#isoundcrazy

[mylifebeingdysfunctional]

Your eyes

Sometimes I think to myself. Maybe I’m too involved in someone. That i need to step back and not annoy them. I think to myself, they will appreciate me a little more if I’m not always surrounding them.

So I distant myself and then in the process make them angry. They think that I’m pissed at them or that I’ve had enough. I can never have enough. That’s my problem. I’m clingy and I want to have them in my arms and mind. Being able to basically swim in affections.

But I’m not that idiotic, that’s my imagination for you. When I distant myself. I give myself a goal of how long and how to talk.

But whenever I see that one person’s eyes. It all changes. I throw myself at them and I can’t stop myself. It’s almost desperate. I want to stop. To breathe and not embarrass myself.

I wonder if you have experienced love the way I do.

It’s dangerous.. It burns and cools and makes you crazy. It’s a love that hurts because it’s not reciprocated. But it’s also a love that’s loyal. I know I will never have him but I will do as he bids. I don’t want to hurt him only to make sure any girl that is lucky enough to have him. Deserves him.

I sometimes think… He sees everyone in too good of a light…like myself.

He should focus on what he wants and needs.

Because otherwise… He’ll slowly destroy himself. And I can’t bare that.

My love. Is for him only… Whether he knows it or not.

[daydreamingrenee]

You ever feel everything changing?

It's like all the energy we put out is just bouncing around, waiting for you to notice. I feel things in my life about to change. Not on the surface, deeper things, connections, mindsets. All the changes I've been through these last months: moving into my own place, going back to school, those weren't as strong of a feeling that I have now. Those were just surface changes, this feeling is bigger.

[a-millionroses]

Do you ever get that inner nagging feeling of "I want to go home right now"? Like when you're really sad and/or stressed and that was always your immediate thought when you were little. Because home was safe, home made everything better, it fixed your temporary problems, it was an escape. But then one day you're sitting there with that same "I just want to go home" feeling, yet the thing is you are at home. You're sitting at home and you realize that there is nowhere to escape to anymore. This is growing up. You don't have choices, you can't run away from your problems or your feelings. You have to face them. It's so sad. There is no safe place anymore, you have to just suck it up and deal with it constantly. I wish there was somewhere to run and hide to and just cry and cry but nope. Nothing.

[tarrara]

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I need to stop getting so caught up in my thoughts of you. It's not like the more I think of you, the faster you'll come back to me. My thoughts of you are a waste of my time, and I have bigger problems to worry about. So get out and leave me alone.

[yoshiriderr]

Honestly fuck Morgona she's fucking evil and crazy she just randomly became evil. Magic corrupted her so bad

[tayloryvonnee-blog]

Every night..

Every god damn night, I lay in bed and think about you. I think about everything and anything there is to think about. And every night I want to tell you how much I love you. How much I want you to be here with me.. I've been waiting for 2 fucking years. And its driving me insane. Oh how lucky people are to be with the ones they love and see them whenever they want. You don't realize what you have until its not there anymore. But I not only have to wait 5 months for you to be finally home, I have to wait longer. Longer for you to want me again. To be with me. And hey I suppose that's my fault after all isn't it. I mean it's always my fault. It just sucks. Because what if you turn around and you don't want me. How long I would have been waiting would all be for nothing. And you can't say you can't find anyone else anymore because you proved that wrong weeks ago. Every day I think about you, and it makes me wonder how much you actually want me..

[glaryrandomday]

Momma's home! #isoundcrazy #catlady

[lovethemozart-blog]

So we've been here almost over a week and my mom and I have noticed some thing that isn't right around here. Mom said she saw something by the sliding door in the dining room, also something by the bathroom door that leads to outside. I haven't seen anything but I felt it and it made me feel sick. My cousin saw it too, and she doesn't ever say stuff like that. My aunty says she sees it too because it passes by her window all the time. My other aunty who is the head of the house is in denial about it and my mom wants to anoint the house almost like blessing it but my aunty said no, so we cant do anything. Its just so crazy that if we were normal stuff like this wouldn't happen. Buut my grandma said that our whole family are sensitive to this stuff and its a pain in my ass.