A Depressed Dreamer

25 | Socially anxious, depressed, kinda traumatized kinda crackheaded. Not to make light of the struggles, traumas and other shit people go through—I care and love you all, and will support you to death—it’s just how I deal with it? Idk I see life as a tragic comedy. I’m not exactly bitter, just a glob of amused, tired, disgusted. I may however offend some people, I’m actually a nice person, I just—sigh. I’ll just apologize now. Forgive me. Trigger warning ⚠️

[missinyouiskillingme]

The worst feeling is when someone makes you feel special, then suddenly leaves you hanging and you have to act like you don't care at all.

[xxspacelander]

[writeblrsupport]

Accept that you're always going to have unfinished wips, and keep creating to your hearts content

Don't worry, be happy now

[quietfuckingcourage]

Hahahahajha

I haven't been so fucking anxious and stunted from working in so long and I'm just barely on the edge of panic. I've studio projects to finish, late and missing assignments and I'm scared I won't get them done. Just like before. Just like before. just like before. I can't do it like before. I can't let this happen. I have finish the work. I have to. I can. I'll take it step by step. One thing at a time. Breathe. Sleep. Keep calm. One small step at a time. Progress over perfection. Progress over perfection. Progress over perfection.

I've got this

[tonysopranobignaturals-deactiva]

OH you know what? let's do controversial mental health/psychiatry opinions.

• forcibly institutionalizing psychotic people in times of crisis can not only worsen the situation but create lifelong trauma and further distrust in medical professionals and medication. it should not be a go-to option. believe it or not we still have human feelings despite a disconnect from reality.

• children should not be identified as 'sociopaths' both because antisocial behavior in childhood can be treated and because it's often a sign the child is being abused or neglected.

• people should be able to admit they're suicidal and/or self harming without fear of being institutionalized. with threat of institutionalization they won't get better, they'll just hide it more.

• not wanting to take certain medication does not make you hopeless and 'anti recovery', there are valid reasons why someone may be apprehensive towards medication as treatment and it doesn't make you delusional.

• everyone deserves autonomy in treatment, including psychotic people

• can you tell this post is partially personal rage

• oh well i'm still right about everything

[quietfuckingcourage]

My head's not on right

So many days I'm left mulling over whether I'm reading someone right. Because I do usually and then other times I fuck up and I'm not sure whether the person is actually being nice to me as pity or falsely or anything else. I analyze and analyze and analyze and analyze everybody's actions even my friends' and their friends and interactions between them and so many others and I'm comparing and comparing and comparing and comparing until my brain starts to rot. I know I think too much. I know I get helplessly stuck in this circle of questioning others intentions over an over again and asking advice from my friends hasn't changed anything. Not really no. I keep hoping for this cycle to change, to not happen but again I find myself quietly observing and watching. Tongue tied from all my doubts and constant analysis. I can't stop it unless I can distract myself with something. But it only hides behind a cloud, sending insistent whispers throughout the day like the devil it is. And sometimes I can't move move move move move move move because all I have concluded to is that something must be wrong with me to be feeling and thinking like this all the time and I would really like some help

[quietfuckingcourage]

Today the sunset broke my heart

[sedraboc]

[littlealienproducts]

Side Table “Chick” by Maria Rästa

[quietfuckingcourage]

*Side Chick*

[blossomfully]

“SHE WORE a sunflower dress and on the first day that you saw her, you fell in love. Over time, she fell in love with you too. She taught you what it was to live, with her wildness and her melodic laughter. And you taught her how to love. It wasn’t always easy. There were nights when she would wake up screaming and you would hold her close, and stroke her hair until she fell back asleep. There were mornings when she would be distant. A few times, you thought about leaving. Over Winter, when she cried almost every day and your presence hardly seemed to matter to her anymore. Over Easter, when you fought constantly. But there were periods of sunshine too. And it was during these times that you remembered the sunflower dress. “I loved that dress,” you told her, one July evening. “Really?” she laughed in that characteristic way of hers. “Yes.“ The next week, she wore it for the first time in a year, to meet your family. She looked so happy that you couldn’t help but laugh. You couldn’t help but love her. It is these moments that you think about now - now that she is gone. The sunflower dress and her melodic laughter. The way that you loved her. The sunflowers in your back garden sway in the breeze. You wonder whether she still wears them when she feels happy. You hope that she does.”

— Sue Zhao // The Sunflower Dress

[heavyrain-dc]

“All endings are also beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time.”

— Mitch Albom

[quietfuckingcourage]

Got my weekly home workout reminder from google calendar. Checked it done.

Crying counts right?

[tomsunlin]

Perfect self-care routine for the ultimate indulgence with these 20 ideas

[phoebebridgerspdf]

i wish i could google search my own mind like "whats my favourite movie?" or like "who am i?"or "tell me about myself"

[quietfuckingcourage]

Guess who spent 2 hrs doing embroidery shit and barely an hour of hw?

Not me stfu.

Oh no not you.

YOU just sent a fkn email and filled out a form.

it wasn't even hw 🙄

[chillpotato]

- Mahmoud Darwish from 'Memory for Forgetfulness: August, Beirut c. 1982 (tr. Ibrahim Muhawi)

[quotemadness]

“You know you are on the right track when you become uninterested in looking back.”

— Unknown