Feelings
Anonymous Said: Mayans Request- (and I’m just spitballin btw. I’ve actually never sent a fanfic request before lol ummm…) So like maybe Johnny or EZ or Angel and maybe they have known the girl since they were kids and they were always just friends but now he’s recently caught feelings? And maybe he doesn’t like fully understand why or what to do since they’re just friends? Idkkk 😐🤦🏼♀️ Too specific huh? 😅 Lol anyways Love your writing!! ❤️
I left it at a cliffhanger, so you can let your imagination run wild with how Evie responded to him. It may even turn into a series of drabbles but until then, maybe give me your opinion on what went down after Coco confessed his feelings.
Feelings Coco sat and watched his best friend carefully. She was sat in the middle of her living room floor, surrounded by canvases and a seemingly endless supply of colorful pastels. He had wandered over to her while he was going through his shit and just sitting and watching her in her own little world made him appreciate her even more. They had grown up together, stayed friends throughout the years, even when he was a marine and more so when he had gotten locked up.
Now, that he sat and really thought about things, he couldn’t help but realized he had feelings for her. Serious feelings. Ones that went above and beyond the definition of platonic. He was genuinely in love with her. It was crazy, he knew he wasn’t her type. She liked to date someone who had their shit together. Her most recent ex was a doctor and the one before that was a business owner. Coco was an outlaw.
“Ayy,” He looked at the blunt in his hand before he offered it to her, watching as she grabbed his hand and took a hit before giving him a smile. “Evie, you still single?”
Evie shrugged as she wiped her hands on her already stained white shirt. “I mean, I guess so. I was talking to this dude but he hasn’t replied to my text in over two weeks, so I said fuck it and him. I’m just doing my thing. Trying to get these pieces done for an exhibit in a month. You still single?”
“I didn’t like that guy anyway,” he shook his head. “Yeah, I haven’t been in a relationship in a long ass time, since that one chick.”
“That narrows it down so well,” She laughed as she took a sip from her wine glass. “I never keep track of your relationships.” She shook her head before turning her body to him. “You’ve been spending so much time here with me, I’m thinking that you’re running from something or you just really fucking miss me.”
“Both,” He spoke honestly. There was no point to lie to her, she knew him just as well as he knew himself. That’s what made her that much more attractive, she knew him and his mind and she still wanted to stick around and be in his life. “What? I’m not allowed to miss my best friend?”
Evie moved to the sofa and draped her legs over his lap. “I’m here, I’m ready to listen to you if you wanna get shit off of your chest.” She pushed his hair out of his face and smiled. “How are things with your kid?”
Coco shrugged as he lazily dragged his fingers up and down her legs. “It’s coo’ I mean. It’s weird going from her thinking I’m her brother to the truth being out and the open. Still fucking hate my mom for selfishly keeping her in our lives. She could’ve been something more.”
“Your mom has never had the greatest judgment, money rules everything.” She pouted at him. “If we want to change the subject we can.” She rubbed the back of his neck. “We can talk about the fact that I’m not married with kids right now and I swore up and down that I would be by now.”
He laughed as he set his total focus on her. “Can I speak honestly with you right now?” He sighed. “It may change shit between us but I gotta be honest with you. I don’t think I’ve ever kept any shit from you.”
She nodded slowly as she stubbed the blunt out in the ashtray. “Alright, I’m listening, it’s honesty hour.”
“My mom, she didn’t skip town.” He shook his head as he let his gaze fall on her legs, taking in the intricate mandala design that took up most of her lower left leg. “She’s dead. It was fucked up, you know? We got into it and I just snapped-- I killed her.”
“Jesus, Johnny.” She looked at him before grabbing his chin and forcing him to look at her. “Are you okay? I figured your mom didn’t just up and skip town and leave behind your kid. That was free money for her.”
“You don’t think I’m a monster?” He sighed. “You don’t think I’m irredeemable?”
Evie smiled. “Nah, you’re not a monster, fucked up? Yeah. Irredeemable? Nah. Everyone can find redemption. I’ve known you basically my entire life and you’ve done worse. A whole lot worse.” She shook her head. “Is that what made you hole up in this place with me? Wanting to get that off of your chest.” She rested her forehead against his. “In all honesty? I’ve been wanting to kill your mom since she snatched me up and busted my nose and lip when we were fifteen.”
“Not just that, something else.” He eyed her carefully. “I don’t know how to handle this shit, we’ve been friends since we were kids--- I got feelings for you and I get it if you don’t feel the same but I can’t fucking keep this shit from you Evie. I just don’t know what to fucking do or how to act around you. It’s all new to me. I ain’t ever have feelings like this before. I just get around you and it feels like more intense than it did before. I don’t expect you to confess to having feelings, you can do a whole lot fucking better than me but I just had to let you know. I am in love with you and I have no clue what to fucking do about it.”









