've done was give me a heads up."
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“I’m sorry, but I have something scheduled for sundown! I’ll see you there, okay? I promise you, it’ll be worth it!”
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She closed the call before you could retort.
She was probably going to promote you or straight up just hand you the café. What with how busy she was starting to get and how much she disappeared, it wouldn’t surprise you if it turned out to be actually that.
You didn’t really mind taking control of the café, now that you thought about it… Oh, but the idea of dealing with your co-workers’ minute problems sounded like pure torture.
You sighed and continued watering your plants in silence, quickening your pace so that you’d be able to make it to her in time.
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It took you a while, but eventually, you made it. And the only guidance you used was the pitter patter of the children’s feet as they ran around and cackled, alongside the melodic chirping of the birds.
The bus left a trail of smoke as it sped off, but this one mild inconvenience was immediately drowned out by the sight before you.
Ying was right, the place looked like paradise on Earth now that it was spring.
The waters were crystal clear, the trees were full of life and the grass on the ground vibrated with an enigmatic amount of cheerfulness. Almost like they were harmoniously swaying to a tune you couldn’t hear.
Had someone taken a picture of this place, you would’ve convinced yourself it was just editing and that there was no way Earth would look like this.
But it did, you mused as you approached the bridge.
It didn’t take long for you to arrive at a comfortable spot and rest your arms on the warm railing.
Thankfully, despite your short height, the railings weren’t too tall and your loose clothes allowed you maximum flexibility to peer through to catch a glimpse of the waters.
Short enough for you to be able to comfortably lean on it, but not so short children could fall down.
Your eyes were firmly fixated on the lake.
And for the first time in so long, you felt... content.
You still didn't know what your goal in life was. You still didn't know why you should keep going, among many other questions like that.
But all you knew was that the path your life headed in... Well, you didn’t want to change anything about it.
What would tomorrow look like? You pondered with a fond smile, holding up the Meyer lemon just above the lake and allowing the sun's light to shine in on it.
And it beamed. It beamed with celestial beauty unfathomable to the human mind.
This was your harvest.
You put down the lemon with an even wider smile and stared at the lake instead, the fish that swam by.
Tomorrow sounded amazing, now that you thought about it.
And you looked forward to it.
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"Y/N?"
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A soft voice promptly came up from behind you.
You sighed and stuffed the lemon back into your pockets, before turning around to meet her gaze.
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"What took you so long? I thought you were in a hurry–"
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The moment you locked gazes with a familiar pair of lilac eyes, your breathing hitched, and time stood still.
It took a moment to comprehend that this person wasn’t Ying. It wasn’t Ying at all.
It was…
You felt your heart drop as you rapidly looked the figure up and down.
Broad shoulders, purple eyes, black hair, tall stature…
It was Yu. He stood only a few feet away from you; and he donned a meticulously designed hoodie with collars tall enough to conceal the lower portion of his face.
One you had never seen before.
The words were lodged in your throat. Scratch that, no, your mind went completely blank, and the world felt like it started breaking apart.
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“Yu…”
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"Y/N, I..." He took a step forward, the floorboards audibly creaking under his weight. "I'm so sorry."
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His voice had a sombre undertone. Slight and drowned out by the mirth that surrounded the both of you, but it was still telling.
It was one that successfully let you know that he drowned in regret, all without saying a single word.
And yet, you still weren't sure how to feel about this. Sad? Happy? Furious?
The second option was the most obvious one in your mind, but for the love of God, you just couldn’t form a single thought in your head. Heck, you couldn’t even comprehend the situation in general.
All you knew was that Yu was here. And that was… No, wrong wasn’t the word.
His hand gently clasped your shoulder, and a familiar warmth landed alongside it.
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"I'm sorry it took so long, but I- I was caught up in so many things, and it all just..."
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He then pulled you into a hug.
Your cheek slammed against his chest, the impact only cushioned by his thick hoodie.
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"I missed you."
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You didn't react.
For a few seconds, you stood there with a stiff posture as you stared into space, unsure whether you should return the hug or just stay silent and not do anything.
This whole situation felt unreal. It felt like one of those hyper realistic dreams your brain would conjure up whenever it decided it wanted to escape your pitiful life, but that sprinkle of hope always scattered the moment you woke up.
But it wasn't. In fact, he stood right there, the familiar scent of lemons taking over your nostrils on account of how close he was.
Yu was here… He was present.
He came back.
Though you shut your eyes as hard as you could, tears still formed against your will, and they were quick to stream down your cheeks.
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"Where..." you started, "Where were you...?"
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You weakly pulled away, but Yu still kept you in his grip. And you immediately took this chance to observe him all over again despite your incredibly blurry vision.
It was as if those years had never passed given his features. He still had that same enchanting face, and those pretty lilac eyes that always tore away at your stress with just one glance.
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"After all this time..."
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You held his cheek and caressed it.
His pale skin yielded under your touch, and the palm of your hand outlined the sharp structure of his jaw.
The softness of his skin, the flicker of vulnerability in his eyes juxtaposed to his stony expression… All of it was all so familiar.
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"Why did you leave me, Yu?"
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"I'm– I'm sorry, Y/N. It wasn't my choice. If I could take it all back, I would–"
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"Why did you leave me?!"
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You burst into tears and clutched his hoodie, burying your head in his chest.
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"I thought you were dead! I– I thought that– I thought... I thought I lost you...!"
