#it's today.

[inconstantsearchofperfection]

Today.

[sootsunrise]

a ramble

i miss it. what do i miss? everything. i look at something, and i miss it the minute i turn away.

i miss it. what do i miss? home. not the trees or the walls or the van, but the feeling of it. 

i miss it. what do i miss? everyone. i know it’s my own fault for not holding on harder. it doesn’t change the fact that i want them back.

i miss it. what do i miss? death. not limbo, but death. i miss the way it felt, a kiss of pain and cold metal and then sweet nothingness, a faint foggy awareness of my mother calling to me.

i miss it. what do i miss? life. i’ve been dying for far longer than i thought. i want to go back to living. i want to ruffle tommy’s hair and hold fundy close and make up games with tubbo. i want to eat lunch on the riverside with niki and i want to be able to make small talk with jack. i want to be able to trust eret again. but we all severed our roots, and now we’re all dying like malnourished flowerbuds, killed before we ever open our eyes to the sun.

i miss it. what do i miss? myself. i’m so much weaker than i was. i used to paint in full color with my words, stories to rival the greatest of the old masters. now it feels like i’m working with only a blank canvas, a needle-thin brush, and white paint. nobody can see it, white on white. i may as well have not been there, for all the difference i caused.

i miss it.

what do i miss?

everything.

[defiantly-whole]

WHERE'S MY EMAIL TICKETMASTER.

[softichill]

Nagito birthday

[itoldalittlewhitelie]

Wellp, time to reblog Beyonce and only Beyonce. 

[fire-bomber]

The Legend of Zelda: Symphony of the Goddesses Second Quest

[notclarashards]

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