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[ifthenightcouldtalk]

You are fire. You were not born to be smothered by someone who couldn’t handle the heat. Light up, burn bright, set the world on fire.

[storiesfortheafterlife]

do not look for healing at the feet of those who broke you

Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey

[ifthenightcouldtalk]

I wrote you letters but never sent them. I stayed up at night drowning in thoughts of you. Do you still care? Did you ever? Are you thinking of me too? How could you do this to me? Why did you do this to me? Why? Why? Why? I think and think and think, around and around in circles, until exhaustion sweeps over me like a blanket and finally I am at peace for a few hours. Except I’m not because there you are in my dreams. You are every where, like a disease that has spread to every part of me and there is no cure. I am trapped by you but you aren’t even here. There is no escape. What used to be wild and free is now caged, destined to rot in this hell you put me through. Do you even care? I don’t need an answer. I already know

[ifthenightcouldtalk]

In a world painted in darkness I could always find light in you.

[ifthenightcouldtalk]

One day he’ll wake up into a nightmare where he realizes he broke the heart of a girl who never would have broke his and she’ll be with someone who will never break hers.

Karma.

[ifthenightcouldtalk]

I thought I was over you until you walked into the room and my heart started racing like the first time we met. But hearts don't race, knees don't go weak, and hands don't shake when you're over someone. And that's when I realized I'm not over you. I've never been over you.

Break my heart again, see if I learn my lesson.

[ifthenightcouldtalk]

Instead of waiting for someone to love you with all of your flaws why not learn to love them yourself?

Commit to yourself.

[ifthenightcouldtalk]

1. Give yourself permission to not be happy. No one is happy 100% of the time and you should not feel pressured to be because other people are uncomfortable with your feelings. 2. Sometimes the road to forgiveness starts with yourself. 3. Screw the idea that you have to seize every day. Some days all you have to do is lie in bed and forget the world. That is enough. 4. It is better to be alone than to be surrounded by toxic people. 5. Don’t compare your life to others. You are exactly where you need to be right now. Focus on you and everything else will be fine. 6. Learn to work through your emotions instead of hiding them away. 7. Stop relying on others for joy. Find joy within yourself and the things you do and no one will ever be able to take your joy away again. 8. Work for what you want. The world will not give it to you but it is out there for you to take. 9. Be angry but then forgive people who have wronged you. The longer you hold onto that negativity the greater power it has over you. Do not let the negativity consume you. 10. Be the best person you can be, in whatever way you can be. Whether it’s helping others or learning to love yourself, end every day knowing that you were the best person you could be.

I’m still learning.