wow. funny coincidence.
long run-on-sentence-of-fuck-you-bs herewego
the moment i do a dissertation video on a popular series to try to show I can actually write and craft story and decided to detour to that because I was thrown out of and abused out of talking about my experiences in the animation industry (after everyone fixated on it and begged me to give my piece as the real victim and then promptly discarded that and ignored it) and had my original projects apart bEFORE i could even SHOW WHAT I WAS WRITING outside of the art I did, and THEN because I NEED to make something to show I AM AN ACTUAL STORY WRITER TO SAVE MY LIFE WITH MY OWN CAREER SKILL (and was violated out of the animation industry), AND BECAUSE I moved in fandom for so long and people always adored what i contributed, I truly thought it was safe(-er) to just talk about my critique with a series removed from the humans behind it who I don't need to know and am not attacking the personal feelings of and just say how it could have been improved from a place of PASSION for the characters and world-building and how i could have written it with a real understanding of what people in that premise would actually live within to simply SHOW I CAN WRITE TO A PRE-ESTABLISHED AUDIENCE because my original projects are locked out of finding one a "broken algorithm" social media.. (Please, MY GOD GIVEN RIGHT as if analysis isn't a skill-set required by everyone, freaking begged for in school and taught, and as if there isn't an entire fucking career around being a media critique where you're paid to be one and as if sites like rottentomatoes don't exist)
NOW the entire situation after more than two decades of understanding that this is 100% lovingly allowable is suddenly being reframed like critique of a series = direct harassment to a creator and you are a dick bc I guess in the TADC fandom a few people couldn't keep their mouths shut around the actual goosehuman in a direct line of communication with them and gave their critiques (the commenters were literally being serious and not using harassing language too like i got on my video lmao, despite still not being an appropriate location to do so just to make it fuckier and btw i do not need to even want my videos to be seen by the TADC creator bc they are not for that human they are for people who want to share my mind and passions unless that human WANTED to collaborate with me bc I loved working alongside others), BUT so now I get to live with a suddenly shift in fandom where I have to stop my series because now because just saying "here's how i would write it" could get me beheaded as targeting the creators to hurt them wtf (and ive been near exclusively getting comments essentially calling me scum and saying i hate the writers for simply giving a level-headed critique and being told to basically be harmed by them because i'm harming the writers by giving one... thanks. makes sense and people mindlessly clapping about it and ignoring anything i say even when i see them tell me i deserve worse treatment for liking the series and wanting to do my interpretation on it because you're not supposed to ever speak if you don't mindlessly adore a piece of media that is MAINSTREAM and far removed from the people behind the scenes) when alongside all of that transformative fandom fucking also was always right there and it was expected to do your own spin on shit but it's being carnaged differently to me exclusively, so when and who the fuck even is allowed to talk about anything anymore
Once again, ok, mindfuck. I couldn't work in the industry due to lies from actually-found-and-caught-sexual predators because no one fucking gives a shit about real victims so I will never get to meet or talk to another creative again who is in that career no matter what as I learned the hard way, so i decided i'd go to my original projects, then i get a massive harassment whenever i started one and was forced to just move away from it bc i couldn't sustain myself with how broken it was moving, and now OUT OF SEEMINGLY NOWHERE only days after I put my video up where I know i WAS so fucking funny and sweet and passionate, there's an entire tear in the fan-base over if people are allowed to just even TALK about not liking how the character writing was handled because it's the same as directly harassing the creator and that's essentially the only energy and comments i got on my video from people actually being more violent at me than anything they accused me of, go figure, fucking crazier was if i had made that kind of video for my other fandoms like IZ, I would have been fucking continually beloved like i fucking was for writing it in text posts so sorry i guess i moved with a very deep awareness of what was allowable from my own lived decades of life. this is insane. this is miserable.
why does everyone just adopt a completely different mindset under irrelevant topics on a fucking dime and not even notice they don't stay under the same fucking feelings about anything?
And i REPEAT, this was afterwards, AFTERWARDS, not a few days sooner so I could at least have staged my ideas and wording a little more mindfully along navigating away from that bs (and I can try to do so going forward but it looks like even just speaking overtly politely and not letting my ideas be allowed to say they are good is still a minefield rn). My jokes were from a headspace of being LIGHT-HEARTED AND NOTTHATDEEP and watching a lifetime of video essay writers on social media and learning what is and isn't moved to people and so my confidence I could do this came through and then, lo-and-behold, the rules and logic changes at the drop of a pin and always in TIMING to anything i begin doing because a coincidence that is one after another and always moving just after i start a new idea is fucking broken.
this is broken. don't think this shit is happening? when do I get a fucking break then? Don't even get to have people watch my videos after I was begged by everyone to make this kind of content and am just saying what made people love me when I did text essays on fandom accounts, and the only people who show up are lying over my videos and people are eating their lies and stupidity and not even acknowledging anything I EVEN SAY POLITELY in reply to them because they walk off after being visibly harassing me. This is. Fucked. This is literally not a real reality I can't connect the dots to something when using my own very heard established understanding of human behavior is not even relevant to what will occur next because group activity is apparently able to change over anything on a whim depending on what decides to make everyone feel one way about something. Horrifying people don't even notice they can't think for themselves whether the idea is agreeable or not.
Why the hell can't i just make my series for fandom and pull some of my passion for WANTING A GOOD STORY because I keep getting kicked out of my own projects and have it be understood? I dont fucking need to be friends with the fucking people working on the show bc i was literally not even allowed a fucking friendship in the industry due to the lies written about me and I just want to show I ACTUALLY can write to an audience that MAY see it bc i was fucking fucked out of being allowed to make my original projects to do the same. God fuck. That is fucking nightmareish. i'm going to actually die over this shit if I can't even secure an understanding I have skills at all to make fucking money.
at this point i'm ONLY allowed harassment to get help because that's the only time being looked at briefly and it's unhinged, it's so sick. this is so violent.
I wish someone was wise enough to even crack this shit open with me because what in the everloving fuck do you really think coincidences are this fucking constant and highly specific? Oh my god, does that sound insane to you? We literally live with a PHYSICS that reality is a patterning in its physical structure and you are still so mindless you haven't even listened to the mind that says there's literal coincidences and synchroncities that occur in a reality that is structured on synchronization. This ain't even deep it's just go outside and look at anything and note patterns and statistics. Now where do I go with that? I'd love to move to science but i CAN'T FUCKING AFFORD the degree because you all wrecked my income. So instead I have to sit here and entertain fandom bs and watch everyone hijack their long-established ideas of allowable story critique because the creator is having a tough time when since fucking did anyone give a fuck when it was V- shows.
No i don't want the drama I just wanted to LOVINGLY entertain with passionate story and ideas that made people feel motivated and happy to use their minds and ideas differently than this abuse everyone is throwing up nonstop and I'm forced to walk through a carnage bc you all rigged your system)
p.S. this is so staged apparently goosehuman can make fun of and put their own characters down but if you say you think their personalities are junk alongside it apparently you're harassing her directly

















