Jun 14, 2023
We are at our breaking points & I have been strongly considering suicide because of this situation. I’ve been taking my blood pressure meds & my Valium but it’s not helping much. This kind of stress is not good. It’s making my blood boil & my pain flare up like crazy. It never stops. I fear that Paul is going to have a ♡ attack or a stroke and my ♡ breaks that I can not help him. He’s taking out his anger on me because he has no where else to put it but he also apologizes and understands that I can’t do anything about this either. I haven’t been suicidal since early 2021 but the past 6 months or so that’s all I’ve Fucking wanted was to end it all. We can’t take it anymore. I can’t take it anymore.
