#it is a vent

[the-sad-boi-hours]

sometimes a house is not a home

[ilovettrpgs]

getting older is weird. my birthday is soon (though I'm not revealing the exact information of when on the internet for obvious reasons) and it feels really weird knowing I only have so much time left before I'm the age I never planned to be alive for. What do I do from then? four years ago I didn't even think I would still be here by now. I like being the age I am right now. The next one is such a big and scary number, even if there are worse ones to come. It feels really weird, especially since I can't stop it. Time keeps moving forward, no matter how intensely you savor every second that passes by. But I guess it's kind of beautiful in a way, if you think about it anyways, happy early birthday to me

[shattered-seraphym]

I love taking care of people

[lovesickkittycat]

it feels like i have been through things i just dont remember or havent processed. i have such extreme reactions to a specific genre of thing and im so lost like. did something happen i dont remember? it is a culmination of small things and societal things? why do i react sooo fucking intensely to this genre what is this specific thing to hard for me did i miss an episode of my own life

[nox-mystic]

not even of my own. but of everyone else's. god, everything is so fucked up. so fucked. sometimes i really hate the way this works... life, existence, our own minds, our psychological makeup. i hate it all fiercely.

we live in a fucking backwards society, in a backwards world, with some sick backwards god

sick and backwards and weird

maybe we experience hell first, so we know what rest and heaven is really like

but looking at the way things work, i'd guess at this point we may just be doomed. i'm getting carried away. because i do hate it all, i despise it, and i love it too

everything is far too beautiful

and far too loathesome

and perceived as far too average

and that's exactly the way it should be

it's too much

it's overwhelming

it's fucking overwhelming and it makes me want. to. die.