Oh, you think I'm gone 'cause I left.
But I'm in the trees, I'm in the breeze
My footsteps on the ground
You'll see my face in every place
But you can't catch me now
Through wading grass, the months will pass
You'll feel it all around
I'm here, I'm there, I'm everywhere
But you can't catch me now
No, you can't catch me now.
"In the years following Zoé's death I have done many things. Since her death, I have fought two wars, and gained another lieutenant. Sometimes, it almost seems that I have forgotten her.
But when I look up at the stars, I can see my forever, and I am reminded of her. Her eyes as black as night, her smile, her soothing voice, when I look up at the stars I am plagued by memories, memories of hunts and adventures and campfires, of tears and stolen kisses and nights spent snuggled into on another. I can't look at the stars anymore without the weight of everything that I have lost slamming into me, worse than holding the sky. I cannot even find solace in the stars, the infinite stars who were once sympathetic to my plight. I have forever to learn how to bear this and it honestly makes it worse. There is no escape from this pain, and I will simply have to move on, no matter how badly I want to join her in death." —Sunkellers, I Can't Look at the Stars (Ao3)
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I need everyone to re-read the 'Stars' collection