#it felt so good...

[polneraff]

Had a dream where Sollux and I held hands today.

I have been blessed.

[miiittins]

That was a really good shower

[vulturehead]

the one thing I like about the psych ward is feeling free to act as “mentally ill”/abnormal as i want— sitting curled up in a little ball at all times, occasionally rocking from side to side, openly stimming, moving and speaking in ways that are distinctly Strange.

Normal Human Behavior feels like a language that i’m nearly fluent in but not quite; i don’t mind speaking it and i can do it well enough that i usually pass as a native, albeit a quirky one. but it’s such a relief to be able to act naturally, sitting in weird positions and moving in strange repetitive ways and phrasing things in ways that range from “creative” to “nonsensical”

i’m not sure how much of this is a universal human experience and how much of this is due to me having unusual life experiences and/or an unusual brain, but either way I hope someday i have people in my life who i feel comfortable enough with to be Openly Strange. social interaction is so much more pleasurable and less draining when i don’t have to keep myself neat and tidy and human

[armouredswampert]

Had an extremely vivid dream of sitting in a pub and someone leaning their head on my shoulder. 

I don’t have that “absence of intimacy in my life is slowly killing me” image with me, someone post it

[avantegardedog]

tw self harm