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I'm so tired. Hopefully, i can survive the day without napping and properly sleep at night.

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There are a few series of books that I can't bear to think about. Not because I hate them rather they are pieces of my heart, my soul. It's weird. Because I do like discussing books, movies, shows, and what not with people. But these certain books I just can't. I have the last book left to read for two series and I can't pick it up. I've got it downloaded but I can't even look at it. There's this..I can't pinpoint it but the closest explanation is that because I'm a hypersensitive person, incredibly empathetic...I tend to experience the emotions of characters very strongly. The trauma, pain, horror more so. I know that you can't truly experience what they experience and say you relate to things you've never gone through yourself but that's the thing, their emotions I can relate to very strongly. Maybe not what happened to them but how they think, feel is what bleeds into me. So I think what prevents me to pick up these books is that in my head, I'm afraid of what it'd mean to read it all again or continue on. It means I have to 'To go through it all over again'. The memories of the fucking pain, the traumatizing events will come back and I'd be stuck in the whirlpool again and not be able to function in my daily life. It sounds like an exaggeration but it isn't. It disrupts my life. It sounds messed up and I don't think it's normal at all. This sort of thing is way too intense. To me, the pain and trauma feels so real and personal...I'm not sure how to broach the subject to my therapist. I don't want to be told that it's nothing, or something of little concern by her because to me it's big. And it effects me greatly.

There are only a couple series that made me this way thankfully. I don't know what I'd do if it were for all books.