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Out of pure instinct, Yu was quick to bring you closer and tightly hold you in his arms.
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"I'm here, I'm here, okay? Nobody's dead."
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"I thought you died, Yu! I thought you were dead, I– thought you were..."
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Your sobs and nonsensical babbles continued. It was all the same repetitive questions about his well being, and more specifically, how you thought he was dead.
Each sentence you managed to complete felt like another blade plunging his heart, only further drowning him in guilt.
And unfortunately for him, the only thing Yu knew to do in this situation was hold you and gently caress your back.
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"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I– I should've explained it all from the beginning. But I... didn't want to lose you if I ever did."
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He knew how stupidly soft you made him. How he'd stutter when speaking to you, and how wide his smile had gotten when you two first hugged, your arms squishing his thick white hoodie just to reach his form.
The same hoodie he spent hours washing blood off of the night before.
Maybe he should've told you.
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"I thought you were dead, I– I thought... that gun, you–"
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Though you followed these loosely strung sentences with a curse, one specific word successfully pierced his bubble.
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"Gun? What gun?"
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This question seemed to bring you back as well.
You pulled away, and just the sight of your red cheeks and shimmering eyes, aching with raw emotion, all of it was enough for him to understand how much this impacted you.
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"I saw that gun. N– next to that medallion." You furrowed your brow, the sun sharply highlighting your tear-stricken face. "Is that it? Are you in a gang, Yu? Is that what you couldn't tell me?!"
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"No! I– I wasn't in a gang, Y/N. It's..."
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Yu's gaze fell. Unintentionally, he instead eyed your trembling hands.
He couldn’t hide this anymore, could he?
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"I– I'm... Look, as unbelievable as this sounds, I– I was a… I was a hitman."
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"...You were what? A hitman?!"
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"Yeah. I… That’s the truth."
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You narrowed your eyes.
It really was unbelievable. How could someone like him be capable of killing someone? No, not someone, but people? And for a job?!
You would’ve labelled him a liar if it weren’t for that blasted gun.
Then, a name popped up in your mind, one that seemed to support this idea.
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"Iso...?"
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He went blank for a moment.
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"...That's, uh, no, that's a code name. I switched to a profession less... suffocating. That's what they call me now."
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"Ying was in on this?"
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Yu's face blanched. But quickly, he held your hand and firmly kept it in your grip.
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"She was my only way of knowing you were alive! There wasn't any– Y/N, look, none of this should've happened, I know I should've been honest from the beginning, but I didn't want you to leave if I ever told you!” His eyes darted elsewhere. “Ying wasn’t happy when she found out, but I–"
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"I’m not like her! I never would've gone anywhere! You could've been the devil and I still would've stayed because I wouldn’t have kept going if you weren’t there!” You furrowed your brow. ”But that's not the case anymore. I still love you, but I know what I deserve, Yu. I know I deserve a relationship that isn't... one-sided..."
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You suddenly choked on your words. Yet, he was quick to respond when he could.
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"But we can have that, Y/N! We can start anew, no more secrets. Nothing between us, okay? Nothing but the truth. Just, please..." he squeezed your trembling hand, "give me one more chance. I promise I'll make you the happiest woman on Earth."
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Tears began to flow once more, tracing the same path as the ones that had dried out mere seconds ago.
For a moment, your eyes slammed shut, and you used this pause to both catch your breath and comprehend the situation.
It was hard to make a decision. Sure, you were unbelievably mad at everything. At Ying, at Yu, at the world, and especially those people who held Yu hostage, if his words were to be believed.
But, Hitman…? It sounded so unbelievable.
Yu was just way too kind and pacifistic to commit murder. It sounded impossible.
Almost mechanically, You rested your head on his chest, lying limp as he wrapped his arms around you. The lack of aversion on your side registered as permission for him to hold you.
Not that he still didn't remain incredibly cautious.
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"Happiest woman on Earth..."
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You muttered ponderously to yourself.
You were already happy. But you knew you’d be happier with him. Even after everything that happened, you missed having him by your side again. You missed his curious little questions about things you considered mundane, and that endearing look of realisation as you explained it to him…
Then, a smile lifted your lips.
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"I missed you, Yu." You hugged him back. "From now on, you’ll be honest with me. About everything."
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Being this close to him, you felt the jump in his palpitations as he registered these words.
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"I will! I will. I promise."
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You closed your eyes, allowing the familiar scent of lemons to enter your nostrils and put your mind at ease once more.
The two of you stayed like this for a second. It felt like this embrace’s sole purpose was to make up for how much you two missed each other. Of course, he knew he would’ve lost a bit of his sanity had he not known about your whereabouts, but he also knew that saying that probably…
Maybe it’s best to keep quiet.
Thank God for Ying’s updates…
Then, his eyes shot open at the mention of the healer.
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“Hey, let’s go home. I have so much to tell you.”
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You pulled away and wiped your cheek once more, noticing the eagerness etched on his features.
You nodded.
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“I’d like that.”
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With that, he held your hand and helped you stand up, and the two of you began walking away from the bridge.
His thumb promptly began tracing the lines on your palm all on its own. And of course, you couldn’t help but wistfully smile at this familiar
Despite everything, you couldn’t truly hate this man, no matter how much you knew you had to.
You just wanted to know how this gentle giant was supposedly a hitman.
You rested your head on his shoulder as you moved.
