#psychological affects

[quietfuckingcourage]

One of my biggest triggers figured out

it took my a long time to figure this out about myself. And this is put so succinctly...I really appreciate it. Ive become a people pleaser like this, figuring that the only way I'd be worth smth would be if I'm useful. I was and still am described as being a "soft girl" or tenderhearted bc I "don't ask for anything or cause trouble" It's incredibly triggering for me now whenever it's uttered or implied. I feel this label forced me into donning this "softness" and turning it into a dominant part of me. I've been resenting myself so long. Constantly going through such intense moments of identity crisis that I wanted to hurt myself or the people I wanted to please and "accept me". Those who called me "soft".

I've mentioned before that being soft isn't a bad thing. That it's a part of me. But I realized that that kind of softness is different from the softness my parents and family see in me. The implication of their words have been torturing me for a long time. I've only just begun recovering. Learning how to just Be from scratch.

[quietfuckingcourage]

There are a few series of books that I can't bear to think about. Not because I hate them rather they are pieces of my heart, my soul. It's weird. Because I do like discussing books, movies, shows, and what not with people. But these certain books I just can't. I have the last book left to read for two series and I can't pick it up. I've got it downloaded but I can't even look at it. There's this..I can't pinpoint it but the closest explanation is that because I'm a hypersensitive person, incredibly empathetic...I tend to experience the emotions of characters very strongly. The trauma, pain, horror more so. I know that you can't truly experience what they experience and say you relate to things you've never gone through yourself but that's the thing, their emotions I can relate to very strongly. Maybe not what happened to them but how they think, feel is what bleeds into me. So I think what prevents me to pick up these books is that in my head, I'm afraid of what it'd mean to read it all again or continue on. It means I have to 'To go through it all over again'. The memories of the fucking pain, the traumatizing events will come back and I'd be stuck in the whirlpool again and not be able to function in my daily life. It sounds like an exaggeration but it isn't. It disrupts my life. It sounds messed up and I don't think it's normal at all. This sort of thing is way too intense. To me, the pain and trauma feels so real and personal...I'm not sure how to broach the subject to my therapist. I don't want to be told that it's nothing, or something of little concern by her because to me it's big. And it effects me greatly.

There are only a couple series that made me this way thankfully. I don't know what I'd do if it were for all books.

[ijtsrd]

A Review on Psychological Impact of Coronavirus Disease 2019

by  Aamir Mohsin | Rakhi Ahuja | Sreekiran CV "A Review on Psychological Impact of Coronavirus Disease 2019"

Published in International Journal of Trend in Scientific Research and Development (ijtsrd), ISSN: 2456-6470, Volume-4 | Issue-4 , June 2020,

URL: https://www.ijtsrd.com/papers/ijtsrd31141.pdf

Paper Url :https://www.ijtsrd.com/other-scientific-research-area/other/31141/a-review-on-psychological-impact-of-coronavirus-disease-2019/aamir-mohsin

callforpapereconomics, economicsjournal

Introduction The rise of Covid 19 had acquired a noteworthy change the normal life of the common people. Largely individuals were limited within their home in a state of quarantine. The situation where people limited to stay in idle stage added with fear of Covid 19 induced major psychological effects in the population.Evidence Acquisition This paper intends to review the psychological impact of COVID 19 and its relationship with uneasiness, anxiety and depression were examined. For this paper more than 10different studies have been reviewed using electronic data base, i.e., Google Scholar, PubMed, Medline, Elsevier, and Science Direct. Result Detailed review of studies pointed Covid 19 and other outbreak impacted the psychological health of population adversely. The psychological effects of anxiety, depression insomnia are found in diverse class of population along with mortalities of Covid 19.Conclusion Along with major morbidity and mortalities of the Covid 19 and other epidemic outbreak situations, psychological issues also need to be addressed with major concern through any proper psychological healing procedures including various traditional medicinal systems.