but they all keep reminding me not only to calm down and not panic and keep breathing, but to spar different people to develop...which is a good point bc my only goal for a few weeks has been to beat this one woman bc she's vicious and always beats me good, and that would rule but she's only one blue belt. and SHE has ambitions to defeat another woman (my coworker actually lol). and that's not even getting into sparring with the bigger guys. which isn't intimidating per se but you have to adjust your style to account for size differences in ways you don't when you're always sparring someone the same size as you. anyway both this time and last week I sparred her for four minutes and only tapped once 🎉














