Everyone sucks and I REALLY need to get out more
Actually being an adult is absolutely insane. Being an adult with other adults that you still don’t really know is so much worse. I think everyday I realize that despite humans being built for communities and all that, some people should just rot by themselves and some don’t deserve the touch of a woman.
Communication is key in any healthy relationship, no matter what that may be. And I know I’m not great at starting difficult conversations or asking uncomfortable but necessary questions, but you’d think people would be honest with you when you do manage to bring something serious up, even if it is in a light hearted manner. The only thing I’ve learnt about living away from home these past few months is that people want to be right, or just don’t want to lose their chances of getting laid, even if it means emotionally fucking you over. There are always going to be men that do this. Sure, you heard a woman’s voice from his room and found underwear under his pillow, but obviously you’re stupid for thinking that he’s sleeping with other people. Obviously it’s no biggie either because it’s not like you guys are together anyway. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not perfect, but at least I don’t lie about it and then pass around diseases. But I guess that’s in the past now. I can hold a grudge though.
Housemates can be so much fun. I used to love the though of always having people to hang out with. And yet here I am; barely seeing most of them and in a weird sex situation with one. Who would’ve thought that the rule about not sleeping with housemates was like actually quite crucial to follow.
On another note, just because skipping lectures is a thing you can do, doesn’t mean you should. I’ve become pretty much entirely nocturnal so I can either skip important shit and sleep, or go in on the verge of passing out. Sleep seems to win most day. I need to maybe actually leave the house for once. I don’t think I’ve seen sunlight in the past week. Or maybe I could just buy vitamins or something, winter is fucking me over either way.
-Ana